Why? Why did this happen?
Why did I let her go?
Damn... It hurts... My heart hurts...
If only I hadn't let her leave that day...
The pain was unbearable. My heart felt as though it was being crushed.
She was the only person who cared for me so deeply, apart from my parents. I had planned to propose to her that day...
It was my fault. It was entirely my fault. If only I had kept her with me...
If only I hadn't been annoyed with her that day...
Then... Then...
Maybe... Maybe she would still be alive and standing in front of me.
As all of this was happening, my phone screen suddenly went dark.
When I turned my phone back on, everything came into sharp focus and cleared up my recent doubts.
Time and Date...
June 23, 2020
11:30 AM
I stopped and stared at my phone, my eyes fixed on the date rather than the time.
June 23... Huh?
I kept looking at it, my mind racing. My breathing grew heavier with each second, and I felt overwhelmed, almost as if I might collapse.
Despite the growing panic, I kept staring at the screen for a few more moments before muttering, "If I remember correctly... Isn't that the day the accident happened?"
So... Is this why my parents were comforting me at lunch?
I sighed deeply, realizing the truth.
Huh... I really didn't know.
I had completely forgotten about this when I was in that other world.
Maybe the luxury of that life had distracted me and made me forget.
Life is like a spinning wheel...
It moves smoothly and unnoticed until it hits a bump.
I sighed again, feeling the weight of the date and the memories coming back with a mix of sadness and clarity...
That day was the last time I saw her...
Her pink hair, flowing like a soft pastel wave, and those gentle hands that always made me feel better.
I would reach out and touch them whenever I could, enjoying the warmth and softness they gave.
Maybe it all started for me when I was younger, in those simpler times when I met her for the first time
Before I could finish my thought, my heavy breathing became too much for me.
My vision blurred, and the room spun around.
With one last shaky breath, I collapsed onto the bed, falling unconscious into the darkness.
***
It was a perfect afternoon, almost too good to be true.
The sky was a clear, endless expanse of blue, with the occasional fluffy white cloud lazily drifting by.
The sun bathed the rooftop in a warm, golden light, and a gentle breeze rustled the leaves of the trees below, carrying the faint scent of grass and flowers.
A fourteen-year-old boy sat cross-legged near the edge, leaning against the low parapet with a book in his hands.
The novel was an escape to another world, full of knights, dragons, and epic adventures that let him forget his problems for a while.
He was totally absorbed in his book, the words taking him to distant lands.
The quietness of the rooftop was calming, interrupted only by the distant hum of traffic and the occasional chirping of birds.
It was his favorite place, a refuge from the harsh realities of school life.
Without warning, the peaceful silence was shattered by the sound of the rooftop door creaking open.
The boy's heart sank as he looked up and saw three boys emerging from the stairwell.
They were Daniel, Mark, and Jasonclassmates who had made it their mission to make his life miserable.
Daniel, the ringleader, was tall and broad-shouldered, with a perpetual smirk plastered on his face.
Mark, lanky and sharp-eyed, was always ready with a cruel remark, while Jason, the shortest but stockiest of the group, had a reputation for his mean streak.
"Well, look who we have here," Daniel sneered, his voice cutting through the air like a knife.
The other two followed his gaze, their expressions darkening with malicious glee.
The boy tried to ignore them, his eyes fixed on his book, but his hands trembled.
The footsteps grew louder as the trio closed in on him, their shadows casting a pall over his peaceful retreat.
"Reading again, huh?" Mark mocked, eyeing the book in the boy's hands with disdain. "What is it this time? More dragons and knights?"
"Maybe he thinks he's a hero," Jason added with a snicker, snatching the book from the boy's grasp before he could react....
He flipped through the pages carelessly, a cruel smile spreading across his face.
"What's this garbage?"
"Give it back," the boy said quietly, but there was a tremor in his voice.
He stood up, his legs shaky, but he was determined to reclaim his book.
Daniel stepped closer, his smirk widening. "Or what? What are you gonna do about it, crybaby?"
"Hahahaha!"
The other boys laughed, their voices harsh and grating.
They encircled the boy, cutting off any escape.
And this is how their friendship began.
