CH 137

I Know It

She regretted it later, but it was too late.  Air bubbles burst out of her mouth and water rushed into her mouth.

‘Breathe…..!’

That was the moment.

A blue one flashed in front of her, and a strong force grabbed Kyrie’s shoulders.

When she woke up, someone was already kissing her.  It was Nathaniel.  His breath ran through her lips. At the same time, her body began to tremble.

“Hmph…..!”

As she reflexively touched Nathaniel’s arm, her long fingers ran through her hair and pulled her back by the neck.

It was brief.

Nathaniel soon slipped away from Kyrie with a slight regret.  And in an instant, a space of ice was created in the depths of the sea.

“cough, cough……!”

Kyrie sat down on the floor and took a quick breath. Nathaniel watched her with thousands of thoughtful eyes. Unlike Kyrie, who looked like a drowning mouse, he never looked wet.

[……I thought that I had seen a fantasy for the first time in my life.]

After Nathaniel sighed softly, he wrapped the black cloak with his own hands on Kyrie’s back, who was coughing and drooping.

“cough, ha….”

At that moment, Kyrie raised her head and their gaze met from a short distance away.

[…….]

Kyrie felt the magical power in his hands. His blue eyes, as clear as a grain of glass, trembled anxiously for a brief moment.

[…..It’s Leschaux’s work.]

Nathaniel averted his gaze and let go of her hand.

Kyrie took a deep breath.  In an instant, her face turned cold.

“Is that all you have to say?”

Nathaniel stiffened.  Kyrie stared at him with a cold expression.  The person who was fond of hatred now had a face that seemed to have stopped his heart with one sharp gaze.

Nathaniel licked his lips several times before speaking in a terribly low voice.

[……I guess my best wasn’t enough for you.]

With Kyrie kneeling on one knee in front, Nathaniel brushed her gaze into the air.

[I just wanted you to be a little happy.]

“Did you think that I would be happy after killing you?”

[If I were there, you would have tried to handle me regardless of your will.]

“It would have been.  It’s something only I can do.”

[I wanted you to do what you wanted to do.]

“What did you think I wanted to do?”

Nathaniel lifted his gaze a little and looked at Kyrie. He was very reluctant to spit out words.

But when Kyrie didn’t back down, he whispered reluctantly.

[Well…..  Plant hydrangeas and poplars in the courtyard, stop by Elthus’ summer cottage together, go pheasant hunting together in the fall, and find someone to sit around the fireplace in winter to read poetry.]

On Nathaniel’s face as he spoke, different feeling was revealed in a very restrained form.

Nathaniel paused for a moment, then sighed softly.  A reluctant smile appeared on his lips.

[Do you want to show it?  So did you come all the way here?]

“…….”

[If that’s the case, I’m sure it’s beyond the hell I can imagine.]

“……What if that is really the case?”

Kyrie asked involuntarily.

Nathaniel looked at her softly as she looked at him, and whispered as if tossing to her.

[I just couldn’t stand it.]

Kyrie knew it because his lips were surprisingly truthful when he said that.  The emotion behind it is so great that it just doesn’t go unnoticed.

Kyrie let out her body’s strength and sighed involuntarily.  She was a little dubious until she came. She thought she might be pushing her own emotions. She also thought that she might be just waiting for him to die and looking for another person. It’s so uneasy with Nathaniel, the immortal being, so it was only natural that Nathaniel was anxious to see her.

[Kyrie?]

Immediately, Nathaniel called out her name as if nervously.

[Are you sick?]

Kyrie laughed silently at the careful concern she hadn’t heard in a long time, but it didn’t feel like a long time at all.  She lowered her head and opened her mouth.

“Nathaniel……”

[Yes.]

“You know what?  It was very difficult for me to meet you.”

Nathaniel paused.  He replied a little slowly.

[I know.]

She raised her head. In front of her was Nathaniel’s face.  Although it was clear that he was heartbroken, his gaze did not depart from her.

Up close, Kyrie watched as his blue eyes changed like rivers, like the sea, like the Milky Way in the night sky.  Kyrie smiled softly.

Also, I wanted this. There was nothing more beautiful than this.

The most valuable thing in the world.

All blues in the world, prepared only for her.

“……But thank you.”

Nathaniel looked like he had been hit.  Seeing him like that, Kyrie smiled again.

That day, just like the time she received the jacaranda flowers.

“Thank you. Thank you for valuing me, who left you behind.”

Nathaniel couldn’t understand Kyrie’s words for a moment.

It wasn’t an illusion.  Kyrie came all the way to the depths of the sea, and was saying thank you to him, even if he pierced her heart with the sword.

It felt like a flower storm had hit her. Even though it can’t be

Nathaniel managed to raise his voice.

