Chapter 148

I can only weakly shook his head, in this way to comfort him.

Ling Mofan has never said this to me, because he has never done anything wrong to me, this time is the same.

It's not everyone's fault, or everyone's fault, so it's unfair not to blame all the mistakes on one person.

If you want to blame it, you can only blame Ling Chenyun for being too insidious.

My fist secretly clenched, and closed my eyes again to prevent Ling Mo fan from seeing the hatred in my eyes.

Sure enough, if you keep him, there will be endless trouble. No one can stop him from going crazy.

I don't know how long, the plane finally landed.

I lean on Ling Mo fan and let him help me down the stairs.

Now I'm about to fall apart. Every step I take is suffering. It's like kneeling down at any time.

Ling Mo fan originally wanted to hold me down, but I thought it was troublesome, so he insisted on not letting me, but now it seems that it is more troublesome.

As soon as he got off the ground, Ling Mo fan's mobile phone rang.

He released one hand and took out the phone.

I'm staring at the name on the screen that I hate so much.

Maybe Ling Chenyun came to urge us again. He can't wait to take over Ling's business.

"Don't rush. I just got off the plane." Ling Mo fan slightly frowned and felt a little fidgety about his urging again and again.

After listening to the people on the phone for a while, the expression on Ling Mo fan's face began to solidify.

"What's the matter?" I asked with trembling voice.

Everything around seemed to condense with his expression.

All the bad things that I thought of before came up.

It should be, isn't it?

Ling Mo fan did not answer me, just said to the phone, "you say it again?"

Of course, he couldn't ask because he didn't hear clearly.

Then, there is only another case.

I grabbed his mobile phone like crazy, just heard Ling Chenyun say over there: "your child has been killed by me!"

Cold tone, as if out of hell Shura.

However, this is not the root of my fear, what I fear is that sentence, he said, my child has been killed by him.

Killed

It seems that everything around is in a trance, just like in a dream, my head is buzzing all the time.

"Jinyun? Ye Jinyun Ling Mo fan looked down at my pale face.

I looked at him as if he was dumb and couldn't say anything.

After that, there was no sound in my world. I could only see Ling Mo fan smashing his mobile phone on the ground angrily. The pieces were broken like my heart.

I slowly fell down, Ling Mo fan squatted and held me tightly. His mouth was moving. What was he saying?

I can't hear.

Something's blocking me.

How does the temperature on the body seem to disappear? From the soles of the feet, to the chest, to the brain.

Ling Mo fan holds my hand, I still can't feel the temperature, it's clear that his hands are very warm, but I just can't feel it.

Hearing, touch, disappear one after another, eyes also slowly closed.

It's like dying.

No matter it's dead, there's no hope.

At the moment when I lost consciousness, the only thought in my mind was this.

……

I can't open my eyes because of the white thorn around me. Maybe I've arrived in heaven.

I'll probably be able to meet my kids.

It's a pity that the weather didn't work out. I woke up in the ward, and my heart was still aching. I took a look at my stomach. I had a dream just now.

I don't know how long I was in a coma, but I only remember that I had a dream during the period when I was in a coma.

I dreamt that Ling Mofan and I were still on that beautiful island, my child was still in my stomach, safe and sound, not killed

But everything is not as good as the dream.

Ye Mengya's curse succeeded, but all the bad things happened to my children.

I really hope that the one who died was me, a cheap life. Take it away, then you don't have to drag the people around me.

So that my poor child wouldn't have to suffer like this when he was born.

It turns out that all the omens before are reminding me that this is a coincidence, but also a necessity.

Before all the bad things come, they will give me an omen. Ye Mengya's curse is, so is that dream, and so is my doubt that day.

They all hint at me, but I stubbornly vetoed, so it will cause everything now.

I began to believe that these things are nothing, without scientific basis.Maybe Ling Mo fan and I are not suitable for each other. Our union is unknown. The sudden question of that day has already been reflected.

I have already begun to doubt in my heart that two people who have no intersection at all can never be together forever.

Everything was arranged in the dark, but I never let go.

My life is cheap, so everything is not going well. It's a drag on so many people, Ling Mo fan, my father, and the loss of three children.

These three children are innocent, but why should they lose their lives because of me.

Finally understand what it means to be disheartened.

