Chapter 103 Healing the heart as time moves with the wind.

103 Healing the heart as time moves with the wind.

Yue Li POV.

"Yue Li had a weak heart these days."

That was a comment that Li Yao casually spoke some days ago.

"You do get lazy these days..." Liyue scratched the side of her cheeks when she said that, only to continue with a similar note: "It is as if you lost all that motivation. I don't know, I liked the hyperactive you better."

Xiao Li massaged her body and had sex with her like usual. In fact, the times he had sex with her had increased lately, with seven times a day becoming a routine for a while now.

He even grew a bit more dominant lately—which made her happy—But he hadn't yet done what he told her he would some days ago in order to fix her heart. New novel chapters are published on

He seemed to be waiting for something before he did what he said.

Impatient as she was, she was a sucker for Xiao Li's gentle tactics; she was his little baby as much as he was hers, so when he actually becomes gentle and supportive of her current mental state and sincerely shows his wish for her to break out of it without any rush, unlike the usual him who was so pushy—she couldn't say 'Do what you promised' no matter what.

And he was supportive nowadays.

Even though he told her it was better to have her heart fixed as soon as possible, Xiao Li grew calmer later on and decided it was best if she tried to create a heart for herself from the roots once more to see if having self-confidence again was a possibility.

After all, she knew that what Han Li promised was something significant—something that would change their connection on a fundamental level.

It could not be rushed.

As the days passed, it was almost as if he was growing to be more like her husband than her little boy whom she had watched grow up. The kid who was so erratic and naughty was now a man so stable she could look up to him for security.

Her son's back—no, that would be wrong in her case—his chest was wide enough to let her sleep at night calmly with no worries about the future. Even though they grew rather poor at a point some days ago, he went for a short trip through the city, and they were back being rich—or at least, they now had enough money to eat whatever they wanted.

And her Xiao Li never hesitated when she asked for something as long as it didn't affect her negatively. He was also taking care of Liyue and Li Yao well too. Well enough to actually make her proud, but that also made her remember and think about her insecurities all day long.

The root of her allowing him to have a harem was her confidence in the level of love he had for her. In her mind, after his confession of love, it was impossible for her to be abandoned; he loved her like she loved him. She was his priority beyond all else.

'That heart of chaos is so cruel,' she lamented, 'whoever invented it has to be beaten to death! Humph!'

Now, even though she had a vague idea of his obsession with her, she just couldn't cement the thought without worrying. She just couldn't place any bit of confidence in herself to be good enough for her son some years down the line.

Now, she might pass the line barely, but some years later, she would just be small in comparison to him.

He was so brilliant, so capable, so intelligent, so manly, so handsome, so... so good in the bed.

Whereas she?

She was so dumb, growing old, her thoughts were shallow, and even though he said she looked perfect—was she? And she couldn't even learn everything he had to teach.

She had heard him praise Liyue yesterday. Supposedly, she was almost at the tip of having a solid hope and heart.

"Liyue is going to have a heart strong enough to withstand even the storms of life," Xiao Li was sincerely impressed, and the girl was shy and nervous while so happy. It was such a good moment for the both of them soon-to-be married fiance and fiancee.

Yet she felt horribly jealous. Why was she not the one being praised by him?

Why was she not the sole one loved?

Why... were other people in Xiao Li's life?

'I didn't use to feel like this,' she thought despondently. 'Am I such a horrible woman? So selfish?'

Looking into the mirror, she tried to smile, but her smile quickly vanished.

'I want to be hugged by Xiao Li.'

'I want to be protected by him now.'

'Xiao Li, where are you?'

Suddenly, a single rational thought entered her: 'What would my Xiao Li have done if he grew panicked like me?'

She took a deep breath, and her heart started to thump violently before one single thought started to overpower all other useless thoughts.

'My Xiao Li doesn't panic when it is not related to me.'

A gentle hand caressed her head. Another one coiled around her waist.

Before she knew it, her back was on the bed, and her sweaty face was looking up at her son's gentle face.

"Tone down on the deep thoughts, Mom," he said with a smile and kissed her stunned lips. "You see? Those lips. I would kill to get another kiss from it."

"Yo..You like them that much?" she asked, still stunned at his sudden appearance.

"You know I hate you," he chuckled and looked at her with adoration. "But maybe, if you pull yourself together, I might finally fall for you head over heels."

"You know what heels are?" she asked, feeling her heart thump.

"Such a stupid thing to ask at a moment like this. That's my mom for you."

She gulped.

"Xiao Li."

"Hmm?"

"I think I am finally making progress on understanding myself. Maybe I might fix me myself."

"You were never broken. Jealousy is normal in that kind of situation; don't push yourself."

Yue Li's eyes widened. "Li.. You knew I was jealous?"

"How would I not when it's you?"

She sighed and hid her eyes with her arms.

"...such a perfect son I got," she sighed. "I don't know whether I am blessed or cursed anymore."

"Come, we have a lot of work today. You didn't train, so... you can last more, right?"

"If you do it gently..."

Han Li shook his head. He was relieved she was at least no longer regressing in her mental state.

"How can I not be gentle when my mom is asking so with an expression like the one you have now?" he asked and caressed her cheeks.

She blushed, and her desire rose.

"Rascal!"

"Or we can cuddle instead till you feel okay with going forward? Why don't you talk about it with me?"

She smiled. "No, let me handle it on my own."