[me……]

“I came here to swear, but that doesn’t change anything, right?”

[…….]

“After you fell asleep, most of the time I was alone. It’s only going to be brief compared to the years you’ve been through, but I’ve come to understand your position a little bit.”

A bitter smile appeared on Kyrie’s lips.  Her trembling eyes looked up at Nathaniel.

“I think I know now.”

It was a soft, gentle voice.

“You are lonely.”

She slowly reached out towards Nathaniel.  The tip of her finger lightly touched Nathaniel’s forehead. Nathaniel stiffened as if electrocuted.  It was the first time Kyrie had touched him in this way.

“You like me very much.”

With a playful whisper, slender fingers brushed his bangs and forehead.

The place she touched was hot.

Nathaniel closed his eyes for a moment and then opened his eyes.  That short time was unsettling. He wanted to see her so much that he thought it was just a fantasy.

But when he opened his eyes, Kyrie was still smiling bashfully in front of him.

“…..And maybe this is my projection of myself.”

It was like his heart stopped.

[Kyrie. That means….]

Nathaniel reached out to grab Kyrie’s hand.  But just before being caught, Kyrie took her hand away. She smiled brightly and moved her upper body forward.

“Do you know how to plant hydrangeas?”

[…….]

Kyrie tilted her head.

“You do not know?”

At her words, Nathaniel nodded his head with a slight haste look.

[I can learn it.]

“Do you like summer?”

[I think it will get better.]

“Do you know how to hunt pheasants?”

[That’s my specialty.]

“The poetry reciting……No need to ask.”

[Of course.]

Nathaniel answered almost insanely. He couldn’t be sane.  Kyrie’s purple eyes looking at him were straight and clear. Then she curved her eyes in a curve and smiled softly.

“Then, now only the emerald ship and the golden river remain.”

In an instant, Nathaniel’s head went into a vacuum.

His mind went blank. It was clear that God was playing with him. If not, how could such a person exist?

How.

How…..

He could only think of that.  It was almost like he was born to have his heart burst.  If not,

[Finally, I’m going crazy too.]

As soon as the white sword appeared in Nathaniel’s hand, Kyrie was serious.

“I’m sorry, but it’s not a dream, it’s not an illusion, it’s not a hallucination, it’s not magic.  I don’t know what you’re going to do, but I’m scared, so can you put it in?”

Saying that, the moment he met Kyrie, who looked at him with her kind and clear eyes, Nathaniel was all right now. And he realized that now was the only chance God had given him.

Words that had not been said before flowed out like a slippery slope.

[Sorry.]

A corner of Kyrie’s smile crumbled. Nathaniel tilted his face slightly and took Kyrie’s hand.

[Sorry for everything.]

His hand trembled again and again and he missed her hand. But again and again he took her hand. The corners of Kyrie’s lips trembled.

“Hey, what is it…?”

[I’m sorry.]

“It’s unfamiliar……”

[Sorry.]

As Nathaniel’s words continued, Kyrie rumbled as if something had broken.

[Sorry.]

“I didn’t want you to apologize.”

[I know. I’m sorry though.]

“It’s done.”

[Sorry.]

“……”

[I’m sorry.]

“If it’s a joke…..”

[I’m sorry for making you doubt that even these words are a joke.]

Her face gradually darkened. He looked up at Kyrie, who didn’t answer, and Nathaniel whispered low again.

[I’m sorry.]

Forgiveness or not, that didn’t matter anymore.  Nathaniel kissed Kyrie’s palm and apologized incessantly.

He wanted it to come through. The human language he knew was so insignificant that he could not even express the fragments of his feelings, but he thought it would be nice to pass it on.

In the end, his heart was always one.

I like you.

So I don’t know what to do.

A tear fell from Kyrie’s eyes.

“Ah…”

Kyrie was surprised to see her tears and took a deep breath. She took turns looking at Nathaniel and the spot where her tears fell.  Nathaniel reached out his hand and pulled Kyrie’s cheek.

[I shouldn’t have done that to you.]

His lips rested on Kyrie’s cheek.  Tears seeped through the open lips.

[I’ve never cherished anyone so much…..I made a mistake.]

Kyrie’s cheeks, which had reminded him of peach light, were instantly drenched with tears.  Nathaniel hugged Kyrie, who was crying silently, as he kissed her eyelids, on her nose, cheeks and forehead as if atonement.

[I just wanted you to laugh. Your smile……It seems like flowers are blooming.]

Kyrie’s shoulders shook greatly.  Her shrill sobs leaked out. Nathaniel gently wrapped Kyrie’s back, who was crying.  Kyrie did not reject him.  As her twig-like arms hesitantly wrapped around his back, Nathaniel involuntarily thanked God, heaven, and everything on earth.

“Everything….”

