C42

What I've lost, I'll never come back

"You think I made you lose a lot of things. Your love, your marriage, Zhu Jiangci, you have never thought about what you have lost. She didn't have such a good life, and he still had a chance to make up for it.

Zhu Jiangci could still return to the origin, but she couldn't.

From the moment she decided to step on this high altitude steel wire with her life on the line, she was destined to walk on this road alone. Until the day she couldn't walk or took a step on the air, falling from the sky and breaking her bones, she could be considered completely free.

Su Qiao An sometimes felt that Zhu Jiangci's hatred towards her was caused without reason, with such a degree of loss, could it even be called lost?

His pain was nothing but self-righteous shackles. He could completely break free from the shackles that bound him.

Unlike her … Unlike her, he would never be able to escape from this sinful cage.

"Come back?" Tell me, how do you get the lost things back? " "You made me feel that I'm a piece of trash. Seeing you, I will think of my humiliating past, and because I'm powerless, no matter how angry I am, I can only endure."

"Didn't the king of Yue overturn the rules of the imperial court in the end? The process is not important, but the result is the most important. " Su Qiao An chuckled, "You have the ability to endure humiliation, and if you can still endure being pestered for so many years, it means that your willpower is extraordinary and your perseverance is extraordinary."

"The ancients said that if one wanted to take on a great responsibility, one must first rack their mind and bones. Congratulations! Mr. Chu, you have already gone through thick and thin, and are about to climb to the other side. " She didn't know what kind of nonsense he was spouting. The feeling of personally throwing away her emotions and ruthlessly crushing them on the ground was too damn uncomfortable! He was in so much pain that she couldn't even breathe, and he even had to tell him with such a cheap mouth that he was a trial sent by God to wash away their feelings.

Yes, she was a barrier, a barrier between them. As long as they crossed over her, they would be able to obtain happiness.

However, no one had ever asked whether or not she was willing to become that obstacle. No one had ever cared. No one had ever asked whether or not she was sad.

Her original intention was to separate them and keep Zhu Jiangci at a place where she could see.

Was she wrong?

If this was a mistake, then maybe she had been wrong from the start. She should not have treated a joke from Zhu Jiangci as a promise that they could live together forever.

"Come back with me." Facing Su Qiao An, Zhu Jiangci basically could not keep his cool and reason. He was very agitated, and this feeling got stronger and stronger every day.

When he saw her, he could not control the devil in his heart. It was as if only by speaking ill of her could he ease the unfathomable anxiety in his heart.

Was he happy? He could not find out when this near-morbid pleasure had begun.

Zhu Jiangci only knew that he wanted Su Qiao An to show his weakness. She had given in, she had admitted defeat, she had submitted, he would feel the joy of reaching the peak of his power.

After a brief moment of joy, he was lost and empty.

It seemed like … She was not as happy as he had imagined. Her dispirited appearance was like a vine that crazily wrapped around his heart, continuously squeezing and tightening.

"Go where? "Go back …" "That's not the place I should be staying. I should return to, return to my own world."

"Su Qiao An, my patience is limited, I don't want to quarrel with you this time, you …"

Su Qiao An interrupted him, "I won't run. I promised you that I will save her. I will go. I just want to stay here and be quiet. "

The moonlight was slightly cool, so much so that it enveloped her body, making her look as if she could disappear at any moment.

He could hear the weariness in Su Qiao An's words and the vicissitudes of life after experiencing so much. Looking at her, Zhu Jiangci actually felt that the current Su Qiao An was so weak that he could not even withstand a single blow.

He felt awkward, seemingly because he felt that Su Qiao An should not be like this.

She could argue with him arrogantly and talk viciously with him, but she wasn't as lifeless as she was now. It seemed that she would be blown away by the wind in the next second.

Zhu Jiangci grabbed her slender wrist, and dragged her away without saying a word. He wanted to push her into the carriage.

"You can't go anywhere until you keep your promise!"

Su Qiao An was pushed into the car passively, and before he closed the door, he ridiculed her, "Have you heard of a kid raising sheep? Do you think I'll believe your bullshit again? "

If you don't believe it, then believe it!

It would be good if she didn't believe it, since she was deceiving Zhu Jiangci this time.

The moment the car drove away, Su Qiao An looked at the shabby yellow street lamp outside the car window.

She had loved to stare into the distance, into the future beyond sight, at least when she was happy and full of enthusiasm and anticipation for the future.

Humans, the thing they were most afraid of was to lose hope for the future.

She had lost it, and could not find it.

In the rearview mirror, the building gradually turned into a black shadow as it disappeared into the night.

The night was as dark as ink. The car drove on the quiet road, and they could not see the end of it.

Su Qiao An felt that the interior of the car was heavy and depressing. He lowered the car window to let the wind in and even turned on the car radio.

"You know how dangerous that man is, but he's obsessed with unknowable romance and wildness."

"You want to be the end of his love, but you don't know how far it is from happiness."

… ….

It was really the lyrics to the scene. She had fallen into such wishful love, walking aloofly and sorrowfully.

Such love, deep, lonely and suffocating.

This was the world that belonged to her. It withered everywhere, slowly decaying.

Stepping into Zhu Jiangci's home was something she could only dream of in the past.

Thanks to Jiang Kerou, she was finally able to enter Zhu Jiangci's private territory.

No luggage, all alone.

Zhu Jiangci threw the clothes on top of her body, causing a large cloth to cover her head.

"The guest rooms haven't been cleaned up yet. You should sleep here first and in the guest room tomorrow." Zhu Jiangci ordered coldly.

She heard footsteps moving away and the door was closed. She pulled the clothes from her head and clutched at his clothes.

There was a familiar aura, causing her to feel a sense of nostalgia and powerlessness.

After taking a shower, she sat down on the bed, still covered in the hot fog.

Su Yun looked around, and his gaze landed on the Photo Frame at the bedside, and was fiercely startled.

The person in the photo had a sweet smile, clear eyes, and a youthful look.

She reached out and took the Photo Frame, lowering her head to look at the person in the mirror.

"Don't touch my things!" The deep and cold voice of a man suddenly sounded out, and a hint of anger could be heard in his voice.

Su Qiao An was startled, and accidentally smashed the Photo Frame in his hand onto the ground.

With a "clang", the Photo Frame fell to the ground and split into pieces.