There was an odd fragrance on his body. It was not the smell of perfume but the light fragrance of detergent.
The moment I pressed my lips against his, my mind went blank. All I knew was to cling onto his shoulders and deepen my kiss, taking in his warm breath with longing.
Initially, I had expected him to struggle and resist, then push me away violently to break out of this situation.
But he didn’t.
I saw his blank eyes, and the many complicated emotions that flashed across them. Then, he subconsciously closed his eyes, his shoulders trembling.
I grew even more nervous. My eyelashes fluttered, and the corners of my eyes stung as if tears were falling.
Perhaps because he felt my despair, he couldn’t help but stretch out his arms and try to embrace me.
I craved him.
What about him? Did he desire me as much?
But the next moment, he froze violently and pushed me away with all his strength. Caught off-guard, I fell sideways onto the piano.
My elbow hit the black and white piano keys, producing an extremely discordant chord that was ear-piercing and heavy.
I looked up to see him suddenly turn his back on me. His face was pale in the moonlight, and he felt absurd and shaken.
I’d never seen him this way. Feeling helpless and embarrassed, I stood up and grimaced. With trembling lips, I said, “Brother… you… why did you push me away?”
He wiped his lips absentmindedly. There was still some residual warmth from my initial kiss on it.
Dongyu abruptly turned around and questioned me, “Ridiculous! Yin Xiachun, do you know what you’re doing?!”
“How is this ridiculous? Tell me, why is it ridiculous?”
I felt a lump in my throat as I stood up from the piano stool and walked behind him. I reached out and carefully tugged at the corner of his shirt, just like how I did whenever I did something wrong as a child, guiltily asking for his forgiveness.
“Brother, can’t I kiss you?”
“You can’t!”
Dongyu lost control of himself and shook off my hand. He walked to the window and said in a low voice, “And I can’t as well…”
“Why not!?”
I started crying and said aggrievedly, “I like you. You like me. Isn’t that enough?!”
The last words came out in a hoarse whisper, my voice was almost broken.
He suddenly turned around and walked up to me. He gripped my shoulders tightly. His eyes were bloodshot and he looked like he was going crazy. “You’re my sister and I’m your brother. Do you really not understand?! It’s impossible between us! Do you really not understand?”
“Why?”
I didn’t understand and persisted, “I can’t do without you.”
“The same blood flows in our bodies. We are brother and sister. If we are really together, it is lust! Do you understand?”
He kept his eyes on me as if to wake me.
Suddenly I started to laugh, my heart shattered. Suddenly I reached out and grabbed his wrist, placing mine on his. “Is that the reason?” I questioned him.
“…”
I stared at him with tears in my eyes and almost pleaded, “If that’s the reason, then I’ll cut it open with a knife and cleanse the blood in my body. Is that enough…?”
“Shut up!”
Dongyu was shocked and put his hand over my lips tightly. “Are you threatening me?”
I saw the heartache on his face that he couldn’t hide, and I collapsed. I threw myself into his arms and cried helplessly.
I would never dare threaten him.
Those were merely my truest thought.