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Even after all that had happened, the noble Qingli was still able to cuddle tightly in her embrace. Lu Qingli showed her weakness silently, with a trace of helplessness and helplessness. The proud Peacock had actually turned into a weak little rabbit that needed someone to protect it at any time.

It was as if a thread was being pulled across his heart. As soon as he pulled, the pain quickly spread to his limbs like a weak electric current. Xi Muyao patted Qingli's back, pressing Qingli even closer to himself.

Being hugged so tightly by Xi Muyao, Lu Qingli was slightly unable to breathe, but she was actually unwilling to and she didn't dare to push Xi Muyao away. Xi Muyao's body was very warm. A warm feeling continuously came from Xi Muyao's body, and it passed from the two of them to Lu Qingli's skin that was tightly pressed to each other.

Lu Qingli's shoulder trembled slightly as a fragile look flashed across her eyes. Her hands involuntarily wrapped around Xi Muyao's shoulders.

"Mu Yao, right now, my heart is in chaos. I'm afraid that if I take one wrong step, it will bring trouble to dad and you. But I …" Actually, I didn't want to go on like this until now. "Nie Yan, do you understand …" Lu Qingli's finger lightly pushed away from Xi Muyao's shoulder, leaving his warm embrace.

Qingli slightly raised her chin, but did not look at Xi Muyao. She lowered his eyes, and her flickering gaze swept across the crowd that was not far away, and various kinds of shoes flashed past his eyes. Different shoes silently confide the taste and current situation of their master to the people who are interested in them. Clean or dusty, or high-end handmade leather or a hundred sets of canvas. The owners of different shoes have different lives.

Qingli really wanted to see what kind of person they were. There were so many passersby, so many kinds of lives, whether they were dissatisfied with their current situation like him, whether they wished for a different life.

Qingli's gaze gradually lost focus, and became filled with confusion and puzzlement.

"Don't want to go down?" Xi Muyao held Qingli's ice-cold hand, patiently waiting for his response.

After a moment, Lu Qingli shifted her gaze back to Xi Muyao and focused on him. She stared fixedly in Xi Muyao's eyes, her pink lips slightly parted as she slowly said, "Mu Yao, I don't know how to explain this to you clearly. Too many things have happened between us and we will never be able to return to the past. I can't pretend things are different with you. Even if I go back with you and get married as scheduled, and we have the name of husband and wife again, what about after the wedding? We have a future, and we have to be tied together. The heart has been separated, not in the same direction to choose the same direction, so the day and God away from what we have no meaning! You said you wouldn't let me feel wronged, wouldn't let me do something I don't like, but things aren't as simple as you and I imagined. I was uneasy and frightened, and the fear of the future often roused me from my dreams. There was a time when I was forcibly tied up without love, but once again, this time in front of me, I was still too scared to do anything about it. Mo Yao, I … I don't know how long I can stand this kind of day, can I be so numb to get rid of everything, forget how bad life between us has been, forget... The woman and the child that appeared between us, I … "

The past lapped at her like a wave.

Qingli thought back to the day before she and Xi Muyao married. At that time, Xi Muyao had held her shoulders and looked at Qingli seriously, telling him that his parents had abandoned him and asked her if she would leave him behind again.

Lu Qingli suddenly felt a little choked up. Her eyes were red and hot, but no matter what, she could not say the words "I can't do it" …

Xi Muyao listened quietly, his lips slightly parted, yet he was unable to say anything for a moment. If there was love, who could stand between them? During the period of time they had separated, Lin Yeyan was not the only one who appeared in their lives! When he thought to this point, he suddenly felt a trace of anger in his heart. He grabbed Qingli's shoulder with one hand, while holding Qingli's lower jaw with the other, and stared closely into Qingli's eyes, afraid that he would miss out on any of the expressions on Qingli's face: "Qingli, look carefully into my eyes. Tell me, in your heart, who is more important between Mu Wenshu and me?"

Hearing that, Lu Qingli frowned, she was clearly the one who had cheated, and there were still Little San outside … With a child, why would he ask her this? It was as if the one cheating was her, Lu Qingli, who destroyed the hand Xi Muyao had pinched under her lower jaw with slight force. "Why did you pull him in!? There's no need to drag someone who has nothing to do with you and me to make up an excuse! "

It didn't have anything to do with it! Xi Muyao's expression softened a bit as he let out a low laugh. Mu Wenshu was an unrelated person and had nothing to do with him, so Xi Muyao's calm voice carried a hint of unconcealable joy. Lu Qingli's anger, on the other hand, showed that she had an unrelated relationship with Mu Wenshu.

Xi Muyao moved closer to Qingli, and his equally hot breath gushed out onto Qingli's face. "Qingli, you are an intelligent woman, I have always liked your understanding and understanding, although I don't like your haughty and indifferent attitude towards me, I do not wish for you to continue to be so indecisive. Qingli, you should know what I want, and you can't continue to waver and waver."

