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"I cannot accept any form of leaving me. It was you who turned me into a coward. Don't even think about leaving for the rest of your life. You must take responsibility for me." Zhu Jiangci said.

She was stunned for a long time.

It wasn't fake.

It was from the heart.

She saw his seriousness, and she saw his sincerity.

He was afraid she would leave.

That kind of attachment was something she had never seen in him before.

Originally …

Did he really hide it so well? They had been together for so long, she had never seen the deep, bone-deep longing that Zhu Jiangci had for her.

Zhu Jiangci treated her very well.

During this time, they had almost made her forget the past, causing her to have the illusion that the man in the past might just be someone she imagined.

Although he was fine, she couldn't feel how much he was attached to her.

On the contrary, she herself …

Her reliance on Zhu Jiangci grew stronger and stronger with each passing day.

It was not easy for him to be so honest about his cowardice. At the very least, if it were before, she really would not have expected such a day to come.

Su Qiao An gently hugged him and said, "Mn, I will be responsible."

The deeper they went, the more cautious they became, and the more cowardly they became.

She had always felt insecure, and had never thought that he would be like her.

She was finally willing to face the past, willing to face the nightmarish memories she most wanted to avoid.

When Su Qiao An took the initiative to mention the matter regarding the child, Zhu Jiangci wanted to cover it up.

But she insisted on going. Zhu Jiangci couldn't do anything about her.

The child that had already taken shape was taken back by the Chu Family and was properly buried in the mausoleum garden.

At that time, Su Qiao An was still lying on the bed and could not move, but as a father, he still did not know anything.

None of them had been able to send their children on their final journey.

It was Chu Shixiong who arranged the child's corpse to be cremated.

He had never been to the mausoleum. It was not because he was cold and indifferent, but because he did not dare to face it.

No matter how many excuses they had at that time, no matter how many misunderstandings and grudges there were between him and Su Qiao An, it was all for naught.

To that child, he was still an incompetent father.

When he brought Su Qiao An and stepped into the place where the child was buried, his entire body became extremely stiff, his thoughts were in chaos, his reactions were slow, and even his four limbs became stiff to the point that holding hands became extremely difficult.

Chu Yingqi.

This was the name Chu Shixiong had given the child.

There were no pictures on the small tombstone, only a cold name.

Su Qiao An thought that she would cry and run away.

She did not expect that after three years, today, she was really here. She was stronger than she had imagined, and instead was Zhu Jiangci. From the moment he had entered the mausoleum garden, his expression had been very ugly.

If it was said that Zhu Jiangci really loved that child back then, then for the past three years, every minute and second every day, Zhu Jiangci should have lived in an abyss of self-blame.

His life was not easy, and even when he brought up the subject of children, he became very sensitive, very emotional, very reluctant.

Su Qiao An was meditating on a tombstone.

Qilin...

Her Qilin should have already arrived at a new family, it should be a very happy family. His arrival would cause the family to be filled with endless joy.

It was better than following her.

I'm sorry I came to see you so late. I'm sorry I wasn't able to protect you …

Su Qiao An took a deep breath and apologized silently.

As she was pulling away from her depressed mood, she held onto the hand of the man beside her, "Qi Qi Qi said that he doesn't blame you, and I don't blame you, because I know that if you see the phone, you won't come."

Only after seeing that was as attentive towards his children as she was, did she dare to confirm that if Zhu Jiangci received a call, he wouldn't come; he wouldn't even ignore his own children.

He loved Qilins. He also wanted to see the arrival of Qilins in this world.

With so many people loving the Qilin, he must have arrived at a very good family.

"Actually, after losing my Qilin, I felt like my life was meaningless. I don't want to live anymore. Living has been so arduous, but I don't know why I can persevere." This was actually the first time Su Qiao An took the initiative to tell him about the past that caused her so much pain that she wished she was dead.

Every day she lay in bed and opened her eyes. They were white, and she closed them in endless darkness.

She could hear everything, she could hear people talking, she could hear comfort, she could hear things she didn't want to know about.

He didn't want to talk, didn't want to pay attention to anyone.

She could not find a reason to speak, nor could she find a topic to speak on.

What kind of mood should he have to face the sympathy and pity of others?

Should I cry or should I force a smile and tell them I'm okay?

No...

She couldn't do it.

No matter if it was the former or the latter, she couldn't do it.

The pain was so excruciating that even tears could not flow from his eyes. Even a word or two had become an impossible task.

"I thought I wouldn't be able to continue living anymore. I've already reached the end of my life, but … I still survived, didn't I? I thought I wouldn't be able to make it, but I did, and I came out, and I was sad to think of it, but I didn't want to lose my courage to live like I used to. " What she thought was an incurable wound turned into a bloody scab as time passed.

The scar is ugly, but... It won't hurt so much anymore.

Speaking of which, she should be thanking Feng Manli.

If not for Feng Manli causing a ruckus in the hospital, she might not have found the meaning to live on.

She hated them, hated them for salting her bloody wounds.

He also hated Zhu Jiangci to the point where he didn't even want to have children.

That hatred had allowed her to live on.

"I won't hide it from you. In the beginning, I truly hated you and wanted to take revenge on you. I even thought of dying together with you, but later on …" She paused for a moment, as if recalling her memories. Then, she smiled without a care, "I'm awake. I saw the three of us completely weaved into a story. I suddenly realized that you're right. The one at fault is me."

It was she who chose to listen to Chu Shixiong's arrangements, being willing to act as a pawn in the hands of others to break them apart.

Whether it was a marriage or a child, it had all been wishful thinking on her part. There was nothing for her to blame others for.

Only then did she come to her senses and choose to return what did not belong to her to Zhu Jiangci. She chose to leave and choose to return his world to him.

"I am glad that my eyes were not blinded by hatred, or else …" Qi Qi will be very disappointed to have a mother like me. " She was glad that she had finally taken the right path at the crossroads of her life.