Chapter 295

Author: Qin Ruoxu MACHINE TRANSLATION

For the past month, her whole world had been gray, black, or even colorless.

The Internet was flooded with news that he might have been ambushed, that something bad had happened, and there had been almost no interruption in the past month. There was even a growing trend.

She didn’t read or listen, and she almost blocked herself out.

Every minute, every minute, she told herself that she wouldn’t believe the Internet, the newspapers, or anything else until his body was found, or if there was any evidence that he was dead As well as the various social news clients’news that were written in such an exaggerated way that it even had a 70% realistic effect.

Therefore, in many subsequent moments, even when she dreamed in the middle of the night, she often thought that if she tried to persuade him to stay that day, would the result be different?

She thought that it should be possible. At least, it would not be the current result that made her feel pain to the bone and pain to the point that it was irreparable.

Between Fu Qingshan’s slender and strong fingers, there was a thin envelope. On the front of the envelope, there were a few vigorous and powerful words. It was even written on the back of the paper. It was his handwriting.

As he wrote, Qiao Man personally opened the envelope.

Qiao man lowered her eyes and looked at the envelope between the man’s fingers. She did not move for a long time. Regardless of whether it was her eyes, actions, or reactions, they were all in a daze and at a loss after extreme fear.

She was afraid that there was really something written in the letter to say goodbye, but she was also afraid that it was nothing. Just like that night, when she was lightly reminded, she did not even say goodbye.

There were many contradictions, but there were also some paradoxes in her heart. They repeatedly tortured her.

She really wanted to stretch out her hand to take it, but the hand hanging by her side seemed to weigh a thousand pounds. She could not lift it no matter how hard she tried.

“read the letter first. After reading the letter, if you have anything you want to ask, come downstairs and find me. I’ll wait for you. ”

Fu Qingshan handed the envelope between his fingers to Qiao Man. He did not care whether she caught it or not. He let go of his hand, then turned around and walked towards the stairs.

The envelope followed the man’s release and landed on the high-class soft carpet. She seemed to have lost something that she loved. She hurriedly squatted down to pick it up, but the moment she pinched the envelope between her fingers, her eyes were blinded by something.

She squatted there for a few seconds, or even longer, until she could no longer feel it. Then, she slowly stood up, tore open the envelope, and opened the letter inside Then, the man’s vigorous handwriting was instantly reflected in her eyes.

“Man man, if nothing happens to me, this letter will turn into ashes after I return from Myanmar. But… if anything happens to me, this letter will be handed to you by Lao Fu. ”

“I believe that you have already accepted and digested this news in a month’s time. Perhaps you are right. I am indeed more selfish than anyone else. In the name of love, I am doing a bastard’s thing. ”

“If anything happens to me, the old man will definitely think of ways to find you and leave behind his only bloodline. At this time, don’t try to be brave. You must listen to Lao Fu’s arrangements and leave the country as soon as possible. After you arrive there, forget about me as soon as possible. Forget everything here and start a new life. ”

“Man man, I didn’t lose. Think about it. Even if the old man was decisive and decisive in his life, playing tricks on the hearts of people, and walking on the glorious field of fame and fortune, in the end, only those illusory desires for power remained. There was no end, and there was no redemption. In fact, he lost, and completely lost. ”

“Man man, you told me that it was difficult to have both the kingdom and the beauty, but I don’t want to have both. I only want you. ”

“Don’t feel guilty. I did all this not to prove to you how much I love you, but because I don’t want to lose you. ”

“regarding that child, grandma, your parents, Gu Dongfeng, and so many innocent people and things, I want to say sorry. Even if the old man didn’t do anything directly, it still indirectly played a big role. If it weren’t for me, you would probably be happier than you are now. ”

“finally, Remember, I love you. ”

The content of this letter was no longer a gentle exhortation, no longer a trivial concern, but a true farewell.

Between the lines, there was a sense of farewell.

When the two words of the suicide note appeared in her mind, she felt as if she had been struck by lightning. Her heart tightened, and even breathing became difficult.

How could this be How could this be?

He was the commander of the 38th Group of the Central Special Combat Unit. He was a well-known young general. He was one of the few military talents in this country. He was her husband and the father of her child.

No matter what kind of grudges and grudges they had between them, whether they would continue to go on or not, she hoped that he would live well and live without restraints.

He was still very young and should not end his life in such a way.

After standing there for a few seconds, she seemed to remember what Fu Qingshan had said when he was about to go downstairs. She ran downstairs like a crazy person and almost fell several times during the process.

