Chapter 7: Goodbyes

Chapter 7: Goodbyes

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"Independece isn't doing your own thing; it's doing the right thing on your own."

- Kim Jonh Payne

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After a not-so-good night's sleep (at least they're getting shorter and shorter), I find myself getting ready for the funeral. In 10 minutes Aunt Chris will pick me up for the ceremony.

Being a man, I can get dressed fast. And apparently I know how to tie a tie, I learned it by dreaming.

Well... not dreaming, but after waking up I noticed that certain knowledge was floating in the front of my mind as I was thinking about something.

Watching Spider-Man fight Green Globin... I think about how he could have fought better and done it right. Disassembling the laptops I bought yesterday... I think of better ways to assemble them more efficiently and to avoid malfunctions in the future. And now dressing in a suit... I have no problem, even when I've always needed my mom's help.

Knowledges of Bruce Wayne and Funny Valentine are coming to me. That worries me. A person is formed by his memories. Will I lose myself and my uniqueness by assimilating different cards?

I sigh and try to get my head off the pessimistic thoughts. I didn't gain any memory. And that knowledge was not transplanted. They came during my sleep R.E.M. very peacefully. No pain or confusion.

I'm grateful for them, actually. It means that I will be able to learn things from the cards. Different fields of science, martial arts, techniques, magic. I won't just gain the ability to do it, I'll learn how to do it too.

It reminds me of the earlier Spider-Man and Green Goblin fight I watched, apparently they've been having encounters like this for a while. And no one knows the identity of the two.

It might seem strange to anyone who's only watched Spider-Man with Tobey Maguire, but in the comics Green Globin's identity has long remained a mystery even to readers.

Things here aren't settling down in time for a movie or a comic book.

That's good and bad. It makes things more difficult, but I may have more opportunities.

I've missed so many opportunities. I couldn't get an Ivan Vanko arc reactor, Hulk blood or Abomination, a radioactive spider, kill Victor Von Doom. You know, these things...

Not to mention the things that might be happening in the shadows that I have no idea. Everything related to the X-men, in space, S.H.I.E.L.D. and others. Tch. I hate not knowing.

After all this thinking, I realize I've just finished with my tie.

"I'm thinking faster too, maybe I should write down my changes...no...bad idea." I shake my head before going to put on my new suit and glasses.

Looking at myself in the mirror, even trying to keep my nerd persona, I see that I'm much better than before. Smoother hair, brighter eyes, more upright posture, less pimples on my face, I shaved off all facial hair.

I can already be considered a handsome teenager. If before I was 6/10, now I'm 8/10. And if I take my clothes off to show off my new defined muscles, I'm sure I can score an extra point.

"And this is just the beginning, I will get better, smarter, stronger, more powerful and good looking" I allow myself a smile.

I see a message from Aunt Chris saying that she arrived.

"Early than expected." But it's okay, I'm ready.

I run my hand down my torso, feeling my Ultimate Thor Suit underneath. Nodding to myself, I leave the house to say goodbye to my parents.

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Even though I am present at this ceremony, everything seems so far away. There are many more people than I expected, from family members to patients that both of them helped. And that's just the life they've built in New York this past year. I'm glad to hear they were well liked...

"Wellnot enough." I think morbidly looking at the coffin going down 6ft underground. A single coffin with their ashes. United even after death. They would like it.

As their son I got special attention, but I have to say I hated being approached by so many people saying things like "I know that is hard", "With time everything will be better". No shit. I don't want to be consoled, especially when you say the obvious.

I much prefer people who just pat me on the shoulder and speak well of my parents. That they were good people, deserved more. Those pitying looks bother me.

And if only they were pity. My mother's brothers and sister are almost looking smug. As if in the end they won some secret competition of who stays alive the longest. Bastards.

Aunt Chris stayed by my side the entire time. In fact, it's more that I stayed by her side all the time. Anything to avoid having to blend in with my mother's family.

Tch. My maternal grandfather was so cool, how did these guys end up like this? And I won't even talk about my cousins.

