Chapter 258

I sat up from the bed.

One side of the scene is Lu Shaofan worried eyes, and that complex vision.

He knows. He knows everything.

He knew that I couldn't bear it. He knew that I had done something he shouldn't have forgiven.

"Wei Ran You lie down and have a rest. Don't move about... "

He asked me to lie down and rest, but at this time, how can I lie down and rest?

I opened his hand and got out of bed in a hurry!

This is the ward of the hospital. I ran into the bathroom and looked at myself in the mirror. I couldn't help but widen my eyes.

My neck, my chest and my whole body are covered with blue and purple traces, all of which show that what happened to me and Mo Yunqian is not a dream, it is real!

"No No.... "

I looked at myself in the mirror, tears streaming down my face.

"Why is that so?"

At this moment, I feel my body is very dirty and dirty.

Lu Shaofan came in and hugged me in his arms.

"Wei Ran, don't do this, it's not your fault!"

When I heard him say that, I cried harder.

"No Wrong, why can't I control myself

Even though I was drugged, I still remember clearly that I was so debauched and disgusted in bed.

However, all that is not what I want!

I don't want to be like that myself!

Lu Shaofan hugged me tightly.

"Wei Ran, don't be so excited. The medicine is too strong to be controlled by ordinary people. Moreover, if you don't do that, your heart will be hard to bear the effect of that drug, and your life will be in danger!"

In my ear is Lu Shaofan's voice to dissuade me, but even if my life is in danger, I still can't bear such a result.

"Shaofan, I'm sorry I'm sorry! I have asked them to call you, I have

As I speak, I let my tears flow freely.

Seeing my crazy appearance, Lu Shaofan tightly encircled me in his arms.

"I know, I know! He said, he told me, but if I knew, I would choose to do it, because nothing is more important than your life

Hearing Lu Shaofan say so, my heart is still sad.

In the mirror, I seem to be so broken.

Even if, even if I have such a person in my heart, but I clearly know what I should do, what should not be done!

I am Lu Shaofan's wife, we are a family, but I have made such a thing, how can I face Lu Shaofan again in the future? I can't even face Sihan.

"Shaofan, I'm dirty, I'm dirty..."

My mouth keeps saying such words, but Lu Shaofan has been comforting me.

"Wei Ran, don't say any more. I don't blame you. I just hate and hate myself. Why did someone prescribe medicine to you! I hate that Wenya keeps looking for people to chat with me so that I can't find you. What's more, she even delays the music of the dance, that is, she doesn't let me go to find you when I'm ready to dance! "

It's gentle. It's gentle medicine.

But gentle, she is my sister!

I don't know what to do. I know that even if my body is washed clean, but what happened with Mo Yunqian doesn't mean it hasn't happened.

I looked at Lu Shaofan, pale and hoarse.

"Shaofan, if you feel uncomfortable and you dislike it, you can divorce me. It doesn't matter. I don't want anything from you. Sihan, I'll take it away. We won't ask for any money from you. It's my fault that I did something wrong."

When I said this, I was a bit incoherent, to be precise, I didn't even know what I was talking about.

However, when Lu Shaofan heard me say these words, his face gushed too much heartache.

"I'm sorry, Wei Ran, I'm sorry! I don't hate you. I don't want to divorce you! And did you forget? Sihan is our child. I have never regarded him as an outsider. I just want to have a good life with three of us

Listening to what he said, I was speechless.

Because I found that I was really not worthy of Lu Shaofan.

Not only my body, but also my heart.

At this moment, I know clearly, I don't love him, I even did not love him!

With him just because of habit, just because I want to find someone to rely on, also just because I don't want to live that lonely life again.

But at that time, I was just pregnant. I was afraid that the child would not have a father. I was afraid that I could not take care of my child by myself.So Lu Shaofan gave me everything I needed. He gave me a home, gave me a stable life, and even raised my children as his children.

In the heart of guilt, pressure I can hardly breathe.

I can't even find a vent.

Even if I had a relationship with Mo Yunqian, I hate only myself, but I don't hate Mo Yunqian.

I know, their psychological more and more abnormal, but in this abnormal, I can not get out.

Every day and night, I have nightmares. I start to be afraid of light, everything bright, even Sihan.

"Wei Ran, have a meal. Come on, I'll feed you!"

It was Lu Shaofan's voice. He said that he fed me to eat.

I looked up at him.

It's him. It's the man who gave me a home.

However, I did something sorry for him, I cheated, my body no longer belongs to him, my heart does not love him.

What am I going to do? How can I make up for him?

What does he want from me?

I opened my mouth and ate everything in the spoon he handed me.

After seeing me all finished, Lu Shaofan kisses my forehead with a smile.

"What a lovely day

He praised me and he kissed me.

At night, we sleep in a bed, and Lu Shaofan hugs my body tightly.

He seems to have something wrong with him today. He kisses my lips, so does he want my body?

I responded to his kiss and began to help him solve his physical desire.

Perhaps as he said, he does not dislike me, whether it is my body, or I do not love him.

So I took the initiative to give him my own body, but at the critical moment, Lu Shaofan stopped me.

"Wei Ran, you should be sober. Do you know what we are doing now?"

I looked at him, my eyes a little empty.

"Don't you say you don't dislike me? But why don't you like my body, why do you stop? "

Looking at Lu Shaofan, my tears have already burst.

Seeing me cry, Lu Shaofan reached out in panic and helped me wipe away the tears from the corners of my eyes.