Kyrie gasped with a hoarse voice.  She was so lovely, it was unfair.

[I won’t.]

“Don’t do that again……”

[Yes.]

“How can a person be like that……like a persimmon……I, how much……!”

[I’m sorry.]

“You killed people in front of my eyes……”

[Sorry.]

“You made people talk about me……!”

[I’m sorry.]

Kyrie murmured like a child and wept.  Her fists pounded Nathaniel on the back several times in anger, but he liked it even more.

“I, I really, hate you…..”

[Don’t do it.]

“……”

[I’m kidding.]

For a long time, Kyrie spit out the wounds that hurted her before and after, without her context or logic. Some of the accusations were not at all his fault, and some were too old to hold accountable. Still, Nathaniel replied that he was sorry for all that. Until Kyrie stops her tears.

When her crying finally subsided, Nathaniel pulled her apart a little.

Kyrie glared at him fiercely with a face full of remorse.  However, his Kyrie, who can get up again no matter how much she fell, eventually showed a white smile.

“I won’t see you twice….”

It was a shy and lovely smile with a bunch of tiny star-like tears hanging from the tip of her eyelashes.

Slowly Nathaniel’s head tilted, and Kyrie’s eyes closed.

[Neither will I ever let you go twice.]

The two lips met.  No more conversation was needed.

***

When Kyrie returned with Nathaniel, she was startled. A huge number of troops were watching them nervously.

“……Ah.”

Kyrie shrugged as she recalled her words she had said before she went into the sea. She didn’t mean it that way though.

(T/N: they thought she commited s*icide

She heard a loud shout as if she had been waiting.

“Because I’m really stupid!”

In the distance, Rubinia, wearing the Empress’ crown, was raising her voice with magic, pointing at Kyrie.

“Oh, it’s really annoying, you!  I knew something else had happened!  After a few years, what is this?!  Is National defense a joke?!”

Still, Rubinia seemed to be half-smiling, seeing her after a long time.  Kyrie burst out laughing at her.

“I’m sorry, I’m going to apologize properly later, so please forgive me.”

After Kyrie had said that, she headed south with Nathaniel.  It was where her home was.  This was her first time visiting.  Kyrie, who went to the address she had been informed of beforehand, saw the mansion built on the cliff and burst into laughter.

“Twenty-two billion….”

It was a mansion with no doubt about the price.  As they got closer, the garden, which looked twice as large as the mansion, was revealed in detail.

Kyrie was a little dazed.

In the center, there was a huge poplar tree whose age was unpredictable. Around it, jacarandas with flowers and golden fruits were luxuriant, and hydrangeas were lush with leaves.

[I will learn how to plant hydrangeas next spring.]

Nathaniel whispered softly next to her. Kyrie let out a laugh.

“It’s clear who breathed into the landscaping.”

[Of course. It’s someone’s house. They paid a lot of attention, but I’m sad that I haven’t been here for a while.]

After a brief tour of the garden, the two headed for the mansion.

Kyrie entered the building with light steps first.  She looked at Nathaniel with a smile from the inside of the threshold.

Nathaniel’s expression darkened.

[My Miss Kyrie is a bit playful.]

“Can I invite you?”

Nathaniel raised an eyebrow slightly.

[Because I have to read poetry to someone, please.]

Kyrie giggled at his eloquent reply.

“No. I will not.”

She shrugged her shoulders and took one more step back.  She then smiled bashfully.

“Do you need an invitation?  I thought this was ‘our’ home.”

Even Nathaniel did not respond to those words for a while. She sometimes, no, she used to say pretty often he didn’t even think of.

Nathaniel looked at Kyrie once and the threshold on the floor once.  And I saw Kyrie again.  She was smiling.

She had no hesitation.

[If so.]

Nathaniel strode towards the door.

There was no scattering of his body as smoke.  Consciousness was intact. Nathaniel stood intact, one step inside the doorpost.  And, Kyrie, whose eyes were still red, was blinking her eyes towards him.

An indescribable emotion appeared on Nathaniel’s face.  He hesitated, then turned his head slightly and covered his face with his hand.  Kyrie playfully tilted her head and held out her hand.

“How do you feel?”

Then Nathaniel took her hand and smiled brightly.

[After all, you are the best.]

Kyrie also smiled.

“I know it too.”

***

[The End]

Jasmine : Omg I am still in denial that I really finished this novel, I really can’t believe…. But aside all the realisation….I am happy that I really completed my very first project, though the plot might not have went according to our wishes but I’m happy that Kyrie became immortal, tbh if she didn’t and Nathaniel became mortal…I would have flipped the table smh. But it’s a really good novel, I hope readers will go to the NU page and give few good comments about the novel and give good ratings ^^ please look forward to the side stories and special side stories (R19).