C38 Another kind of love

I raised my head to look at the drizzling sky, and saw that my ordinary face was instantly drenched in the drizzling rain. However, I understood that although self-mutilation could ease the pain in my heart, it couldn't heal the wounds on my heart.

On the day he met Rui Ling, he drove away from me in his car, but I chose to ignore him. Even so, after he returned, I couldn't help but ask him, "What did you do after you met?"

Little Zhang replied me directly. He didn't do anything and just left after meeting with me. However, the constant phone calls told me everything: you guys are still playing a despicable game.

He actually had a girlfriend who was a good wife and mother. Although she looked average, she was gentle and reserved, and there was also a girl who chased after him very closely. She was pretty and cute, extremely obedient.

Every time I hear this Friend in the same room tell me how deep and deep his conversation with Rui Ling was before I fall asleep, and how he was about to hook you up to the bed, my heart would always hurt. I don't know why, nor do I want to ask myself why.

I can't stop her from being a scum, and I can't stop her either. The Friend in the same room that is close to me has always been proud of flirting with beauties, and she has developed this bad habit smoothly, and my wish for her is to stop now, or else I will accidentally fall into a pit of fire. This way, after struggling for a while longer, Rui Ling, who has escaped from the sea of suffering, will finally face an even fiercer wave.

That night, I was lying in bed, rolling around on the wrong side of the bed, always unavoidably, so, from the head of my bed, I fumbled for my cell phone, and now, when I turned on the phone, the first thing I thought of was logging on QQ to see if Little Zhang was online, and advised him to let her go. When I really saw that his QQ profile picture was still lit up, I didn't send a single word or any other expressions, but instead, after silently quitting, I opened the document manager and opened up one of my favorite singers, Zhang Xinzhe's famous song: Love Like the Tide.

I don't care who else is in your heart, and let me give you comfort. My love is like a tide...

When I heard the last refrain of the chorus: I don't want to see you getting drunk in the middle of the night any more, I don't want other men to see you bewitching, do you know this will break my heart? Promise me that you will never linger in the night again, that you will not easily try to indulge the taste, do you know that this will break my heart? I don't want to see you getting drunk in the middle of the night again. I don't want other men to see your charm.

It was as if I was really heartbroken for her, but the tears were not on my face, but in my heart.

Perhaps, I really am very poor, so poor that I can't get anyone's good impression, but, from beginning to end, I have never been outstanding, still in a holy and true heart, hoping, hoping, hoping, that Rui Ling can have a beautiful home, really find someone who loves her, and someone she truly loves.

If love was a game, who could afford to play it? If love is a dream, how many inches is it from reality?

Days passed by like flowing water before my eyes. My heart gradually relaxed a lot, and I relaxed a lot towards Rui Ling. As for the Friend in the same room, although she was unhappy with me, she had not yet become enemies with me.

Finally, under the teamwork of many trivial matters, his emotions had slowly faded away.

Little Zhang still liked to search for beauties online and chat with them. He was showing off his power, but there was clearly less information about Rui Ling. Regarding this, I did not want to ask him about it, but I still could not help but to ask him some questions about her.

Little Zhang immediately replied me. Actually, Rui Ling and the man who hurt her before has made up with her. She doesn't really like husband and husband.

In addition to the strange, colorful photographs, the photographs were a collection of photographs taken at a luxury photography shop. They were extremely luxurious and envious, and they also disturbed my heart, which had never been at peace, intentionally or unintentionally.

When I heard this news, which seemed to be a bit unusual, I immediately let out a faint smile, and my heart would ripple from time to time. It turned out that, after a round of reincarnation, she had actually returned to the starting point, and the care and consolation I once gave her was just my own act, it turned out that I was destined to be a passerby in her life, or rather, a passerby who didn't even leave a single footprint.

Although this was unexpected, it was within reason because Rui Ling who did not know the direction in which she was going in in love had chosen this. It was a choice that made people unable to keep their eyes open. At most, it was just a little regret and a sigh.

My former Friend in the same room also said to me: "Lin Fan, I also heard that Rui Ling and her husband already have a child."

When I heard the news, my heart suddenly felt a lot more empty. What had caused me to feel this way about her, who no longer had anything to do with me?

I'm confused, I'm at a loss...

I couldn't help asking myself again and again, what role did I play here? And what made me lose so badly? I'm not the main character in her life, not even a rogue. But, as I've been watching your relationship progress, why do I feel like every nerve in my body would be broken by her, yet still want to be connected to it?

When I sat beside Friend in the same room, I immediately forced out a smile and asked him, "Will you release her completely because of this?"

He actually smiled and said, "To find a lover and marry or not to marry, having a child is different. There is a partner, a husband, and a child. It doesn't matter."

"I'll go!"

I couldn't help but feel embarrassed for his exquisite explanation. If I didn't guess wrongly, this might very well be the best place to find a lover, right?

I originally thought that once Rui Ling and her husband had children, I would let them go without any worries. But I never thought that Little Zhang's words would be like the fifth finger mountain that pushed Sun Wukong down that year, pressuring me to the point where I couldn't even breathe.

