Chapter 98 - 98 - You Are My Light

"What's on your mind?" I asked Jayden.

We were laying down on the bed, I was thinking about tomorrow but I couldn't figure out Jayden's mind. Our situation was complicated from the start, we just didn't realize it until now.

"I don't know. My mind is messed up and so are my feelings. I'm thankful that you are here with me, I think I'll lose my mind if I'm alone." He said, staring at the ceiling.

I was leaning on his chest, my arms around his waist while his hand was playing with my hair.

"I honestly thought you'd change your mind. I thought you went mad because of what he said. Love, I'm sorry for what he did. If only I could avenge your mother's death, I'll do it." I said.

"Stop it. I don't want your heart to be tainted with revenge. You're so pure." He said.

"What do you mean?" I asked.

He looked at me and smiled.

"You are so kind. Your heart is innocent while mine was already dark. If it weren't for you, I wouldn't be able to see the light. You are the light in my darkest path. So please stay like that, my love. There may be a time that I lose myself again, promise me, call my name and never let go of my hand." He continued.

I tilted my head up to stare into his silver eyes. I couldn't even explain how much I love him, and I am willing to do everything for him.

"I promise I will never let you go. But please also promise me that if ever you lose yourself again, just listen to my voice so you can come back to me. I will always be here waiting." I said.

He pulled me to his arms, hugging me tighter.

"Love?" I called.

"Hmm?"

"Will you be able to switch with your mother? I mean Alora can do that. How about you? Can you switch with her?" I asked, curiously.

He became silent and was only staring at the ceiling.

"I can. But I haven't done it for more than five years." He answered.

"Why?" I asked.

"It wasn't necessary. Mom and I had a deal once." He whispered.

From the tone of his voice, I know he was still lonely from his mother's untimely death.

"Can you tell me what was the deal?" I asked.

He took a deep breath and replied.

"That we would only switch once we found who killed her so she could take her revenge." He said.

"What about now?" I frowned.

"Love, having this illness is hard. I wasn't really cured. I was able to control it though and lived a normal life but I knew ever since that she was still in my mind. Just waiting. By the way, why are you asking?" He said.

"I'm curious and I wanted to meet her." I answered, looking at him to see his reaction.

He was surprised. The other side of him wasn't really his mother but I still wanted to see if only Jayden would let me. I wanted to know and accept everything about him. For me, it wasn't a flaw, he's perfect for me.

"I'll introduce you to my other personality, but will you wait until I'm ready?" He asked.

"Yes! Don't rush. I just want to know everything about you." I said.

He smiled. " I know that and I loved that. Don't worry."

"What did you feel when he confirmed, you know?" I was hesitant to continue.

"Sad. I didn't feel any anger since I expected it but I was still sad because I wanted to have a decent conversation with him at least. I got mad when he didn't show any interest in you. I know you were hurting and I'm angry that I can't do anything to take away your pain." He said.

"Love, if you feel like you want to cry or if you are mad, if you're in pain please tell me. Let's be honest with our feelings okay?"

He nodded and kissed me on the lips. Then he stood up and pulled me. I frowned.

"Come with me!" He said.

"Where are we going?" I asked when he held my hand and pulled me outside the room.

I was giggling when he was in a rush but quietly walked into the palace walls. It was already in the middle of the night and almost everyone was asleep, except the royal guards and his security who were doing some rounds. They were bowing and greeting us when they saw us. I was wearing a nightgown and I was relieved I put on a robe before going out because it was thin.

I was surprised when he took me in the kitchen. Two servants were surprised and bowed.

"Your highness, what brings you here? Do you need anything? We can cook for you." One servant asked.

Jayden shook his head, smiling.

"Go ahead and rest. I just want to cook something for my wife." He answered.

The servants seemed surprised and were like teenage girls squealing when they heard what he said. It was really sweet after all.

He pulled a chair and guided me to sit.

"Stay here and I'll cook for you. I know you were exhausted from thinking and you haven't eaten anything so I'll feed you." He said, winking at me.

I blushed. I don't know why I still act like we were in high school, a girl in love. He was now my husband and it's only natural for married couples to do something like this, but Jayden is different. Everything he does for me, it brings joy to my heart and I fall in love with him even more.

I watched him as he moved around the kitchen. His golden hair smoothly shines from the light coming of the chandeliers on the ceiling, his silver eyes sparkling like crystals, with his full lips, a nose like the Greeks and his well toned body, towering 5 feet 11.5 inches.

"Wife, if you stare at me like that I won't be able to finish your food. I might let you eat me." He said, smiling naughtily at me.

I giggled and bit my lips. I didn't realize I was staring at him.

"How about taking your clothes off, cook for me with just an apron on you." I said, staring into his eyes with desire.

He walked towards the kitchen door to lock it. Then he started to take off his clothes, slowly.