Chapter 250

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Volume 7

The smile on Lils lips faded.

Visha. That was his given nickname. My father said that even after the child was born, he would still be called Visha until he was an adult, just like how I had been called Knox from the moment I was inside my mothers womb.

Before he knew it, Ed was lying down, looking at the ceiling. Lil felt responsible and guilty for urging him to keep talking for no reason, because now that he had done so, she felt like she wasnt in the position to offer something like a half-baked consolation. So instead, Lil moved closer to him and whispered that he didnt need to continue any further.

However, Ed lightly shook his head.

Anyway, due to that, my mother lost a lot of blood and had childbed fever*. She passed away not long after. Of course, I was very sad, but the people around me kept saying that childbed fever was very common. I couldnt understand why they were comforting me with such words. If it was a common disease, did that make it any easier? Was it then just natural to die?

When the hand that was stroking Eds hair suddenly stopped, Ed held Lils fingers and fiddled with them.

Of course, I was too young at the time to truly understand any of it and only had such thoughts. But three years later, my father also passed away. He joined a small battle and came back with an injured leg. I could do nothing but watch how his leg rotted away Within a month, it had to be amputated. But the amputated part became infected again and it spread throughout his body I didnt even know it was an infection at the time. I just grew up smelling the scent of rotting flesh, the smell of my father slowly dying for half a year People said to me that even with his leg cut off, he had to be lucky to survive, and that if he was unlucky, he would obviously die. Adding that in fact, there were more cases where luck ran out They comforted me with such words again

Lil, who thought she would simply listen to some of his preferences, likes, and dislikes at best, was taken aback upon hearing the series of tragedies in Eds life.

Even in the letter I read yesterday, there was another death that wasnt light. I cant even imagine experiencing such sorrow from such a young age. I baselessly assumed that he constantly received love when he was growing up, seeing how hes always so positive and active

When he heard that his son was in critical condition, my grandfather, who was staying in the Empire at that time, came to my hometown, but my father had already passed away by then. My grandfather even brought a doctor from the Imperial Clairaut with him. After my fathers passing I stayed away from them and didnt speak, so that doctor thought there was a problem with me and he examined me instead. The doctor at that time had unfamiliar iron tools and a book that was difficult to read

After that, Lil understood it even without Ed having to continue.

Ed sighed softly. Still holding her fingers, he slowly turned his body to face her.

I wanted to live. I was scared and hated that people could die so easily, so I decided to study medicine. Thinking that I could die easily, too. That I, too, could die a common or unlucky death. I didnt know any better then, but thinking about it more carefully now, I truly think people really do

Lil lifted her body and moved closer to Ed. As she looked down at him, she felt a knot in her stomach. The sadness that could be heard in his voice, became even more vivid when she saw it in his face.

Come on, dont look at me like that. My grandfather was a pretty funny guy, so I quickly regained my spirits.

Still, her heart ached as if she was actually the one who experienced it. She didnt know that Ed would share something like that so willingly. And given how dark his story was, she could only apologise to him with tears in her eyes.

Im sorry. Ive been misunderstanding you.

Instead of responding, Ed reached out his hand and tucked Lils hair behind her ear. Because she had been looking down at him, a lot of her strands flowed down her face and Ed carefully swept them all away.

Liloa.

Hmm?

After tidying up the hair on both sides, Lils full, slightly reddened, face was revealed. Ed spoke as he caressed her cheek.

I will never deceive you again.

Lil was at a loss for words for a moment, then decided to be honest about her thoughts.

Did you just read my mind?

It was due to your stiff expression It made me wonder why you looked like that.

Still, you couldnt have been that accurate

His eyebrows twitched. Lil climbed onto Eds lap despite his hesitations and swept his serious face with both hands. Eds eyebrows and eyes went up due to the motion, causing Lil to be the only one who could freely smile.

This is my first time seeing this kind of expression on your face.

Its the face of someone who is carefully agonising. I hope you like it.

I like it. Its handsome.

Im glad that my good looks contribute to easing your anger.

Even though he joked, Ed didnt laugh, so Lil waited for him in silence. Instead of continuing, his fingers came up and caressed her cheek.

Your cheek is swollen.

Lil immediately took his hand, lowered it and avoided his eyes.

Its fine. Dont worry.

No, its not.

I was arrogant. I dismissed what you went through in your childhood as nothing special. Thats why I was so envious of you and couldnt acknowledge you. I laughed at those who were afraid of you, but at the same time, I couldnt admit to myself that I was one of them

Footnote:

childbed fever: also known as Postpartum infections and puerperal fever, are bacterial infections of the female reproductive tract following childbirth or miscarriage From the 1600s through the mid-to-late 1800s, the majority of childbed fever cases were caused by the doctors themselves. With no knowledge of germs, doctors did not believe hand washing was needed [WIKI]

References:

{ It seems as if this one single mistake of mine has let you define my whole being, but how many times have his faults been forgiven? } = chapter 153 = This was said by Cesar in one of their fights. It was the fight they had after Ed was thrown overboard and Lil demanded Cesar to show her the note. During this fight, Lil finally understood that Cesar did all that out of jealousy and confronted him with it.

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