Chapter 923

I had no feelings for coco before, because she was born by Chu Xinlan, so I never thought that she would be close to me.

But today, I can feel it. She likes me very much. When she knows that I am not her mother, I can feel it. She is very disappointed.

I have never thought that one day, I will have a very complex psychology for a child from another family.

It's not about compassion. I just think coco needs a home.

I thought that after Chu Xinlan was put into the mental hospital, she would no longer target me, so I could live a lot of comfort. But when she walked out of my life, I found that she left me a more difficult problem to solve.

As for cocoa's future, Mo Yunqian and I are tacit.

Coco's current situation is sure to be arranged to the welfare home. If she is lucky, she may meet a good father to adopt her in the future. But if she is not lucky, she may also meet people with ulterior motives and hurt her.

Her future was at stake, and my heart ached at the thought that Coco's life might change dramatically.

Chu Xinlan and I have not been friends, but enemies since we knew each other.

She has done a lot of things against me and hurt me, such a woman, I should hate her, or maybe she has become what she is now, completely her own newspaper.

However, one thing I can't deny is that it was her husband who saved Mo Yunqian. Even though Mo Yunqian had other choices at the beginning, he happened to choose him.

After going back, I asked Mo Yunqian, "do you really feel nothing when you see cocoa?"

Mo Yunqian always shows his indifference and disdain to outsiders, even if he is a child.

It's just that after watching coco today, his look is moving.

Asked by me, Mo Yunqian tightly pursed her lips: "No."

When I saw that he was trying to stop talking, I asked again, "I don't want to hear lies. I have no prejudice against coco, so I don't want you to lie to me just to take care of my feelings."

Listening to me, Mo Yunqian sighed heavily.

"Well, I admit, coco is a child that hurts me." Mo Yunqian looked at me helplessly and said.

After all, this child also called Mo Yunqian's father when he was a child. In the past, Mo Yunqian had no feelings for her. After all, Chu Xinlan was still OK at that time. He met coco once in a while, and his mind would not be on a child.

Later, because of me, Mo Yunqian intended to alienate Chu Xinlan and coco, let alone have any feelings.

After watching cocoa today, I suddenly had a feeling that maybe this child really has predestination with us. We are not familiar with her, but she seems to be able to talk to us easily and is very close to us.

And that led me to other ideas.

I think I should go to the mental hospital to see Chu Xinlan again.

Chen Yuhai brought me indelible shadow, but Chu Xinlan's spirit was completely destroyed by him.

I had planned to go to the mental hospital the next day to see her again, but in the middle of the night, when I was sleeping soundly, Mo Yunqian came.

"Wei Ran, wake up." His voice was soft, but it woke me up.

I opened my sleepy eyes, and my head was still a little confused.

"What can I do for you? It's not light yet. " I said something vaguely.

Mo Yunqian tightly pursed his lips, but his expression was not very good. He said, "just now the mental hospital called me, Chu Xinlan, she She killed herself. "

Like a bolt from the blue, I sat up.

See my reaction is so big, Mo Yunqian's voice is a little low: "clean up, let's go and lie down together."

I put on my clothes in a hurry. After a while, Mo Yunqian drove me to the mental hospital with me.

I didn't see the scene of Chu Xinlan being found after suicide, but I heard people inside say that when she died, she had a plastic bag on her head, and her room was in a mess. She smothered herself alive.

Such a death must be extremely painful. I almost dare not even try it, but she can do it without hesitation. Maybe Chen Yuhai's injury to her is even more painful than the process of her slow death.

I'm sorry I didn't see her for the last time before she died, but the nurse in the mental hospital took a letter to me.

"Miss Wen, this is found under Miss Chu's pillow. The letter is for you."

I took the letter and typed it.

Just looking at the beginning, my eyes turned red.

Her first sentence was, "sorry Wen ran, I shouldn't have let the devil Chen Yuhai stare at you."

I never thought that Chu Xinlan would realize her mistakes.

It never occurred to me that she would apologize to me before she decided to commit suicide.Her handwriting is neat and her handwriting is beautiful. I think she must be very conscious when writing this letter.

She said that she was not afraid of death, but she was afraid that coco would not be cared for after she died.

She added that she had to die. She had no ability to take care of coco. She could not be cured. Coco would only be hurt with her.

Seeing her writing these words, my heart is very sour, very depressed.

I've seen Chu Xinlan go crazy. It's shocking and shocking.