Xi Muyao yelled out Lu Qingli's name beside Qingli's ear in a low voice. His voice was so loud that it seemed to be close to puffing out, filled with his own feelings, and filled with unwillingness …

The voices lingered beside her ears, disturbing Lu Qingli, causing her to become flustered. She took a glance at Xi Muyao, and immediately turned her gaze away, her heart heavy, as though she had placed a heavy stone on top of it. Her voice was choked with emotions, and she said: "I know, I know that I know what the situation is, and I also know that I should understand father's painstaking heart. I am his most obedient and most sensible daughter, not like Qingge, who can fight like a man, or else I won't be like Qinghuan, who can just follow Jian Yang and leave!

But no matter how obedient I am! No matter how sensible he was! I can't let go of the past as if nothing happened. It's impossible for me to have no grudges in my heart after all that has happened!

I can't forget and put down those things at once. We can't go back, because too many things have happened in this period that we can't forget, baby, Lin Yeyan, and so many other things.

When you asked me this question before at Lu Family, I said that I didn't understand it. But so many days have passed, and although I still haven't figured it out, right now, there's only one thing I know … Mu Yao, I can't forget about you and Lin Yeyan. I can't let this go. Because it was too much of a pain for me... I can't forgive you, but how do you expect me to accept you? "

Yes, Lu Qingli couldn't forgive Lin Yeyan, and she couldn't forgive herself either. Her own husband must be having an affair with someone else. This was the first time she found out about this fact. Her grief and indignation almost made her want to burn herself …

These few days, she kept thinking about the past. Sometimes, looking at the old man and Xi Muyao's happy expressions, she even thought, forget it, she would just agree to them. It was enough to let the old tutor be happy!

But she really couldn't tolerate this. Why did she keep sacrificing herself, ignoring her own feelings to make everyone satisfied!

She recalled a roommate of hers. She was clearly in love with her boyfriend, and he had even sworn to love her for his entire life, but in the end, they were forced to part because of their boyfriend's love affair. The roommate had to go to the hospital and have an abortion.

That man hurt Lu Qingli's roommate, but her roommate finally forgave him. It was obvious that the man had betrayed the girl, but the girl was trying to think of a way to redeem her soured feelings. A man didn't even love her, yet she held onto a heart so low that she could lower her head to please him …

Lu Qingli watched on helplessly as her roommate sunk into silence. She would always think, why did she have to be wronged for love's sake?

The experiences of his roommate made Lu Qingli completely understand. When you give yourself up wholeheartedly to a man he had admired for a long time, the man that you were willing to give up with all your heart and soul became stronger and stronger, yet you actually lost yourself in such trivial matters. When the successful man looked back at the woman whose family was ordinary and who had aged in years, she would often despise her and even betray the woman who was willing to give up her dreams to support him behind his back. His wife had lost her former splendor. Compared to the bright woman who now surrounded the man, she was like the clouds in the sky and mud. Naturally, her own woman was mud.

Women had given their all for him, and to him, women were no longer of new and useful value. He doesn't see the importance of women, the importance of you in his life. Maybe men don't think women matter at all! He could have chosen one of the women around him as his new wife!

Human nature was extremely detestable. It would often not cherish the things that it obtained. So, woman, if you are hurt by that person, you have to first think about if you paid too much of a price and spoiled the man. A woman had lowered her status and debased her feelings, so others would not cherish her. He didn't need to turn around to know that his silly woman would follow him.

If you want others to truly cherish you, you first have to cherish yourself. If even he did not love himself, how could he ask others to love him? Only those who were noble and noble would be valuable.

There is a man who, if he truly loves you, will never give up on you in cold blood; there is a man who, if he truly desires to woo you, will never have an affair with you; and there is a man who, if he truly wishes to marry you, will never make a promise without thinking it through.

In this world, there was no love that required you to give up your dignity to destroy yourself.

Rather than a humble love, it is better to choose to be single, so that you can love yourself, which is also a kind of happiness.

"Although we've already been married once before, I need to think carefully this time around. Before I marry you, I've thought for a long time …" Lu Qingli's voice became lower and lower, and finally became silent.

Xi Muyao leaned towards Lu Qingli and pricked up his ears to listen intently, the more he listened, the more lonely his expression became.

When he was chatting with Yun Hu, Lu Qingli had once asked her subconsciously, what kind of love was love? What kind of man was suitable to be a husband?

She still remembered that Yun Hu told her while she was staring at the snacks in the Starbucks glass cabinet:

"Ask me!" I think the best love doesn't need to be fierce, but it definitely makes you feel happy. Think about it, there is such a man, no matter what you do he can perfectly put forward a valid opinion, and also let you willingly believe in it. If you did something wrong and didn't scold her, the man would stand up and say to you in his gentlest voice, "No problem, I'll deal with it!"