Chapter 44: Emotional Talk, Possibly

Chapter 44: Emotional Talk, Possibly

After convincing the girls to let me go, I went out with Mikoto to start cleaning the school.

We called the rest of the group at Rika's house to tell them that we will spend a day at school to clean up most of the infected and tomorrow they will come.

I can leave them alone without worrying about any problem since on the way I left some decoys of Hamon so that the infected do not come near Rika's house or this school, plus I trust that Saeko and Chikage will keep the men at bay and troublesome women in the group.

I tried to convince Mikoto to leave things to me since she doesn't seem right, the idea of ​​shooting children is too much for her heart and this mission is affecting her.

If she knew that the infected are not undead and are actually living people that lost their rationality then Mikoto might freak out.

Sooner or later the group will know the truth of the infection so to prevent any of the women from going crazy I must establish a bond of empathy with them.

The first is Mikoto as, despite possessing excellent mental toughness, she can be quite soft when it comes to innocent people.

"Are you OK? Do you want us to rest? " - I spoke with a worried voice when I saw that Mikoto's face turned as pale as her hair.

She has killed over 50 infected children so her mental health is deteriorating, but she remains stubborn in continuing.

"I'm ... Fine ... Let's just keep going ..." - Mikoto had difficulty breathing as she staggered, to avoid running out of her bullets she has been using a steel bat that Takashi gave her so the feeling of killing innocents with her bare hands is more shocking than when using a gun.

I shook my head and dragged her to the empty music room, the music rooms have good sound insulation so it will be useful, just in case I put a layer of Ki on the door to improve sound insulation.

Although Mikoto began to learn Ki she still cannot distinguish the use of Ki to strengthen objects since she is just a beginner.

I closed the door and led Mikoto to a chair to rest.

"Heh, do you want to do something dirty here? Damn pervert "- Mikoto sneered at me as she tried to use sarcasm to hide her weakness.

What a stubborn woman, forcing herself to do something she can't bear and just because she doesn't want me to face danger alone, this silly girl is the kind of person who would happily die to protect those she loves.

I hate the martyr mentality, but I don't dislike that side of Mikoto.

"Mikoto, I want to tell you something about me, it is something very personal that I have not shared" - I spoke seriously ignoring Mikoto's confusion.

"Will you use a trick to catch women? Hmph, don't think I don't know your tricks, you damn womanizer! " Mikoto pouted, but she looked curious.

Well, I can't deny that this will be a trick to conquer, but at the same time, I'm worried that Mikoto's mind might break from stress so I'll have to divert attention from the situation.

"Mikoto, you already know that my family was murdered" - I looked at Mikoto with a solemn expression.

In these few days Mikoto and I have shared some details of our lives, she mentioned the death of her brother in a motorcycle accident, but she did not give details. I have a theory that she was involved and she has a guilt complex which is why she is so afraid of losing a loved one.

For my part, I only mentioned that my relationship with my family was not the best, but they were still my family so I want to find and confront the culprit.

I was hugging Mikoto while she cried and screamed, she did not stop for almost half an hour and ended with a hoarse voice.

When Mikoto stopped crying she pulled her face away from my chest and looked at me with a determined expression. All hesitation, guilt, and pain were gone from her eyes as her resolve and determination flooded her gaze which made me smile at her.

I like that stubborn look full of stubbornness, a great determination that does not fall into obsession or madness, it is something beautiful.

I envy that look as my own willpower is fueled by obsession and perhaps a bit of madness, the willpower free from the impurities generated by obsessive desires is so beautiful that it makes me want to record this moment in my memory.

Maybe I want to corrupt her, turn that resolution into an obsession that only part of me.

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What the fuck was that ?!

[Insanity (9%)> (9.5%)]

Oh shit...

It was definitely a bad idea to think about my life and let my problems out without the support of a mental health professional, maybe if I need a therapist.

Ah, whatever, then I'll hug Shizuka and Nao, they are both better than a year of therapy.

Mikoto didn't know that I almost had the urge to break her and she looked at me with those beautiful golden eyes as she displayed one of the cockiest expressions I have ever seen. - "Do not think that only you can act great, I will be stronger, so strong that I will be able to hit you every time you say stupid things about being a tragic hero who carries everything, so strong that you will not have the opportunity to risk your life! SO STRONG THAT I WON'T LOSE ANYONE I LOVE! " Mikoto screamed with such conviction that I began to suspect that she was a protagonist herself.

"I will be so strong that I will protect you ..." - Mikoto murmured so that I would not hear her, but my senses are very sharp.

She's cute when she acts like this, I almost forgot that we have to keep killing infected children.

"Come on my pretty guardian, if you want to protect me you have to train" - I smirked as I moved toward the door.

"What?! You listened?! Don't ignore me and tell me if you listened! You fucking bastard come back here !!" - Mikoto started screaming as we eliminated the infected.

At this point, Mikoto stopped caring about the childish appearance of the infected and only cared about moving on.

No matter the situation or the problems, you always have to move on.

Always ahead.

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