Ch: 115 [Conflicted feelings]

Ch: 115 [Conflicted feelings]

As I sat at the dinner table surrounded by my family, my mind drifted off, consumed by the perplexing possibility that Hina could be my daughter from a previous life. The thought had been lingering in my mind for some time now, and tonight, it seemed to take center stage, casting a shadow over the otherwise joyous occasion.

My mom, sister Jenny, Harley, and Jessica chatted and laughed, but the turmoil swirling inside me is unexplainable. I glanced at Hina, whose features bore a striking resemblance to someone I knew, or at least I could feel this weird feeling in my heart. My mind is in total disarray. Her eyes held a familiar glimmer, an inexplicable connection that I couldn't ignore. There is a huge lump in my throat, my heartbeat is fast, and my blood pressure has risen above normal levels. And this swirling in my stomach...

I don't think I have ever felt this way in my life.

The question echoed relentlessly in my mind: What should I do if Hina truly is my daughter? The implications of such a revelation were profound, shattering the boundaries of rationality. Would I embrace this newfound relationship or distance myself from it? How would it impact my present life and my current family?

Lost in my thoughts, I absentmindedly pushed my food around the plate, my appetite waning as the weight of uncertainty pressed upon me. I mean, if I get my memories back and it turns out to be true then what? I mean, I am totally lost here...

As I watched Hina, a mixture of emotions swirled within me. Curiosity battled against fear, and longing fought against skepticism. The prospect of having a daughter, even one from a previous life, ignited a spark of paternal instincts that I couldn't ignore. But I also feared the potential consequences, the upheaval it could bring to everyone's lives. But since everyone knows about the fact and is ok with it, I think everything will be alright. But I can't help but worry. I don't even know why am I worrying...

Maybe I am not worrying for myself but for Hina. What if it turns out she isn't my daughter and she was mistaken? How will it change our lives? It will shatter her world. After everything she has suffered, I don't think she will be able to endure it.

My mom's voice broke through my contemplation, bringing me back to the present moment. "Alex, are you alright?" she asked, concern etched on her face.

I mustered a smile, attempting to mask the internal struggle I was grappling with. "Yeah, Mom, I'm fine. Just lost in thought for a moment."

Her worry eased, and she returned to her conversation, leaving me to wrestle with the weighty decision that loomed before me. Tonight's dinner had become more than just a gathering; it had become a turning point in my life. The road ahead was uncertain, but I knew I had to face it head-on, armed with patience, understanding, and an open heart.

Deep down, I realized that regardless of the truth, family bonds extended beyond bloodlines. And if Hina truly was my daughter, the love and support I felt for her in this life would extend to the next, bridging the gap between our past and present selves. Whatever the case, I think I am ready. Yeah. I know I ain't perfect and careless, but I think I will accept her as my daughter. I don't know why, but deep down I can feel a new feeling I haven't felt before. Yeah, this must be parental instinct.

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Eventually, Dad came to a stop outside a lively bar. I hid behind a nearby tree, trying to catch a glimpse of what was happening. My heart skipped a beat when I saw him engaged in conversation with a woman much older than him. From my vantage point, I couldn't hear their words, but I could sense something wasn't right.

As I observed them, I noticed a glint of anger in Dad's eyes, despite the smile he wore on his face. It was as if he was trying to hide his true emotions. My curiosity piqued even more, and I wondered who this woman was and why she had provoked such a reaction from my Dad.

I strained my ears, attempting to catch any fragments of their conversation, but the distance between us made it impossible. I could only watch, feeling a mixture of worry and confusion. It was clear that something was bothering him, something he was trying to conceal.

The woman leaned closer and kissed him on his cheek, and Dad's smile grew wider, but it seemed forced, unnatural. I couldn't help but wonder why he was pretending, why he didn't show his true feelings. Did this woman hold some significance in his life? Was she a reminder of his past, or perhaps someone he was trying to forget?

Questions flooded my mind, but I knew that eavesdropping was not the solution. If I wanted answers, I want to ask Dad directly. But the sight of his masked emotions made me hesitate. I didn't want to intrude further into his personal space, especially when he already had so much to process.

As Dad bid farewell to the woman after exchanging their numbers, I quickly retreated from my hiding spot, making my way back to the house before he could notice my presence. Thoughts raced through my mind as I tried to make sense of what I had witnessed. The encounter had left me even more curious about my father's present self and the complexities of his current life.

I decided to give Dad some space, allowing him to sort through his thoughts and emotions in his own time. It was evident that he had his own battles to fight, and I didn't want to add to his burden. But deep down, I couldn't shake the feeling that his encounter at the bar held significance, and I was determined to uncover the truth, for both our sakes.

With a heavy heart, I retreated to my room, pondering the complexities of family and the layers of hidden stories that lie beneath the surface. The journey to discover my past had become intertwined with uncovering the depths of Dad's own past. Little did I know that this path would lead us both to unexpected revelations and the forging of an unbreakable bond.

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