Fu Qingshan was sitting on the Sofa in the living room, puffing and puffing. When he heard the sound of footsteps coming from the red shirt wooden stairs, he turned his head coldly and looked at the woman who was running towards him from the stairs.

Her stomach was much bigger than the last time they met. She was a little dispirited and her face was often pale without nourishment. She looked like she was malnourished after not eating properly for a long time.

The woman walked quickly to the SOFA and stood in front of the man who was smoking on the Sofa. “Fu Qingshan, did… did he really die in the line of duty? ”

“Yes, that’s what everyone said. ”

Fu Qingshan held a slender man’s cigarette between his fingers, and the green-white smoke lingered around him, making his figure look even taller and more imposing, and also somewhat hazy and sexy.

Qiao man clenched the letter tightly into a fist, and the paper made a crisp sound with the strength of her hand. In the end, her nails even pierced through the paper, sinking deeply into her palm. “Fu Qingshan, answer me seriously, did he really die in the line of duty? ”

“I don’t know! ”

Fu Qingshan took another deep breath of the cigarette in his hand, then he raised his head and spat it out. His action was as nonchalant as ever. “You’re asking for nothing. ”

“What do you mean you don’t know? Are All your spies from the special combat forces idle? You can’t even find out this little bit of information? ”

Hearing this, Fu Qingshan raised his head and looked at her with eyes so deep that they could not see the ends of them. “Qiao man, how about this, let’s make a deal. ”

Qiao man looked at him in disbelief. For a second, she even suspected that there was something wrong with her ears.

After about ten seconds of silence, she asked in a gentle tone, “what… deal? ”

“You tell me where Yan ‘Er is, and I’ll tell you where old JI is? ”

Qiao Man’s eyes were filled with traces of watery light. She had probably endured it for too long. When she heard his ambiguous words, and even sensed that he might not be dead, the gathered watery light poured down.. One drop after another fell.

“He… isn’t dead? Right? ”

Fu Qingshan fell silent for a few seconds before he finally spoke in a gentle tone “I really don’t know. On the day he was attacked, there was a heavy rainstorm, and it was surrounded by barren mountains. Tens of thousands of officers and soldiers searched for seven days and seven nights. They almost searched the surrounding mountains twice, but they didn’t find any trace of him alive. ”

“They said that he was probably seriously injured and eaten by the wild beasts in the mountains… ”

She didn’t dare to listen anymore, and she didn’t want to listen anymore. She covered her ears and kept shaking her head, as if this was the only way to make her feel better.

Fu Qingshan leaned forward and put out the cigarette in his hand in the transparent ashtray on the coffee table. The next second, he stood up and wrapped his warm hands around the arms of the woman in front of him, shaking them vigorously “Qiao man, tell me, is Yan ‘er still alive? Is She still alive? ”

“No. ”

Qiao man shook off his hand with tears streaming down her face. Her dark and clean eyes were filled with pain and depression. “She jumped into the sea. She’s dead. She will never come back. ”

“You lied to me. You lied to me, didn’t you? ”

Fu Qingshan’s handsome and indifferent features were already filled with thick pain. Even his usually low and elegant voice was tinged with a hint of pain. “Qiao man, tell me seriously one more time. How is she? ”

Qiao Man’s eyes met the man’s dark gaze. Then, she said word by word, “she’s dead. ”

Fu Qingshan laughed softly. In the end, it actually turned into a shrill laughter. The laughter penetrated through the thin air and reached her eardrums.

Her slightly furrowed brows gradually died because of the man’s laughter.

It was a long time, so long that it felt like a century had passed. Only then did the man regain his composure. He lowered his head and looked at the shadow reflected by the sunlight outside the window. Then, he said in his usual cool tone, “I’ve already arranged for you to go abroad. Go up and pack up. Leave now. ”

“I’m not leaving. I want to wait here for him to come back. ”

He said that he wanted her to go abroad and then forget about him as soon as possible, starting a new life without him.

It was easy to say, but if she really had to start a new life with guilt and even regret, how could she do it so easily?

“You’d better not force me to be rough and go pack your things yourself. Otherwise, I can’t guarantee that I will pamper you and spoil you like he did, using your words as an imperial edict, even more important than my life. ”

The sarcastic tone and even mocking tone made Qiao Man’s heart tighten.

If possible, she also wanted to do her best to stop it from happening the moment it happened, but who told her that it had already happened No matter how much she regretted it, it would only make things more regretful.

“Also, if you don’t want this child to be taken away by old master Ji, you’d better listen to me. He has indeed repeatedly instructed me to be a little more patient with you, but clearly, I don’t have much patience with you, so you’d better not challenge my bottom line. ”

Qiao man didn’t move. She just stood there, not moving at all.