"Wen ran, I don't believe anyone can treat cocoa well except Mo Yunqian. I don't believe anyone can treat cocoa as well as his own daughter. When I first committed suicide, you once told me that if I died, you would take cocoa with Mo Yunqian, and you would be cocoa's mother. At that time, I really hated you and hated you very much Even if I wanted to kill you right away

"But now, I really want to ask you to help me take care of cocoa. I'm not a good mother. I haven't taken good care of her since cocoa was born. Coco has hardly seen me in the past two years. She may not remember what her mother looks like."

"So I beg you to forgive me, will you? I've paid the price of my life. Will you forgive me

"Wen ran, Mo Yunqian loves you very much. Maybe you don't know what he has done for you. You don't know. Maybe he never told you that in the years when you disappeared, he almost died in the snow field in Canada in order to find you. You may not know that he almost died on the operating table when he underwent heart transplantation. When he was rescued, he still said with a smile that he could not die, otherwise you would be sad "

" wenran, you must be happy for the rest of your life. "

Chu Xinlan's funeral was jointly organized by Mo Yunqian and me.

She didn't have many friends and relatives, so the funeral was very simple.

Chu Xinlan's letter seems to help me to get rid of the fog.

She let me understand that if I have been unable to come out of the shadow of Chen Yuhai, then the final outcome, can only be death.

But I know, I can't, in this world, I still have a lot of concerns.

My friends, my family, and coco.

Therefore, after Mo Yunqian arranged a new psychologist for me, I always had positive treatment because of my attitude and the progress of treatment was very smooth.

Of course, if Chu Xinlan didn't tell me, I didn't know. Many years ago, I had a rest in the United States because of an operation accident. In those years, I didn't give him any information about me. Later, my father lied to him and said that I was dead. He ran to Canada and went to the snow field where we had been together. He almost lost his life there.

He has been to countless places we have been together to find me, which he has never mentioned to me.

And he almost died on the operating table during the operation, and he didn't tell me about it.

Later, I asked him why he didn't say it. He said that he was afraid that I was worried about him and that he was afraid that I would be sad.

I remember that day after reading Chu Xinlan's letter to me, Mo Yunqian held me in his arms. I cried for a long time. I didn't know what I was crying, but I also seemed to know what I was crying.

In accordance with Chu Xinlan's wishes, Mo Yunqian and I adopted cocoa. In fact, even without Chu Xinlan's letter, I think I have already had the idea of adopting cocoa before.

As for the fact that Mo Yunqian and I adopted cocoa, I didn't expect that Sihan would be the happiest one.

No, the two children are having a good time in the living room.

"Brother, brother, help me build a castle. Coco is the little princess, and the little princess lives in the castle." Coco took Sihan's hand and said naively.

I am very surprised that Sihan, who is usually very cold and does not like to laugh, can be led by the nose by cocoa.

Coco wanted to build a castle with blocks, and Sihan helped her build it.

Coco wanted to draw, and Sihan gave her the painting tools he usually used in school.

Coco sleeps at night to listen to stories, and Sihan helps her tell stories.

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Looking at Sihan becoming a gentle little warm man for cocoa, I even thought that Sihan's temperament was so cold before. I'm afraid it was because he didn't have children to play with him at home that he developed that temperament.

But outside, Sihan's temperament was still so cold, and he could only be so patient with coco.

Seeing this warm picture, I couldn't help laughing, and I finally understood why Sihan went to see cocoa without telling me. Maybe Sihan remembered having coco since he was a child, because he knew whose child coco was. He pretended that he didn't care about anything for me.

But in fact, I found that Sihan cherished his family, even if he had only been with him for a short time.

The door rings.

Coco immediately put down the building blocks in his hand, ran towards the door and said with a smile: "Dad is back, I'll open the door for Dad!"As soon as the door opened, he saw that Mo Yunqian also carried two big bags of paper bags, one for kitchen ingredients, the other for Sihan and cocoa.

"Dad Coco saw Mo Yunqian and hugged his leg.

And Sihan also came over, looked at Mo Yunqian and said with a smile: "Dad."

Coco is a sensible child, she opened the biscuit Mo Yunqian bought her, the first biscuit she trotted to me.

"Mom, have one." Coco looked at me with an innocent and lovely face.

I smile received the hand: "baby really good, you also eat it!"

As if she had received a huge reward, she ran to get snacks while laughing.

In the evening, I and Mo Yunqian together, heartily lying on the bed.

Mo Yunqian suddenly asked me, "Wei Ran, do you like this life now?"

I gave him a kiss and said, "yes."

But in my heart, he said: "there is no more like this life."