Chapter 177 - Pain

Outside the hotel.

Passing Matt to Bella, Chris said," We are so sorry for disturbing you this late." 

Holding Matt with great difficulty, Bella said," It's fine."

" I would've dropped him home but-" Kevin said.

Bella smiled and said," Don't worry about him, I'll drop him home."

" Should I help-"

" No it's fine, you should take Martha home first." Bella said.

After they left, Bella started walking towards her car with great difficulty. Matt was way too heavy than she had thought. 

With great difficulty, she finally managed to place him inside her car.

After catching some breath, Bella hopped inside her car and drove towards Matt's apartment.

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Matt's apartment.

Since Matt stayed all by himself, Bella couldn't call anyone to take him up. 

Standing outside his door, Bella started looking for the apartment keys inside his pockets. 

Just then Matt wrapped his arms around her waist and buried his face on her neck.

Bella stopped her movements when she felt his hot breath on her skin.

She then took a deep breath and composed herself before unlocking the door and belong Matt inside.

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Inside.

After placing the keys on the side table, Bella placed him on the couch and squatted down to remove his shoes for him.

She then slowly helped him remove his coat and said," Sir, wake up." Before patting his cheeks.

Bella then sighed and pulled Matt up with great difficulty.

Slowly walking towards his bedroom, Bella said," You don't eat much and you often skip meals but you are quite heavy."

Matt shook his head and said," I am not heavy, you are super thin." 

Bella sighed and said," Walk straight, I cannot handle all your weight."

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Inside the bedroom.

As soon as they entered the room, Matt tightened his grip around Bella's waist and pressed their foreheads together.

Bella clutched onto his shirt and closed her eyes, ready to hear the most painful words which made her heart break into a million pieces. 

Everytime when Matt used to get super drunk and Bella would help him inside his apartment, he would kiss her forehead and call her ' Ella' before telling her how much he still loved her. 

Bella had seen Matt in an official party and was mesmerised by his charm and presence. When she further investigated about Matt, she came to know about his first life Ella who had been brutally murdered.

Determined to make Matt fall for her, Bella decided to leave everything and work as his assistant. 

Though Bella's father was against it, he still gave in to his only beloved daughters stubbornness.

Initially Bella thought that it would be easy to make Matt fall for her but as the days passed by, she realised how pure and deep Matt's love for his first love Ella was. 

Though Bella knew that the chances of Matt and her getting together was super slim, she couldn't help but admire him more. How could a person love someone to such an extent? 

Now, it had been five years since she was by his side and Bella knew that she had no chance with him at all but she couldn't bear to part with him. During this five years, though Matt never cared about her or her evident feelings for him, her feelings for him had deepened so much that she would die than to leave his side. 

Tears started rolling down her eyes when Matt kissed her forehead. 

When Matt was about to say something, Belle covered his mouth with her hand and said," Please don't say it. I know you still love her and you can never forget her no matter what but please don't say it." 

Trying to steady himself, Matt slowly removed her hand from and asked," When you know it, why are you still determined to stay with me? Why are you wasting your youth on someone who is still mourning over his long dead lover? Why are you being stubborn? Why don't you just walk out and achieve your dreams?"

Lifting her head up, Bella caressed his face and said," Because I love you and I know you don't but I am okay with it." 

" When you know that I will never requite your love then why are still here?" Matt asked before pushing her away. 

Not ready for the sudden push, Bella's back collapsed against the dressing table making her wince in pain. 

Balancing himself, Matt made his way towards her and pulled her into his embrace and said," The only thing that you'll get if you love me is hurt. You'll end up hurting yourself several times but you'll get nothing in return."

Bella's back was still hurting but the pain that she was feeling in her heart was much more painful in comparison to any kind of physical pain. She felt shattered and helpless at the same time. 

With her tears endlessly flowing down her cheeks, Bella hugged him as tight as possible. 

She knew that he was saying all of this because he was drunk and he would forget about this in the morning but she wouldn't. 

Just then, Matt pulled away and lifted her chin up.

Wiping her tears away with his other hand, Matt kissed both her eyes before clashing their lips together.

Bella closed her eyes when she felt his soft lips.

Wrapping his arms around her waist, Matt deepened the kiss before intertwining their tongues together.

Bella wrapped her arms around his neck and responded back with the same intensity and desire. 

When his alcohol fused tongue met hers, Bella felt goosebumps all over her body. Her legs were turning weak and her body started trembling.

In one swift motion, Matt lifted her up and carried her towards the bed without breaking the kiss.

Pinning her down, he let her lips go and attacked her slender neck and shoulder. 

Bella knew where this was heading to and she also knew that Matt wasn't in his complete senses at the moment but she didn't intend to stop him.

One moment together with the man she loved for so many years was enough for Bella to live for. 

She knew they had no future together but she still wanted him to be her first in everything. She wanted him to be one with her at least once before he decides to get rid of her. 

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