Fu Qingshan took out a cigarette case from his trouser pocket and put one in his mouth. He held the cigarette in one hand and the lighter in the other. Just as he was about to lower his head and get close to the lighter to light the cigarette, he heard the woman standing in front of him say.. “Fu Qingshan, you should know the feeling of guilt better than I do. It’s probably like living a life worse than death. If you think you have the ability to take me away, then I’ll do as you say. If you don’t, then please leave. From now on, I’ll solve everything myself. Of course, I’ll also bear the responsibility myself. ”

“solve? Bear? ”

Fu Qingshan’s beautiful eyebrows raised. He lowered his head and leaned towards the lighter to light the cigarette. After taking a deep breath, he slowly exhaled the green and white smoke. “then may I ask Miss Qiao, what will you use to solve it? And what will you use to bear? ”

He chuckled softly. Then, he took out a stack of documents from his briefcase beside the SOFA and placed them on the transparent coffee table “This is the divorce agreement that he signed. All the real estate that he owns overseas is left to you. If you don’t squander it, this money will be enough for you and the child in your stomach to live for the rest of your life. ”

Qiao man looked at the documents that Fu Qingshan had spread out on the coffee table. For some reason, her heart tightened even more. It was as if she finally felt that something had really happened to him or that he was already dead.

“sign it. After you sign it, I’ll send you off. ”

Qiao Man Walked to the Sofa and sat beside him. Then, she reached out to take the divorce agreement on the coffee table. After scanning it a few times, the rough contents were all about how she would benefit from the end of this marriage.

“I’m not signing it. Why did he only use a fake divorce certificate to lie to me when I was making a fuss about the divorce? Now that he wants a divorce, I just can’t live up to his wishes. I want him to be unable to rest in peace even after he dies. ”

After saying that, Qiao man walked upstairs. If it wasn’t for the bamboo forest outside the window blocking the dense sunlight, she could clearly see the delicate little face that was already covered in tears on the side mirror.

…

After Qiao man returned upstairs, she locked herself in her room.

Then, she sat by the floor-to-ceiling window and looked at the world outside the window that was brimming with vitality.

She just sat there in a daze until the night fell. Only then did she move. However, most of her body was already numb, and she could not even move.

If not for the regular knocking on the door, she would probably still be sitting there, waiting for the needle-like numbness to pass.

She walked over and opened the locked door. Immediately after, the tall man standing outside the door entered her sight.

It was Fu Qingshan. He didn’t leave, as if he was waiting for her.

“Qiao Man, the flight is at 10 pm. If you don’t want anything to happen to this child, pack your things and leave with me now. Remember, this is the last time I’m going to advise you. If you still insist on going down this path, don’t blame me for not warning you. ”

Qiao man’s legs were numb like countless needles were rushing towards her. After hearing his words, she instinctively hesitated for two seconds, then quickly said with a smile, “Fu Qingshan, you should go. Since Ji Yunshen left a letter for me, it means that he has already guessed that I won’t go with you and wants to use that letter to stir up my emotions. ”

“I have nothing to worry about now, there’s really nothing to be afraid of. ”

Fu Qingshan’s brows furrowed together, as if he had never thought that this woman would be able to see through everything so thoroughly. When old JI gave him this letter, he had said that if this letter still couldn’t let her go, he would do his best to protect her.

“Qiao Man, although I know that old JI’s actions are very selfish, you are the child’s mother. You can completely avoid this place and give the child a better life and education. Isn’t that good? ”

“If nothing happens to him, that’s great. ”

If nothing happened to him, she would probably end all of this happily and start a new life without lying or cheating.

But now, everything was based on his sacrifice and sacrifice. How could she start a new life without any scruples?

She couldn’t do it. She really couldn’t.

“okay, I got it. ”

Fu Qingshan finally nodded. Then he raised his left wrist and looked at the time on the exquisite watch. “This place is no longer safe. You Pack Up. I’ll bring you to another place. ”

“okay, I’ll go pack up now. ”

It was already night. The difference between the night wind and the temperature of the day and night in the mountain made the already warm spring feel like it had just entered winter.

She wore a long coat and walked in front. Auntie Zhao and Fu Qingshan carried their luggage and walked behind.

Just as the three of them got into the car and started the engine, muffled thunder rumbled in the distant sky. It was going to rain.

Qiao man sat in the back seat and looked at the scenery of the bamboo forest that was continuously retreating outside the car window. Her mind was filled with the image of that man.

