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Zhang Shiyan did nothing, he quietly pulled a chair to sit down, across a distance of dozens of centimeters, silent looking at the people on the hospital bed.

Before looking at her, he didn't hold her warm like he did not keep her warm.

He couldn't tell what he was feeling now.

When she gave all her feelings and gave her everything she could give her, she still loved that person, even called the name of that person in her dreams, frowned for that person, and shed tears from the corners of her eyes. No one stipulates that if a man likes a woman, he should smile and bear all the grievances and pains. When he is too miserable in his heart, he has to squeeze out a few smiles and care for his beloved woman. He loves Ji Nansheng, but it is because of his deep love that he will inevitably feel a bit bitter and sad when he finds that he may receive less than half of his love all his life.

Looking at Ji Nansheng struggling in the nightmare, Zhang Shiyan couldn't help asking herself: is it really right to force her to be with me like this?

As she said at that time, she may never give him the same love, she may always hide another man in her heart, he will guard such a her life, really can always do without regret, really can not blame her at all?

There was a strange resentment in his heart now. After she was kidnapped, when he learned that he had lost their child, she was thinking of someone else. He had a bit of self mockery in his heart. How long did he start to blame her? If she had been guarding her for 30 or 60 years, they would always be a good couple instead of a bitter couple as he imagined?

"I feel like It's not as great as I thought. "

Zhang Shiyan withdrew his eyes and stopped looking at Ji Nansheng. He lowered his head and looked at the crooked curve in his palm and laughed bitterly. A Sheng, when you leave me, I can wait for you without complaint or regret, because you are not by my side, I will not personally feel the pain of watching you care about others. That kind of waiting is just a simple waiting. As long as I insist on a goal and believe that you will come back, I can stick to it day by day.

But when you come back, it all changes. Looking at your smile every day, your words and deeds, my heart can not help but produce greed, delusion, want to occupy your heart, your soul, your whole attention. When I see you secretly miss others behind my back, I will be angry and I will be sad; when I see that no matter how good I am to you, you still refuse to accept it, I will feel tired and feel that such a day is meaningless

I thought that when you came back, I would be more motivated to continue to love you to death. It turns out that I think highly of myself. If you don't come back, I can persist, but when you come back, I can't hold on to it, asheng

Zhang Shiyan cast aside his feelings in his heart, and then looked up at Ji Nansheng again.

She was still haunted by nightmares and couldn't wake up.

He didn't want to pass at this time, but looking at the sweat and frown on her forehead, he couldn't help trying to smooth her tight frown. He sighed, got up and sat on the edge of the bed and gently held her fingers.

"A Sheng --"

"a Sheng, wake up."

"Dear, it's all dreams. Don't be afraid, just wake up."

Zhang Shiyan bent down, stuck to Ji Nansheng's ear, called her name gently, and spoke to her gently, trying to dispel her nightmare and save her from the endless nightmare.

Ji Nansheng saw Qin Jingyuan gradually away from himself in his nightmare. His body became more and more blurred like fog. However, his body did not disappear because of her cry.

All of a sudden, a golden sun sprinkled into the dark dream. She looked up vaguely. The sunlight was directly down from the sky, illuminating the darkness on the ground.

When she was unprepared, the warm sunshine surrounded her and dispelled the cold bad breath.

She subconsciously looked at the direction of Qin Jingyuan, that slightly transparent figure, at the moment of the sun appeared, like other people's broken glass, the whole broken, leaving only a fragment of the ground.

She watched the man disappear in front of her and suddenly woke up in grief.

As soon as he opened his eyes, Ji Nansheng saw Zhang Shiyan, sitting on the edge of the bed, holding his hand tightly, calling his name softly and talking to himself.

When she suddenly woke up, she couldn't remember what happened in her dream. She could only see what Zhang Shiyan looked like at the moment.

His face was very ugly, some pale, some haggard, and there was a very obvious shadow under his eyes.

She blinked and blinked.

Zhang's banquet in his memory was always clean and tidy. Even when he woke up from bed in the morning, he didn't see his greasy and dirty side. Therefore, she was a little stunned by her haggard and decadent appearance.Zhang Shiyan was surprised to see Ji Nansheng awake. A pair of dark eyes seemed to fall into a meteor, which lit up his pupils and made his eyes shine.

He held back the sadness and joy in his heart and held Ji Nansheng tightly.

Even if Ji Nansheng didn't wake up as surprised as he did, he was stunned to see him in a daze. He didn't have any disappointment. His gratitude to God and his sense of happiness for the safety of his family were about to overflow.

"Ah Sheng, you finally wake up."

Zhang Shiyan's hand trembled and held Ji Nansheng tightly, and his hoarse voice sounded in Ji Nansheng's ear.

He tried too hard and Ji Nansheng felt uncomfortable. He wanted to move to let him go a little, but after feeling his shaking, she stopped and let him hold him.

And his hoarse voice, let her heart a burst of pain.

Always magnetic mellow voice, how can become so hoarse? It's like a person who has a cold and a cough for too long, his throat is uncomfortable and his vocal cords are damaged.

She raised her left hand, slowly but gently slipped on the back of Zhang Shiyan, patted him gently and comforted him like a child.

"I'm fine."

Ji Nansheng patted his back, rubbed his head with his chin, and then gently added: "you're worried. I'm ok. Don't be afraid..."

When she just woke up, her mind was blank. Now she vaguely remembered that she and Zhang niansheng had been kidnapped. When she saw Zhang Shiyan holding her so uneasily, she could only feel that she was not careful and was kidnapped, which made Zhang Shiyan worried about this.

Turning to the side of the small bed, see Zhang niansheng is lying on the pillow, sweet sleep, Ji Nansheng heart all the uneasiness has dissipated.

She was still alive, and Zhang niansheng was fine. She woke up and hugged Ji Nansheng for two minutes before releasing her.

Lowering her head and gently plucking her hair behind her ear, Zhang Shiyan squeezed out a smile, "are you hungry? What would you like to eat, I'll make it for you. "

originally, he wanted to ask her if there was any discomfort in her body, but when she got to her throat, she was forced to swallow it back.

She must not be feeling well now. He doesn't need to ask about it. His eyes flitted over Ji Nansheng's flat abdomen. Zhang Shiyan said, "I've cooked the soup. I'll bring you a bowl of it."

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