CH 110

See? I Told You.

And Nathaniel, who felt the enormous magical power above his head, embraced her in an instant.

[Hold me.]

Kyrie couldn’t do that. She did nothing as she watched the flaming orb falling down through the night.

“…..Meteor?”

Like a lie, the meteor rushed straight toward Buchanan mansion. Dozens of layers of protective magic hung on the mansion broke with a warning sound. The heat that seemed to ripen bare skin heated up.

Nataniel hugged Kyrie’s head as gently as possible and placed it under his chin. And with a white sword in his hand, he looked at Kyrie in his arms. She didn’t understand the situation properly yet. However, it was certain that despair would soon be engraved in her eyes.

Will she cry again if I wait and see?

Nathaniel smiled bitterly.

[Good girl. Close your eyes]

Since then, Kyrie has briefly lost consciousness for a while. She woke up because of the feather-like touch on her cheek.

[Kyrie. I’m fine with it as it is, but I think you’d prefer waking up.]

Nathaniel was seen against the backdrop of the burning Buchanan mansion in Kyrie’s eyes when she opened her eyes wide.

[Where did you get hurt? Of course, I don’t think you got hurt.]

Nathaniel stood up while holding her in his arms. They were in the garden earlier. However, the surrounding area was a mess as if a huge nail had scratched past. Just in time, a corner of the mansion collapsed. Someone screamed again. Her ears went deaf.

Kyrie was so embarrassed that she took a breath in a hurry. Only then did she smell the burning smoke and the fire that made her nose stingy. People’s cries also reached her ears belatedly.

“Run away! Run away for now!”

“Oh my god! There’s a person on the floor!”

“Help me! Please……!”

“Call the aberration wheel!”

“Save me! Save me!”

[You can’t fool the bloodline. My preference for fancy things still remains the same.]

Nathaniel looked down at Kyrie with his white sword, raised his head and looked up at the sky.

[It’s a high level magic. Vallabriga worked on this. I guess it was completed after I fell asleep.]

Even in the midst of hell-like flames, Nathaniel was surprisingly calm and elegant.

However, Kyrie could no longer hear his voice. The bloody wails of the dying echoed in her ears. At the hellish, red sight and the scent of burning flesh, she burst into tears and stared blankly at the devastation in front of her.

When Aaron walked out of the middle, she burst into laughter. Aaron appeared with a flame and gave Kyrie a look of contempt.

See? I told you I was going to die again.

Something that had kept her going so far seemed to have been cut off.

[Kyrie?]

Nathaniel called her name with a straight face, but Kyrie laughed looking up high in the sky, ignoring him.

Let’s quit, everything.

She passed out.

***

When Kyrie opened her eyes, the rays of sunset were shining in the room. She was lying in bed, and Nathaniel was sitting next to her. Their eyes met as if he had known she would open her eyes. Aaron, who was standing at the foot of the bed, also stared at Kyrie.

As soon as Kyrie woke up, Nataniel sighed.

[Your maid was about to die.]

He reached out and touched Kyrie’s forehead. It was a careful touch as if touching the first snow. There was no smell of death anywhere on the fingertips where affection hung.

It was sad. It was always because of her that his hands became a blade and a disaster.

[Was it that shocking?]

Nathaniel hesitated and asked. Kyrie thought that an existence, who isn’t a human, would say this. She stared blankly at the part where the canopy of the bed gathered.

[Kyrie?]

Nathaniel uncrossed his legs and sat down on bed.  His voice became more serious.

[No voice again?]

At that time, Aron said. 

Noona. 

Kyrie forced her body to stand up without strength.

“I’m listening.”

Nathaniel’s eyes widened.

Am I right? 

Aron asked. Kyrie nodded.

“Yes, you were right.”

[Kyrie. Now…….]

You should’ve died, right? 

Aron grinned. Kyrie couldn’t help but give a blurry smile.

“Sorry. Back then…… I thought I could do something.”

[Kyrie.]

Nathaniel gently touched her shoulder. Kyrie turned around without resistance. However, the gaze was still on Aaron.

“I was so arrogant.”

[Kyrie. With whom are you…….]

“I’m sorry….. I’m sorry, Aaron…….”

Kyrie reached out her trembling hand toward Aaron, who was smiling crookedly. At that moment, Nathaniel grabbed her hand.