Over time, they became very close friends, bonded by their shared experiences of loneliness and isolation.
Emily, with her cold attitude and striking beauty, had often found herself alone as well...
Together, they found solace in each other's company, their friendship growing stronger with each passing day.
They would meet on the rooftop, talking about their lives, their dreams, and their struggles.
Emily's presence became a beacon of hope for the boy, a reminder that there was still kindness in the world.
As the days turned into weeks, the boy began to heal...
The rooftop, once a place of torment, became a sanctuary once again, but this time it was shared with someone who understood his pain.
Emily's pink hair and gentle hands brought comfort, and her unwavering support gave him the strength to face each new day.
The bullies suddenly stopped picking on him for no obvious reason.
Through their friendship, they learned that even in the darkest times, there was always a glimmer of light.
And together, they found the courage to keep moving forward, knowing that they were not alone.
Until the day when one mistake by the boy changed everything...
A mistake that wasn't meant to happen...
A mistake that ruined both their lives...
A mistake that led to the boy's downfall...
***
I sprang up from the bed, gripping my right hand as tightly as I could.
"What was that?"
I panted heavily, my breath coming in ragged bursts, and pressed my hand against my chest, feeling my heart pound like a drum.
Was that a dream?
Gradually, my breathing began to steady, and the pounding in my veins eased. I could feel my body returning to its normal state.
It was the first time I'd dreamed about her. Why now?
I couldn't understand why she had appeared in my dream.
Everything had started back thenmy friendship with her had slowly turned into something deeper, something that she never seemed to notice.
Yes, it was love.
I was aware of my feelings, but maybe it was too late for me...
Maybe I should have confessed my feelings to her earlier.
If I had, I might have been able to live a happy life with her.
Though, I still don't know if she would have accepted my love or not...
I proposed to her at the end, during her last moments, but I never got an answer to my question.
But it would have been better to try...
I sighed as her face and words suddenly flooded my mind.
"Let you go, huh?"
"No chance."
I looked at my phone and saw that it was exactly 7:30 P.M.
I was surprised I had been unconscious for so long.
"Gruuu~"
A rumbling sound broke the silence in the roomit was my stomach.
Hungry?
I hadn't eaten anything in the past 8 to 9 hours, so it was hard to function...
I quickly jumped out of bed, grabbed my wallet from my desk, and headed out of the room.
As I came down the stairs, I saw my mom sitting on the sofa in the living room, combing her hair. When she noticed me, concern filled her eyes, and her voice was laced with worry.
"Going out again?"
I understood exactly what she meant. Since her passing, I had become a bit unstable, frequently leaving the house at all hours, even in the middle of the night, like 3 or 4 A.M. My behavior had changed, and I often acted rudely toward my parents for no reason.
Today, however, I replied, "Yeah, I'm going out again, but to a new place to help me feel refreshed."
Her expression didn't change. "When will you be back?"
Without hesitation, I said, "Within two hours."
This time, her reaction was different. I knew whywhenever she asked about my return time before, I would just walk out without answering, showing her clear disrespect.
At first, she would punish me for that, but over time, she stopped as my behavior remained the same.
She stared at me for a few seconds in silence, which made me uncomfortable. The room seemed to hold its breath as I waited for her response.
After a few more moments, she finally asked, "You sure?"
I nodded and said, "Yeah, I promise I'll be back."
Her tone took on a mysterious edge as she replied, "I hope so."
I then asked, "So, can I leave now?"
She nodded without saying another word.
I quickly moved to the entrance, opened the door, and stepped out of the house. But just before closing it, I called out, "Mom."
She turned to look at me with curiosity in her eyes.
With a smile, I said, "I love you, as always!"
When she heard those words, a mix of shock and perhaps a hint of happiness crossed her face. I could see the impact my words had on her, and it made me even more embarrassed.
I closed the door behind me, not giving her a chance to continue looking at me. I was too embarrassed to face her further, not because I had said "I love you," but because I was struggling to hold back tears.
For so many days, without her, I had found it hard to cope, and the emotions I had kept bottled up were threatening to spill over.
I quickly called a taxi and instructed the driver to take me to a specific place.