For a second, she even thought how good it would be if nothing had happened to him.

…

When Qiao man woke up, the car had already driven towards the coastal road, all the way towards the direction of the Blue Mountain Villa.

She really wanted to open her mouth to give a reminder, but she could not open her eyes or speak. It was as if she was in a nightmare. She could feel everything, but she could not move.

The car continued to move forward. It should be very fast. She could even hear the fierce night wind that leaked in through the gaps of the lowered window, as well as the ear-piercing sound of tires rubbing against the ground.

It took about ten minutes or more before the car came to a steady stop.

The feeling of the world spinning gradually disappeared. What followed was a dense cold and the fragrance of flowers.

She tried very hard to open her eyes. When she saw the large amount of roses outside the window, she was sure that this was forest city rose international airport.

After Fu Qingshan parked the car, he got out of the car with his long legs. Then, he walked around the front of the car like a gentleman and opened the back door for her.

Qiao Man’s vision was filled with tiny bits of light and shadows. Even the outline of the man’s figure became blurry and indistinct.

She could see his lips opening and closing, and his voice seemed to come from afar. “Qiao Man, this is the only way I can think of. When you’re abroad, take good care of yourself. If you have any problems, contact me. ”

The moment the plane took off, she felt tears rolling down the corners of her eyes.

Was she really going to say goodbye This was the place where she had grown up. This was the place where she had carried so many emotions.

…

Qiao man had fallen asleep for a week because of the knockout drug. When she woke up again, she was already in Wimbledon, England.

The temperature in a foreign country was a little low. It was the season that had just entered winter, the exact opposite of forest city.

It was raining outside. She sat on the low couch by the French window and looked at the bleak autumn scenery outside. Suddenly, she felt empty in her heart.

It was probably not like home without him. Without familiar faces and language, it was even less like home.

Auntie Zhao was still doing her best to take care of her every day. Although she ate a lot, she was still too thin.

During the last prenatal checkup, an elderly foreign doctor frowned, shook his head and sighed “The child is not developing well, and the Placenta is not mature. Normally, you should be about to give birth in weeks, but he is only about 2.4 kilograms. Because your placenta is not mature enough, it may delay the delivery. My suggestion is to eat more in the last few weeks, and try to make up for the loss. ”

Qiao man really wanted to nod her head, but eating now was like taking medicine for her. It was painful and sad, but in the end, she still nodded her head, for the sake of the child’s health.

Perhaps the closer it was to childbirth, the more nervous she would become as a pregnant woman.

For example, she would worry about the health of the child she gave birth to, the pain of a painless childbirth, and she would also worry about her physical strength not being able to last until the end, whether or not she had to be stabbed.

Because there was no one by her side, and Auntie Zhao could not speak English, she had to do everything herself.

For example, she would prepare the clothes for the baby, the urine pads, the mattress, the milk bottles and water cups, as well as all kinds of children’s supplies. Often, when she came back from shopping, she would feel that her entire body had been wasted, and then she would be in a daze for a long time, thinking that if that person was here.. She would definitely not have had such a hard time.

However, reality did not give her a chance to catch her breath. She continued to run around the supermarket’s maternity store every day until she received a text message.

It was the number that Lin Yan had sent her after she fell into the sea.

When she opened it, it was a MMS message that showed the figures of a man and a woman.

Perhaps that man was too deeply ingrained in her heart and mind, so even if it was just a back view, she could clearly tell that the man was Ji Yunshen.

And the girl standing beside him was Ji Han.

She had thought of many images of him not dying, of him coming to England to look for her, and even dreamed of countless times, but none of these had happened in reality. It could also be said that she had not waited for it Instead, she had waited for this photo, which she did not know what it meant.

At the end of this message, a text message was sent. It read: “Call Fu Qingshan and tell him that you might have difficulty giving birth. ”

She did not even have the time to think about how the person on the other end of the phone knew so much about her. Almost immediately, she did as she said and called Fu Qingshan.

Fu Qingshan was in Jingdou, having an important military conference. When he saw the name on the screen, he frowned. Then, he said to his subordinates at the conference table to rest before continuing. Then, he got up and walked out of the conference room He slid down the answer button.

In the next second, Qiao Man’s gentle and elegant voice came from the other end of the phone. “Fu Qingshan, I just came back from the hospital. The doctor said that I might have a difficult labor. ”

“Difficult Labor? ”

Fu Qingshan frowned slightly. He glanced at the tall figure gradually walking over from the corridor. “Is the fetus in the wrong position? ”

“No, it’s probably because my body is not good, so the probability of a difficult labor is very high… ”