Chapter 260 - Afraid?

WARNING: MATURE CONTENT AHEAD: READERS ARE WARNED TO PROCEED WITH CAUTION:: KEEP A REMOTE OF AC AND GLASS OF COLD WATER BY YOUR SIDE (:-D):: JUST DON'T KEEP ROTTEN TOMATOES AND EGGS TO THROW AT THIS AUTHOR IF THIS CHAPTER DOES NOT MEET YOUR EXPECTATIONS. ( Author is running away… lol)

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|Innaya|

With a thudding heart, I slowly let go of my arms around Eshan's neck. Holding his intense gaze, I took his face in my hands, caressing his cheeks with my fingers. 

Eshan turned his face and kissed the insides of my palm. His hand reached out and held mine over his right cheek. "Thank you!" he whispered as the unsaid understanding settled between us.

Eshan did not rush, though. He took his own sweet time as his hands reached to the hem of my top. With his fingertips slowly caressing the skin, like a dragonfly skimming over the water, he lifted the shirt. Co-operating with him, I let him pull it from over my head, leaving me in my cotton pink non-padded and non-wire bra. It was quite comfortable to wear as no tight straps were digging in my skin or a clasp pricking my back.

I really liked the brand. The cotton fabric gave a comfortable feeling after wearing it. I realized that there was something wrong when Eshan started chuckling and his gaze lingered on my chest.

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"What's funny?" I asked, crossing my arms across my chest. Did he have to laugh at the time like this, when he was the one to look at me like I was his favorite chocolate which he could not wait to unwrap? Now after unwrapping the half of the cover, he was laughing as if he wanted a KitKat and got plain Cadbury. 

Ah!!! What the hell was I thinking? Cadbury? Kitkat? Seriously? Could I not get any other comparison?

"My kitten seems to love kittens," Eshan said, as his eyes held amus.e.m.e.nt.

"Huh? Kitten? Move away. I don't want to talk to you." I started pushing at his chest, forgetting that once my hands moved away, there was the object of Eshan's amus.e.m.e.nt, which had him chuckling. Though I did not understand what it was.

'Stupid man. Unpredictable fool. Huh!'

"Why are you so adorable?" Eshan leaned down and placed a chaste kiss on my lips despite me being busy with pushing him away to which he did not budge a little.

Eshan then slowly climbed over my body, trapping me with his whole body. His knees dug in the mattress on my both sides as he straddled my waist. His movement made our lower halves brush, and I instantly turned red with the firm poking I felt against my bare stomach. All my thoughts about pushing him off and getting mad at his chuckles died down at that instant, leaving me in a state of shock.

That's human nature when we experience something surprising or new for the first time, our body's first reaction is to be still, guarding against the unknown.

"Afraid?" Eshan asked. His hand moved and caressed my lower jaw with his thumb, applying a little pressure to my chin and forcing me to look in his eyes. My eyelashes fluttered, and I did not know where to look.

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|Eshan|

Innaya looked so adorable and beautiful that I could not draw away my gaze from her. Like a moth drawn to the fire, my whole body was getting pulled to her. That intense burning was making me uncomfortable with a longing to quench my thirst with those deliciously inviting red lips. 

The natural color they gained after our extensive battle of affection was too pleasing to eyes that I wanted it to stay that way for a lifetime. All I was looking for was a reason to kiss her, though.

When I had passed Innaya her inner wears, I missed noticing what I chose for her. So, when I saw the two adorable pink kittens designed on the bra on her bosom, I ended up chuckling. 

Innaya turned miffed, not understanding what I was finding funny. She might have thought that I was laughing at her chest. Her expressions said it all. Only I knew the reason. I should have stopped myself because she might feel insecure as this being our first time getting intimate to this level. I did not want insecurities to muddle her head anymore. I would not allow that… not anymore.

So, holding onto her slender hands, trying to push me away, I held them with one palm. Throwing my leg on her other side, I climbed on top of her.

Her black hair sprawled on a white pillow gave her a seductive look, and I just could not help but reach and thread my fingers in them. I felt my entire being shuddering when we made our first intimate contact or rather when I let Innaya know about my reaction to her. 

Her long eyelashes fluttered, and Innaya froze under me. 

"Afraid?" I asked with a wildly thumping heart. If she nodded, I would stop everything. Scaring her with our intimacy was not a motive. On the outside, I might look confident and in control, but from inside, I was fidgeting as hell. 

I caressed her cheek to regain control over my raging emotions and to calm her down. 

To my utmost surprise, Innaya shook her head. 

"Just a little… surprised," she said, looking directly in my eyes.

And, that was the moment I fell in love with my wife all over again. It had nothing to do with how accepting she was to our intimacy, but with the way she was trusting me, and our marriage.

The girl who had been part of a broken family, bore the brunt of an abusive and mad father was trying to move on. Though, her past held her back. Many times, her past hindered our present, yet my sweet darling was trying her very best to overcome her fears.

One month ago, she was still hesitant. And, after a month, going through so much of s***, so much suffering… She was willing to cross the river with me, taking a blind leap of faith when we had mountain of things to clarify.

How could I hold myself back after having such a wonderful person as my soulmate?

Bending down I captured her lips in a kiss, conveying how much she meant to me.