"Wei Ran, I don't dislike you, I don't want to stop, I'm just afraid you will not be happy!"

He helped me wipe tears from the corners of my eyes, while explaining to me.

But he clearly disliked me.

I almost don't know that it has been a few days. I only know that Lu Shaofan has never touched me in these days.

"I'm not unhappy. I just want to give myself to you. I just want to know that you don't dislike me."

I cried and said, but my heart for Lu Shaofan's intimacy did not expect.

I didn't expect it at all, but I was afraid that he would not want my body.

Seeing me like this, Lu Shaofan looked at me sadly and said, "Wei Ran, if you really want to give yourself to me, you won't be so eager. I said I didn't dislike you. I'm just afraid that after I take your body, it will only hurt you more!"

More hurt me?

But he and I are husband and wife, isn't there any harm between husband and wife?

In the face of Lu Shaofan's sad eyes, I also began to panic.

What I should do is right. It is wrong to accept him or refuse him at all costs.

Lu Shaofan helped me cover the quilt and kiss me on the forehead.

"Don't think too much about it. You just need to sleep peacefully. You've been depressed these days. I'll make an appointment for a doctor tomorrow to help you feel better."

Originally under his kiss, I was ready to go to sleep. I even closed my eyes.

But when I heard him say he wanted to find me a doctor, I opened my eyes again.

"No, I'm not sick. Why should I see a doctor? Less sail, I'm not sick! "

I firmly grasped Lu Shaofan's arm, and I wanted to tell him that I was normal.

When I heard that he was going to make an appointment for a doctor, I had a strong sense of resistance in my heart.

However, seeing my reaction, Lu Shaofan gently stroked my hair, bowed his head, and kissed my forehead, supporting me.

"I didn't say you were ill. Just look, you've been reluctant to see Sihan for several days. Sihan missed you very much. But if you don't see a doctor, you may not want to see Sihan all the time! Don't you love Sihan any more

Suddenly heard Lu Shaofan talking about Sihan, my heart shook violently.

Yes, I don't want to see Sihan. It's not that I don't miss him, but I dare not see him.

It seems that when I see Sihan, I will think of whose son he is, and as soon as I see him, I will recall all that I have experienced.No, I can't see Sihan, even if I love him like my life!

"I love Sihan, Shaofan. He's my child. How can I not love him? But Shaofan, I don't have the face to see Sihan now. I'm not a good mother. I'm dirty I'm dirty... "

I began to get incoherent.

Those memories are like rolling waves, constantly beating in my heart.

I really want to forget, but I can't forget it.

"Wei Ran, Wei Ran..."

Ear is Lu Shaofan kept calling my name voice, is his voice once again pulled me back.

When I was about to bury my face in Lu Shaofan's chest, feeling his heartbeat, feeling the temperature of his chest, I had some sense of security.

"Shaofan, you are so kind to me, you are so kind..."

I kept whispering in my mouth, and soon I fell asleep.

However, at the moment, Lu Shaofan is quietly lying on the bed, his face a painful color.

"Wei Ran, if you really can't bear such pain, I'm willing to let go, I'm willing to let you find your true happiness! But But Mo Yunqian, if he can have a healthy body... "

He said to himself, but by the time he got here, his face darkened.

"But even if I let you free, he can't give you happiness, so we must persist, I will let you come out of such pain!"

At the same time, gentle home.

It took several days for Wen Yuanming to know the news.

Originally Wen Ya was sitting on the sofa, watching the news, but the door at home rang.

Soon, Wen Yuanming pressed a string of passwords and went in.

She stood up and looked at Wen Yuanming and said, "Dad, how can you come to me today?"

When he heard this, Wen Yuanming came to Wen Ya with a cold face.

"I came to ask you, did you do something about Su Weiran being drugged on the day of the reception?"

Smell speech, gentle look a stiff, then her eyes flash: "Dad, what do you say, how can I do that?"

Gentleness denies.

But Wen Yuanming stares at her and says, "did you do that, but don't admit it?"

Hearing Wen Yuanming's question, Wenya was impatient and said, "Dad, what's wrong with you today? What did I do before? I just gave you some spring for your old lover's daughter. What's wrong, you should blame me?"

Hearing Wenya's admission, Wen Yuanming immediately said angrily, "son of a bitch, you kneel down for me!"

As soon as he finished speaking, Wen Yuanming coughed violently.

However, Wenya didn't understand why her father had such a big temper with Su Weiran.

"Dad, I am your daughter. I have been spoiled by you from childhood to adulthood. But you are so cruel to me for the sake of your old lover's daughter today. Do you know that I am very sad?"

However, listening to Wen Ya's words, Wen Yuanming was livid with anger.

"I just spoil you so much that you make such a big mistake! Do you kneel or not? "

Wen Yuanming's indomitable attitude makes Wenya very angry.

"No kneeling! I'm such a big man, I don't want to kneel! "

However, looking at his spoiled daughter, in front of himself a show of willful, Wen Yuanming heart pain.

Because at this moment, his other daughter is suffering from mental torture because of that.

When he received the phone call from Lu Shaofan and heard what Lu Shaofan said, Wen Yuan was really mad!

He regretted that he didn't recognize the daughter at all costs. He regretted that he didn't tell Wenya earlier that the man was her sister.

"You bastard

Only once, Wen Yuanming picked up his crutches in his hands and knocked on Wenya's leg.

Immediately, gentle legs eat pain, subconsciously kneel down!

"Dad! How can you hit me? "

At the same time, she shouts at Wen Yuanming in disbelief.