I want to go, do not want to affect them, I want to disappear forever, so that we are relaxed.

Maybe it's time to stop now, so don't delay. Ling Mo fan, without me, he can live a better life. At least don't run around for my affairs.

The world around seems to have lost its luster, just like when I was a child with Chuyan and ye Mengya.

But there is still a ray of light around me.

I took a look at Ling Mo fan who was leaning on the chair. He seemed to be closing his eyes, but he really fell asleep, just very shallow.

Before I had no children, he was the only light in my gray world, but I also had to stay away from my light, in order not to let him die with me.

People like me are only suitable for staying in the dark corner with weeds, forever.

It's better not to touch him. His world should be shining. He shouldn't stain himself for me.

I looked at Ling Mo fan's tired face and felt a little distressed. He probably didn't sleep well from the moment I gave birth to him. In a very bad mood, he had to be busy all the time.

Good reluctant, but I know I have to do it.

Ling Mo fan fell asleep, his eyebrows suddenly wrinkled slightly.

Is this a nightmare?

I raised my hand to smooth it. He felt the movement, grabbed my hand and opened his eyes.

"Awake?" His voice was full of surprise and frustration.

I made a subtle "um.".

It's not just the sound of the throat, it's the sound of the air flowing through the throat.

Because the throat has been extremely dry, I adjusted it for a long time before I could simply say one or two words. When I woke up, I almost thought I was dumb.

"Just wake up, just wake up..."

Ling Mo fan sat next to me and hugged me. His chin was rubbing against my hair. His hand was so tight that he was afraid that I would disappear. I hugged him hard.

"You know Are you as vulnerable as if you were dying? " Ling Mo fan's voice sounded above my head.

You know, I thought I was going to die.

But I didn't answer him. I just looked up at him without blinking.

I just want to engrave his face and voice in my mind in this short time.

"What's the matter?" Ling Mofan felt that something was wrong with me.

"No, I love you." I jumped on him.

Finally, there was some movement in my heart. At the moment when I lost my child, this place didn't seem to move.

"Ye Jinyun, what's the matter with you?" Ling Mo fan grabbed my arm, pulled the distance between them a little, and asked me seriously.

My behavior today completely aroused Ling Mo fan's suspicion.

"Ling Mo fan, I'm in pain." I have some grievances to say.

Ling Mo fan quickly released his hand, thinking that he hurt me.

In fact, the pain is in a place that is banging.

Tears finally can not stop, for the loss of children flow, but also to leave him and flow.

"Don't cry, there will be more in the future." Ling Mo fan comforted me in a soft voice.

However, the more he comforted me, the more I cried. I almost overturned all the decisions I had just made.

I really want to tell him that we don't have a future, because I'm leaving, so that the gap in his heart will not be so big?

But I can't tell him, because if Ling Mofan knows, he won't let me go.

Why such a good person will fall in love with me, what I have to love him.

Ling Mo fan was in a hurry because of my crying. At first, he helped me wipe my tears, but the tears were just like the tap turned on. He couldn't turn them off. At last, he could only hold me tightly.

Even if I was held out of breath by him, I want to linger on this kind of tenderness.

This is the only place that can give me some sense of security, and I will never feel it again.

I don't remember the last time I cried so much. Although I wanted to vent my anger, my reason told me that I couldn't do it.

I want to be calm, don't let Ling Mo fan suspicious, so I can be at ease, silent leave.Stop tears, I asked Ling Mo fan: "how long did I sleep?"

Look at the weather outside. It should be evening.

"About half a day."

It's only half a day. I thought I had been sleeping for a long time.

"We..." I wanted to ask him about our child, but he got stuck in the middle of it.

Forget it. I'm afraid I can't help crying.

Ling Mo fan is upset enough.

"I'll send someone to look for it. I'll live and die."

Ling Mofan knows what I want to ask, and I know what he means.

I lie on his shoulder, wipe the traces on his face, can't let Ling Mo fan see.

The door of the ward was tapped a few times.

Ling Mo fan released me and said, "come in."

The door was carefully pushed open, as if afraid of disturbing our rest.

Ji Xiaoxi poked out his head and saw me wake up. He said with a smile, "Jin Yun elder sister, Ling Zong."

I answered.