I want to say this to Little Zhang, isn't this way too bad? But then I thought, Why should I say that? Am I qualified?

To me, Rui Ling was a mystery, and her actions had always puzzled me.

I never understood why she did it. One of them is a man that she doesn't have a cold and has hurt you before. The other one is Little Zhang that already has a girlfriend.

Every night, after a busy day, I would habitually open the QQ, and every time I opened the QQ, I would naturally find that among the hundred netizens, only a third of them had come online. This third of the netizens, after staying for a short while, had slowly turned into grey heads, only the heads of the Little Zhang were still lit, as if they were guarding a place that could not be beaten by the enemy.

I think that Rui Ling right now is probably enjoying her life in my husband's embrace. Maybe she is having a good time chatting with Little Zhang, who is resting at home.

Choosing a direction meant that you had to give yourself up to it. Choosing a life also meant that you had to completely devote yourself to it. It was truly a wonder what would happen after you chose this direction and your life.

Was it a storm, or was the sun shining? Or something else?

I silently looked at the Little Zhang's portrait that was stored in the space, my mind was actually as calm as the moon in a lotus pond.

In the photo, she had beautiful long hair that was slightly rolled up. She had crescent-like beautiful eyebrows, a pair of clear eyes that were as captivating as autumn water. She had a cute nose, rosy cheeks and shy cheeks, red lips like a cherry that were dripping water, a oval face that was as smooth as jade. Her smooth skin was smooth like snow and her figure was graceful.

Gradually, my heart couldn't help but feel a little sour, and it was also at this moment that I thought back to everything that had happened between me and her. Even though everything had become a legend, even though my concern for her was like a shadow, and I couldn't touch her.

At this moment, I was paying extra close attention, because this would be the last time I would see her picture, which meant that even if she was any more beautiful, it would have nothing to do with me.

Right at this time, Friend in the same room, who liked to be invisible, immediately sent me a smiling emoticon. I hurriedly asked him, what was he doing now?

Let me guess? I said, talking to Rui Ling! he said. NO! He was alone in a daze on the internet. The moments when no one was chatting were very depressing.

Hearing his words, I hurriedly asked him, 'Aren't I talking to Rui Ling?' He said NO again and replied directly to me. A month ago, she had a child with her husband. Ever since then, the chance to chat with her has become less and less. Even if he occasionally logged on, he would just hang up and not chat.

Even if they occasionally chatted, they would mostly say things like "hmm, hmm, hmm" or "perfunctory". Little Zhang also told me that ever since Rui Ling and her husband had a child, they weren't as happy as they looked.

Her husband had a fiery temper. He had argued with her over small matters many times, but what made her even angrier and more helpless was that for such a big matter, he directly hit her in front of everyone!

In fact, I had been worried about this ending many times, but what I hadn't thought of was how it had come to be so soon.

I asked my: "Little Zhang, is everything just a lie made up by you? "Since you're online and don't chat so much, how do you know so much about it?"

My directly replied me: "Rui Ling told me so herself after you met her the day before yesterday."

Then, I immediately thought of something and quickly took out my phone. I quickly opened up my QQ and opened up the Little Zhang's space, I had previously heard from him a few times about Rui Ling and her husband, but now, I really wanted to open up his space again and look at all the recent developments regarding her.

But when he opened the page, along with the leisurely speed of the internet, it became a still state, he discovered that his space had already been set to a state that no one could access.

I sighed helplessly again, but my heart was full of complaints for you. What on earth are you thinking? How much you have to bear alone, how much you have to interpret in one inappropriate way or another.

At this moment, the QQ suddenly moved up and down. I just realized that the Little Zhang's profile picture had already turned grey. Heaven knows, how many unspeakable stories Rui Ling has, and how much suffering does it contain in these stories?

I was depressed, frustrated, unable to say, unable to hide, all kinds of emotions like a spider web, crisscrossing, disorderly...

He lightly patted my shoulder and said: "Actually, many days ago, she told me that her husband did not allow her to chat with anyone. At that time, I already knew that it was time for me to withdraw, and today, it seems that I am really going to need to find another antidote. If I were to order a name for that antidote, I think it should be: Delete her!"

The night was eerily quiet. Surprisingly, aside from his own heartache, he could hear nothing else.

The energy saving lamp, which was originally not bright in the room, seemed to shine brightly at this moment. The light scattered on every corner of the room, on my chest, through my body, and on my heart …

Actually, everyone should be free, and I, who was already rejected by her, should have reached the stage where I could no longer hold on. The sad, depressed, happy, and frustrated past all turned into a cloud of smoke, drifting into the depths of my memories.

Little Zhang said to me: "What I and Rui Ling really want to do is to ignore them, and never miss them. That's because this is the best barrier to stopping me from feeling sad."

Finally, he pointed his mouse at Rui Ling's grey picture in front of me. At that moment, his hand didn't even tremble a little, and although Rui Ling's portrait looked extremely grey, it couldn't hide the charm and charm of her face, causing my heart to suddenly turn cold.