[Kyrie.]

Nathaniel rarely raised his voice. His eyes were burning like meteors.

[Wake up, Kyrie Buchanan. That guard is already dead.]

Kyrie paused. Aaron was seen staring at Nathaniel with a tired face. 

He is saying that I’m dead.

“Yes, I know.”

You need to know. 

Aaron became sullen and inflated like a lion. 

Because my noona killed me. 

Kyrie dropped her head and began to shed tears.

“I’m sorry. I’m sorry. I’m sorry. I’m sorry. I’m sorry. I’m sorry.….”

[Kyrie!]

Nathaniel grabbed Kyrie’s shoulder. Kyrie looked at Nathaniel, unable to control her neck like a ball-and-joint doll. For a moment, she looked at Aaron again in the distance. All of a sudden, Aaron’s face was overlaid with Meloni’s and Kyrie couldn’t help but burst into tears.

“I’m sorry, Melonie……. I……, I’m stupid, so I thought I could keep it…….”

Kyrie slowly reached out to Melonie. She couldn’t touch her. The expression gradually disappeared from Nathaniel’s face as he looked at Kyrie’s arm floundering in the air. A huge fear began to appear gradually in his face, the inevitable end. Kyrie stopped talking and grabbed her head.

“I thought if I tried, I would become something……. Believing that everything will be fine, or a very small good faith, even if it is not vague……, I thought that would eventually give me strength….”

Soon, her face came up with a terrible hatred and resignation for herself.

“What the hell can you do with something like that…….”

Aaron said boldly,

That’s why I told you, noona. People just die. 

Kyrie turned to Aaron.

“I’m sorry. I should have died.”

Again.

“Sorry.”

Again.

“Sorry. It was my fault that I am alive.”

It’s not enough.

“I’m sorry… I wish I hadn’t been born…….”

Aaron didn’t say anymore, but Kyrie apologized to Aaron and Melonie in a quiet room.

“I’m sorry, Aaron. I’m sorry, Aaron. Sorry. Sorry, Melonie. I’m sorry. I’m sorry. I’m sorry. I’m sorry. I’m sorry. I’m sorry. I’m sorry. I’m sorry.”

Nathaniel watched her with a blank face.

What happened? Only such thoughts lingered in his head. He was sure everything was going well.

Naturally, he was able to get rid of meteors without any damage. But he didn’t. His promise was not to kill anyone, and magic was not something he casted.

Since he was not human, he did not know the human heart of watching people with familiar faces burn to death in front of them. He couldn’t have known that a human was so fragile that they couldn’t sleep at night just by watching a person die. Even now, Nathaniel could not fully understand Kyrie’s mind.

Nataniel belatedly recalled what Kyrie had done for the dead guards. Financial compensation and guarantee of food, clothing, and shelter, regular visits by doctors, support for group counseling, and mental treatment and nursing care. She carefully took care of everyone who passed by.

What did Kyrie get?

Looking back, he couldn’t think of what Kyrie did for herself. Kyrie in his head was always sitting at her office desk and working quietly.

“I will die. I will never be born again..….”

It was strange to see Kyrie shaking her head while holding her head. It wasn’t the Kyrie he knew. But it was the Kyrie he was missing.

The Kyrie, which was reflected in Nathaniel’s eyes, is like a small spring flower. A very small and good thing. Being so soft that he wanted to trample on it makes him want to crush her. But she didn’t give in and smiled. For the value that others laughed at her for being foolish, rushing to do something somehow. To sympathize with a person whom no one sympathized with.

“Because I was wrong, I started on a topic that was nothing….”

If not that much, who can change her like this? Who doesn’t love a person who throws their whole body for other people?

Now he knows how great and lovely she is, but she has now given up everything. When he generously gave his heart out one by one, she was already cutting out a bigger part than that.  Something hot rose from inside and blocked his throat.

He couldn’t even know what to say, stop, accept, or let go of Kyrie, who kept nodding and muttering.

He lived a very long time, and many of the people he loved became crazy. But this has never happened. It shouldn’t be like this. Even in front of that, Kyrie Buchanan, who was fiercely negotiating with her life, could not be like this. Kyrie Buchanan and no one else, should not be like this.

Nathaniel covered his eyes with shaking hands.

I didn’t expect this.

“I’m sorry that I’m alive….”

I didn’t want you to say that.