3021 why should i be sad (3)

As he spoke, Chi zeyao took out a tissue from the bedside table and gently wiped her tears. He coaxed her softly, ” “Don’t cry. It really did not hurt. I was a little nervous before the operation. I was afraid that there would be problems during the operation and I would never see you again. at that moment, i also regretted it. I regret not telling you about this.”

“then why didn’t you call me when you regretted it?” feng ji mian asked, annoyed.

“Because of Nuannuan! Nuannuan told me that my operation would definitely be a success. You know that doctors don’t make such promises to their patients when they’re in surgery. I believe in Nuannuan. She told me that it’ll definitely be successful, so I don’t want you to feel sad and worried about me anymore.

Ji Mian, although I’ve realized my mistake and promised you that I’ll never hide anything from you no matter what happens in the future, and that we’ll face it together as husband and wife, I’m still very grateful to you. But do you know, the moment I remembered you that year, I thought of all the things you’ve done for me because you hated the Chi family and wanted to take revenge for me. I even retaliated without mercy and made you suffer the consequences. Do you know how sad I was? I don’t feel like a man. you’re not even fit to be a human.”

“No, you’re not!” Feng jimian shook her head. you’re not! You’ve always been the best in my heart. you’re the best man and the best father.”

with that, feng jimian hugged chi zeyao tightly, her heart aching, to stop him from speaking.

“You’re good too. In my heart, you’ve always been the best wife and the best mother. I miss you very much, even when I was down. I know I’ve lost the most important person in my life. but i don’t remember you, yingluo.”

“but didn’t you remember it later? It was good as long as he remembered! It’s enough as long as you can remember me. ”

“yup, i know. When I finally thought of you, I was very happy. But that night, I was so excited that I fainted. After he was sent to the hospital, the doctor gave my father a notice of critical illness. it was only then that i knew that my life was about to end.

Ji Mian, I’ve always wanted to give you happiness, but I’ve missed it again and again. I’m already afraid of this feeling. so at that time, i was even glad that i was able to remember your condition.”

Feng Ji Mian’s face was already covered in tears.

“after that, i found out that nuannuan’s medical skills were amazing and that she could cure me. that’s why i’ve been thinking of coming to find you when i’m better. i’ll definitely find you, and from then on, we’ll live a life happier than the gods. But at this moment, you came. And I’m not ready to welcome you in my best condition. Do you know how I felt when you came to find me and we were alone?”

“aren’t you happy?” Feng Ji Mian snuggled up from Chi zeyao’s arms, her sharp eyes had long since turned watery and harmless.

“I’m happy.” Chi zeyao stroked her hair and said, ” “but it’s also very uncomfortable.”

“What are you feeling so bad about?”

“It’s hard to see you in front of me, but I can’t do anything when I look at you.”

Feng jimian blinked. my career is going well here, my husband is still alive, and my son is so outstanding. Other than his low EQ, which allowed him to let my future daughter-in-law go, everything else is fine, right? ”

Chi zeyao looked at his wife’s eyes, which were so clean they were almost transparent, and felt even more guilty.