Chapter 85

Just now, he really came to save me. Yes, the kind of gentle eyes that are only willing to treat me, as always, protect me. Who is he.

The mobile phone suddenly vibrates, because it will be very quiet, so it seems to be very loud in the dark. It is a strange foreign number.

In peacetime, I will not pick up, but this will, there is a voice in my heart has been advising me, pick up, pick up.

I picked it up. Without waiting for me to ask who it was, the other end opened up first, "it's me."

It's him, Luce.

"Are you crying?" Luce's voice suddenly became very low, "Enron, I'm sorry, I came back late."

"I didn't cry." I wiped my eyes and asked him what was the matter. I tore off the warmth at this moment.

Lv Ke first froze, then his voice was as light as a feather. "It's just to remind you that if you go into the dormitory and stand outside all the time, you will get cold."

"It's none of your business." Clearly at this moment, I need comfort, but still cold in his heart stabbed, "and monitoring me? Luce, you are really good. Enough is enough. I don't like you, and I won't fall into your trap again. It's useless for me. "

With that, I hung up.

Now I don't have the strength to think about whether Luce is good or bad. It doesn't matter to me whether the person who called to poke my wound was him or not.

Not only him, but also Zhuoyue, I have to let go.

I did not go back to the dormitory, squatting at the door, quietly looking at the distance, the night is dark, the wind is cool, just like my mood at this moment.

I finally know why I am so indifferent to my family. The picture just now is the first time that I was molested. The second time is in my big house. My parents are not here. I ran out to ask grandma for help.

Grandma, however, pushed my hand away because she was in a hurry to go to my uncle's house. She said that Huzi would kiss me because she liked me. She told me not to make a fuss.

But I was afraid, I hated that feeling so much, but I was dragged back again.

Later, tiger moved, but the nightmare did not stop.

I can't get out of the pain. It's like a scar carved on my body. I want to erase it, but every time I have to uncover it, it only makes me more painful.

I feel disgusted and scared, because I thought I would be pregnant for a time. I didn't know that I was not really violated until I learned biology in junior high school.

However, even so, I can't forget it!

I will always remember that moment of helplessness, despair is like a seed forever planted in my heart, keep rooting

When I was a sophomore in senior high school, my family always scolded me for not being obedient to my brother. Even if I was admitted to the best No.1 Middle School in the city, with this kind of bad temper, no one would want me in the future.

I didn't want to talk about it. After all, I'm used to it.

But that time, they just mentioned the problem of money, "Enron, can you stop spending so much money and spend as much as you want? Can you learn more from your brother?"

Learn from him? Take your own sister to please that disgusting friendship?

"Yes, I'm not obedient. Do you want to ask him where his money came from? I gave it to him! If I didn't listen to my daughter, I wouldn't change my temper

Originally, I was furious, but in the end, I cried out again, and the whole person was on the verge of collapse.

I wanted to be comforted so much that I had to bear the pain and lift the scar myself.

But I was wrong, life does not give people hope, what I get is more hurt, "at that time, your brother was still young, he knew what, really enough to revenge, so early things to now, how can you be so disgusting..."

I didn't finish the rest of the story.

Thinking about that day, I went out of the mill.

At that time, I was not young. I really wanted to ask them that the injured person was not me. Why was it my brother who got the heartache, but I only criticized him.

I don't know if it's because of my mother's words. I really feel disgusted, especially when I face Zhuoyue. I feel extremely dirty. It's an insult for him to be liked by people like me.

Others in senior three are studying, but I'm skipping class. I'm asked by the teacher to talk, but I'm still numb. I don't speak and don't respond. It's like a piece of wood without soul. In the end, I can only be invited by parents.

After a hard beating, I got anorexia. I vomited whatever I ate. Later, I couldn't vomit out, only blood.

I thought I was going to die. I summoned up the courage to go to Zhuoyue and wanted to say goodbye to him, but in the end, I gave up.

I am not qualified to stand in front of him.

Until later

I really can't recall it any more. I took out my mobile phone and turned on Zhuoyue's phone. He quickly connected it. "Enron, how are you? Is there anything wrong? I'm so flustered. I'll go up and find you.""Zhuoyue."

"Well?" Zhuoyue's voice is still so beautiful, low and magnetic, "your voice is not right, someone bullies you!"

I covered my mouth so he wouldn't hear me cry.

That year, I tried to eliminate the silence, and then I bit my three teeth, right

Zhuoyue's voice stagnated for a while. He hesitated for a long time. "What are you talking about? I can't understand it."

I raised my head, but my tears didn't flow back at all. No wonder when I woke up from that serious illness, I felt that I had forgotten something. I just felt that I had a thorn in my family, but I couldn't figure out why.

"Enron, what's the matter? We'll talk to you face to face later." Zhuoyue with a trace of anxiety, but also full of entreaties, "no matter what grievances you suffered, I have always been by your side."

"But if I say, it's you who hurt me." I pinched my arm and forced myself to be cruel. "Zhuoyue, what qualifications do you have to eliminate other people's memory for fun?"

"I don't know what you're talking about." He chose to play dumb.

"In fact, you think I'm dirty. No wonder you don't want me." I distorted his good intentions and forced myself to smile hypocritically. "I feel dirty, too. And now I feel disgusted when I think of forgetting everything and deliberately tempting you. I feel so disgusted that I have to vomit."

"Why do you think that?" Every word of Zhuoyue was very heavy, heavy and planted in my heart, "I love you too much. I don't touch you because I don't want to. It's nothing else. When something like that happens, I will only feel sad and hate that I didn't protect you well, Enron..."

"Enough!" I am afraid that if I listen to it, I will never be cruel again. I can only squeeze out that sentence when I have the last bit of strength.

"Break up, Zhuoyue. Let's break up."

- dividing line -

don't think that I write cruelly. The reality is much crueler than I write. I was betrayed by my relatives and lost the ability to love. Previously, the ambush pen mentioned that the female owner had a bad relationship with her family. Some people said that no matter what the family did to her, she couldn't be so divided. I can only say that the girl has always been very kind to her family, but whether she can love her or not is another matter. Oh, it hurts so much that I don't know what to say