CH 11

​​I, Yumika Nagasawa, fell onto the bed as if to let out my thoughts that were about to burst.

After a few days of staying at Fujigaya’s house, instead of getting used to it, my mind was not at all at ease.

This and that, all because of that guy, Sakiya Fujigaya.

Suddenly there was a twin in my life. I was told of his existence before my father died.

I was shuddering at the mere thought of my own twin or whatever. I wanted to deny the existence of any man who looked like me.

But after a while, when I calmed down, I felt like seeing something scary. I was interested, or rather, I wanted to confirm that it existed.

Then, at the time of my father’s funeral, Sakiya’s mother approached me and immediately said I would stay with the Fujigaya family.

The result was…..

He was an unsympathetic man with a frizzy head, just like me.

There was nothing particularly attractive about him, nor did I see anything that would attract the opposite s*x to him. However, I felt very relaxed when I was with him.

It was reassuring, and it warmed my heart. I wanted to be with him more, and touch him more.

I found myself thinking only about Sakiya and following him with my eyes all the time. I was bothered because I didn’t know what this feeling was, and then he suddenly hugged me so tightly that I realized.

No, I was made conscious of it. The thought that came to me when Sakiya hugged me was two words: Sukki. (TL/n: ‘好き’ mean ‘I like you’ or ‘I love you.’)

That euphoria and the excitement welling up inside me were feelings that emerged for the person I love.

I had never fallen in love with anyone before, so it was a very fresh feeling. But why is the first person I could fall in love with, of all people, my twin…….

I had heard stories that falling in love with someone is instantaneous, but I never thought it would happen to me.

But falling in love with your twin is not fruitful. You can’t go public and it’s not accepted by anyone.

However, my heart strongly desired Sakiya, even in such adversity.

That must be how strongly I felt about him. I’m such an idiot…..

Because I’m an idiot, I fell in love stupidly. But I also love myself for being such a fool.

When I left the room to have a drink to cool down my hot body, Sakiya came out of the next room at the same time.

Seriously……

Why did this guy always act at the same time?

“I’m sorry about earlier.”

Sakiya apologized again for the prior hug. He didn’t have to apologize because he was trying to help Kana, but he still seemed to be feeling a bit withdrawn.

“How was it? How did it feel to hold me?”

To lighten Sakiya’s withdrawal, I dared to make a light-hearted joke.

“…..I’m glad but”

Embarrassed, Sakiya looked at my chest and hastily averted his eyes.

What’s with that reaction…so cute, I like it.

Sakiya had been embarrassed to see my large br**sts several times before.

That’s what I love so much, and I want to see more of it.

It was only uncomfortable when other boys saw my b*****s…….

I’m sure I’m happy to be seen not as a twin, but as a woman.

In the end, I decided to go with Sakiya and have a drink.

He made the tea I wanted to drink without me having to say anything, and gave it to me.

I am really glad that you understand me.

I wonder if he was as happy to have me understand him as I am……

No, I think, it must be so.

Since he looked just like me, he must feel the same way.

“What is Sakiya’s favorite type of girl?”

“Hmmm …… someone who understands me?”

That’s me, right? He was saying he likes me in a roundabout way, wasn’t he?

What should I do? I want to convey this joy to someone as soon as possible, but I don’t have any friends I could talk to.

“All that’s left is someone with a sense of cleanliness. I’m a germaphobe, and the other person has to be someone who can tolerate that.”

That’s me, isn’t it? And I’m pretty much the same as the type you like! I’m so happy, so happy. My chest is so hot, I can’t breathe well.

“Yumika?”

“I-I’m the same as you.”

“…..I see.”

Sakiya was blushing, as if he understood how I felt. I am sure I would have the same look on my face.

Having finished his tea, Sakiya entered his room as if running away. I am sure he was embarrassed to be with me and had a hard time staying.

When I turned on the TV in the living room, I saw a handsome actor who is currently the talk of the town. He was cool, and the atmosphere was refreshing. I could see why he’s so popular.

But, looking at the actors didn’t faze me at all, nor did it attract me.

Why was it that even though Sakiya isn’t cool or more refreshing than this actor, just from looking at him made my heart race so much…..

I don’t know why I’d fall in love with him. What exactly is Sakiya’s charm that others did not have?

The repeated self-questioning almost confused me. I’ve never had a boyfriend before, or even liked anyone.

I love myself…….

Oh I see, because I love myself.

That’s why I’m attracted to Sakiya, who looks just like me.

A boy like me…..

I’m sure he must be my ideal existence.

I felt like the mystery had been solved a little, and the feeling that had been bothering me all this time was clearing up.

I’m sure it had to be Sakiya, I──

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TL: SHINIGAMI-san

Hello, just another note, I wanted to keep it ‘Sukki’ though I could have just made changes to it to fit the translation, but I chose to keep that way.  Cause I like it that way.