Chapter 52 - 52 - I Want To Stay With You

"What? Why? Are you planning to sleep with that woman or anyone every night?" I asked, frowning.

"It's none of your business so can you go back to your room?" ​​

"No! I won't! I will sleep here!" I said firmly while walking inside his room.

He put his palm to his face and looked at me, arching his eyebrows.

"Get out! I don't want you here!" He almost yelled.

I wanted to cry again. He's hurting me again. I felt my heart was being stabbed.

"Why? I won't leave if you won't tell me!"

He took a deep breath and tweaked his hair.

"I don't want to hurt you. Being with you in one room, I can't control myself. I feel like I couldn't breathe because I want you so bad that I'm scared that I might hurt you again. So please don't make it harder for me." He confessed. 

I walked towards him and touched his face. I thought he didn't want me anymore.

"I want you too. I want to get close to you again. I want to make up with you for those three years that I'm not with you. I don't want you to get involved with another woman again. So please let me stay by your side. Don't push me away." I said softly.

He held my hand that was touching his face and kissed it. I could feel his warm breath on my skin. It brings me a sensation that makes my heart pound.

"Peggy, if you stay, what if I hurt you again? I know you are hurting already when I told you I don't trust you. But I want to be honest at least. I love you and I really do hate you." He said in a gentle voice.

"I know that already. And yes, it hurts to be hated by you. I felt like you were stabbing my heart but I understand. I still want to stay with you. I want us to sleep together. I want to feel you again." I was nervous. I don't know what I would do if he still asked me to leave.

Funny. I left him without even considering his feelings. Now that he's asking me to stay away from him, I'm scared. I'm afraid that he will be taken from me, but I didn't even think of that when I left him. I really am selfish.

He took a deep breath. I was staring at him and waiting for his answer. I felt restless again. Should I take my clothes off so he would say yes? Maybe that's the only way he would agree. I was about to undress when he stopped me by grabbing my hand.

"You don't need to do that. You can stay. But I won't promise you that I won't touch you. Because if I won't I might look for another woman to satisfy me." He finally agreed.

Though his last words really hurt a lot. How many did he sleep with when I was gone? I don't want to think about it anymore.

"You won't. I'm here now."

He suddenly carried me and laid me down on the bed. He climbed on top of me but didn't actually do anything. He was just staring at my face.

He brushed his hand to my face. When I looked into his eyes, I could still see his love for me. I saw the old Jayden, I saw myself in his eyes. 

"Let's sleep." He said before rolling over beside me.

"I thought you wanted to-" I blushed. I really thought he wanted to make love to me.

"I do. But you're still hurt from last night so let's just sleep." He was still considering me. My heart skipped a beat.

"What did you tell that flight crew earlier? She was giggling all over you." I asked. I know I sounded pissed.

He chuckled. "Nothing. I just told her to prepare something for you."

I frowned and turned over to his side. He suddenly grabbed my hand and wrapped my arms around his waist.

"I don't believe you." I pouted.

"Are you jealous?" He asked while looking at me.

"Yes I am. She was flirting with you. And you were whispering into her ear. It's annoying."

"Then maybe you should start making a move on me to get my attention so I won't flirt with other girls." He teased.

"I will. So look forward to that." Then I started brushing my fingers to his chest. I heard him sigh deeply.

"You're giving me a hard time." He said.

"Jayden kiss me." I asked in a hoarse voice.

"If I kiss you, I can't promise you that I will stop for just a kiss." He whispered while intensely looking at me.

Then I saw a mixture of love and desire in his eyes.

I held his hand and kissed his fingers one by one while I seductively stared in his eyes.

Then I put his hand on my breast. His eyes widened but he rolled over on top of me again.

"I love you Jayden, I always do." I said.

He didn't answer but he leaned forward to press his lips with mine.

We were kissing and touching each other aggressively when a little voice suddenly spoke.

"Daddy, what are you doing with mommy?" It was Caden.

I pushed Jayden so hard that he fell down on the bed.

"H-Honey, why are you here? And didn't knock." I stuttered.

I saw Jayden glaring at me. I gave him an apologetic look then he looked at Caden.

"Caden, mom and dad were playing. You should have knocked first." He said with slight annoyance in his voice.

Then Caden suddenly sniffles. Maybe he sensed Jayden was mad. Jayden was alarmed and rushed towards him.

"Hey. Don't cry. Daddy's joking but you know it's not nice to just come inside a room without knocking, right?" He was scolding him but in a nice way this time.

"Yes. I'm sorry daddy. I was looking for mommy. I knocked twice but you didn't answer." Caden explained while sobbing.

Jayden hugged him tight and carried him.

"I'm sorry if we didn't answer. How about you sleep here with mommy and daddy? Would you like that?" He asked.

Caden's face lit up and hugged Jayden.

"Yes. I want to sleep here with mom and dad!"

I was looking at them the whole time. We forgot to lock the door and were almost caught by our son making love. Good thing, we still have our clothes on. Before, Kyle caught us while I'm riding Jayden. This time we have a little one so we really have to be careful.

I fixed the bed when Jayden put Caden in the middle. After a few minutes, he was sound asleep. Jayden was staring at him, smiling.

"He's beautiful, Peg. Thank you for bringing him to our world." He said while giving me kisses on my hand.