Chapter 196 - How to Confess your Love in Dire Times

Ye Rim saw the reporters standing in front of Jun Hyeon's building, and winced in concern.

The scandalous news involving Dr. Kim and MP Lee was a field play for the press, and they would not give up as Jun Hyeon's accusation against his former schoolmate and his sister's ex-fiance was unsettling.

She stopped the car across the street, and decided to call again before entering. Ye Rim still had the key, which he insisted she keep, but she would like not to use it. This time Dr. Kim answered on the third call, much to the singer's relief,

"I don't know if I should, but I'm in front of your building with food for you. Are you busy? Where are you?" maybe it was sounding pathetic, but it wasn't the time for games between them. She needed to see him, wanted to know if he was okay. She wanted to make him feel a bit better, if she could.

"Get out of there, the press is there. I'm in a hotel. I'll send the address," his voice sounded tired and serious, even a little imperative, but Ye Rim didn't mind this last part,

"Okay," and hung up the phone, starting the car. She imagined that even Mrs. Go's house was surrounded by reporters as well. Tonight, Lee was likely to go free with a habeas corpus. Unfortunately it wasn't possible to speed up the testimony processes, headed by Chang Mi's statement, which could prove that Lee was a dangerous man and that he kept Ji Hyeon in captivity. But Kim's lawyers worked for it, as did Jae Wook.

Upon arriving at the hotel, she was expected and went up to the room where Dr. Kim had stayed. For a moment she thought it might ruin her career, be seen entering a man's hotel room, but she couldn't help it.

He opened the door, looking down and with deep dark circles around his eyes.

Ye Rim didn't say anything.

Just hugged him tight.

Dr. Kim was taken by surprise, but he returned the hug and pulled her inside, closing the door behind them.

"You are mad! Aren't you thinking about your career?" he whispered, chin resting on her head, Ye Rim still in his arms.

"I'm not that selfish. Or maybe it is. I thought you needed me," she tried to be a little funny, looking up at him in giving herself extreme importance. She noticed that his eyes shone slightly amused by her statement, despite the tiredness and stress. Jun Hyeon said, releasing her,

"Well, it looks like it. Your hug is ther.a.p.eutic for me."

"I can do this whenever you want me to," Ye Rim smiled slightly, finally walking away and looking around. It was in an anteroom of the suite and a wall separated the bedroom from the lounge where the connected laptop was on the table and the cell phones were charging. The coat was on a chair and the suitcase was in a corner, indicating that Jun Hyeon had not done anything like resting since he arrived.

"Eun Ha sent food. It's her way of showing that she cares a lot," Ye Rim took the lunch box out of the bag. Jun Hyeon smiled,

"That's very kind of her. I���m grateful," he didn't seem very inclined to make a meal, until Ye Rim opened the bento and the appetizing aroma of homemade meal reached him.

"I guess I didn't know I was hungry until I saw this bento, my stomach is growling. I don't remember when I haven't eaten last."

"I bet you were around with just coffee all day," she commented, arranging everything for him to sit and eat. Ye Rim watched him enjoy his meal for a while, then said that she would hang his clothes on hangers. As he didn't object, she did so while he finished the meal. Suddenly, Jun Hyeon turned to her,

"Should I go to him and beg him to release my noona? So he doesn't let her die?" It was a tough question and Ye Rim didn't know if he really didn't have the answer. She knew it was being difficult and that Jun Hyeon undoubtedly blamed himself for not knowing it. He no doubt imagined that all nightmares and hallucinations were related to the fact that he intimately knew and did nothing. Of course, that was beyond him.

"Well," she came back and stopped beside the table, bringing Jun Hyeon's head to her stomach, stroking his hair. "I don't know if begging, or threatening Dae Won will do any good. He's sick and I mean it. Who knows if someone makes a psychological profile of him, somehow understand how to get him to speak where she is. At least in the movies, it works. We should ask Detective Ji."

"Detective Ji?" he looked up suddenly, looking surprised. "Not OPPA, but Detective Ji?" the unexpected question made Ye Rim raise an eyebrow in surprise.

"He's still a fantastic person, but I have another favorite Oppa now. You," Ye Rim said, ruffling his hair and making a move to release him. She had confessed her feelings but felt a heat in her face, and wanted to take it back, but Jun Hyeon quickly put his arm around her h.i.p.s, not letting her go.

"Ye Rim, it's a terrible time to say that, and God knows how I tried to find the best timing. When this is all over.. date with me."

"...!" she blinked, startled.

"Is it really that bad?! You don't have to answer. I guess I definitely don't fit your dream of happiness. But ... I like you. I want to have you around. I really, really want to have you around, next to me," he sighed, looking into Ye Rim's eyes. "But right now, I have little to offer on my part. I know that."

His reddish eyes shone, and she knew that Jun Hyeon was very close to his own limits.

Reaching out to take his hands on her h.i.p.s, she made Jun Hyeon stand up. Ye Rim could feel his gaze examining her closely, looking for clues as to how she would respond. Still holding his hands, she looked up at him again,

"I can't wait. I want to be your girlfriend now."

"Why? It would be very selfish of me to want you by my side when I'm living this nightmare. When I can offer so little, close to what I want and I know you deserve!" he said the words at once, and didn't flinch nor his eyes lie. He meant it.

It seemed difficult for Jun Hyeon to understand the obvious, so Ye Rim put her fingers over his lips, to keep him silent,

"Shhh! You are confused and with a lot to think about. What are we going to do then? Wait for the perfect moment? I don't think life is like that, with perfect timing and a light sign going on to tell you that we can already record the show! If I ... love you," Ye Rim took a deep breath, realizing what she had said and realizing that Jun Hyeon's pupils they dilated to the sound of her voice, "If that's the case, I want to be by your side in difficult times too. And if you don't have the energy to dedicate to me now, that's not a problem. I want to date you, Dr. Kim. I can wait for the good times to come, to enjoy them together. I… I think you're worth it."

At first Jun Hyeon was confused, and then his cheeks flushed at the same time as his eyes lit up,

"You have a gift for embarrassing me and making me very insecure, you know?" his hands ran back to her h.i.p.s. Ye Rim couldn't control her smile nows, he knew she must have looked like a fool showing all her teeth. But Jun Hyeon smiled too. And it was good to see him smiling amid so much tragedy.

"Me? Of course not. You are unshakable. I should have known I'd fall in love with you when you took your shirt off for me."

"Well, that was quite a dilemma. The view was superb!" he winked, and then with a sigh he walked away. "Luckily you're crazy enough to understand and forgive my inability to be romantic right now."

"Okay okay. I understand. You are the man of my fantasies, but you are also a human being. You need to eat, take a shower, rest ... Because we have to find your noona."

Jun Hyeon looked at her, and nodded slowly,

"Did I tell you we're getting married?" but after he said that he went to the bedroom and when Ye Rim followed, he was already entering the bathroom, and closing the door behind him.

"What?!"

'He did it on purpose!' Ye Rim sat on the bed, thinking of the words and the serious tone with which he said it. At another time she would have thought it was a silly provocation, but not today. Kim Jun Hyeon really meant what he said, after they confessed as two a.d.u.l.ts, no games and no desire spell to create a romantic fantasy full of empty promises.

Ye Rim was happy, and Jun Hyeon convinced her with simple words he loved her.

She felt her heart racing and that at least corrected the anticlimactic and uns.e.xy confessing from both parts. Knowing that he loved her and didn't feel able at that time to give his best. But she'd give her best to him.

But at that moment, how could they be happy without guilt?