Of all the people at this funeral, the ones who came to talk to me. Two of them caught my attention for completely different reasons.

I really am at the beginning of the storm that will be this world. I wonder when and what will be the first large-scale invasion of theplanet. Loki? Kree? Skrull? Galactus? Thanos?

Dr. Donald Blake leaves a little later and I'm still not sure if he's Thor or not.

Many have already said goodbye too, leaving only me and Aunt Chris.

"Do you want a ride to home?" she asks me.

"No... I think that I'm gonna stay for a while. Give my propers goodbyes..." I reply.

She nods her head and doesn't try to convince me anymore.

After she leaves, it's just me in the cemetery. Me and the tombstone with my parents' name.

I look a little at the sky, I see it's cloudy. It's just a misty morning of january.

No rain, huh? I was expecting some clichs for the weather...

*haah*

I sigh and kneel in front of the tombstone and just let myself bathe in the moment. In the silence. I let the thought that my parents are really dead sink in my mind.

"uh..." I start off not too well.

"I was never the most religious, you know? I've always been skeptical... cynical. I think it was because it made me look smarter...like an internet atheist..." I chuckle a little.

"But now I know there's something out there... There are gods in this world... one just came out of your funeral... But I don't think you're going to Valhalla. You guys are cool and all... but not cool Vikings. Haha." And here I go again, I always do it to light of the situation, making jokes when things get too serious.

But I need to be serious now. I need to be serious from now on.

"I am your son. I am your son for two lives. It's weird, I was transmigrated. I have repeated memories, new ones. I feel that the me of my past life has a little more precedence when compared to the me of this life. Maybe it's because he's further along in time, or because this world is fictional for my other one."

"But I mean... not for a second did I stop thinking of myself as your son."

"In this life or the old one. That's why it hurts so much to know that I lost you guys." I finally cry a little now that I'm alone.

"Without you I'm going to have to decide what kind of person I'm going to be from now on. I don't think I belong in the heroic business. But I also don't consider myself a villain."

"I've thought a lot, and I still don't have a concrete answer. But I think I know where to start. Like it or not, you guys created a good person. You two are a good people. From an outsider's perspective, it may seem naive or idiotic. But I think I want to help people, you know?"

"At least try... My priority will be my life always. But I think I should try to repay my luck to the world. The two of you are really rare people, who did not deserve to have died so soon."

"I want to create a world where good deeds are appropriately rewarded. I think there's a line from Batman like this: 'Sometimes people desserve to have their fate rewarded' "

"I won't have the cripling hero-complex like Spider-man. But I will start helping people more. Be more active. In hindsight, maybe because of the assimilation of Valentine and Batman, I see that I was very passive. Afraid of making mistakes, of failing. I will try to let it go."

"Failure can be a great teacher, Master Yoda says. Or 'Great Teacher failure is' more acurately" I again joke a little

"I will try to change the world for the better. And if I fail... well. They who lose. I will take spaceship and visit the rest of the universe."

"I thought I could just ignore everything, you know? Move to Brazil. Staying there for a few years growing in power with Gacha. And then come back kicking ass. But that would be an easy way out."

"And you, Dad, taught me that sometimes the easy way out isn't worth it. I feel like I would lose if I decided to escape. That I will regret for the rest of my life."

"I will fight and start my fight by bringing justice to whatever did this to you two"

"My justice" I complete darkly "see... I'm not hero material"

"Well that's it..." I say standing up after a minute or two.

"I don't know if I'll be here constantly."

"I don't know if you're watching me from somewhere, or if you two can't, or if you've already reincarnated."

"Haha. Perhaps you two were isekaied in some other world as well. One married couple in a fantasy world. 'That time a doctor couple was reincarnated in another world' hahahaha would make a good title. I would read your story. But I don't think mom would let you make a harem dad."

"I'm going now. I'll try my best... I love you guys" I say goodbye.

I should have said these things while I could. Teenagers should value their parents while they have them.