Chapter 179 - Overestimated my love

After Matt left, Bella closed her eyes to control her overwhelming emotions. She had no expectations from Matt even after last night but seeing him leave like that made her heart ache.

…..

Outside the apartment.

Leaning against the door, Matt closed his eyes.

This was not what he wanted to say. He wanted to meet her because he was feeling guilty and he wanted to apologise but he fucked up everything. 

What happened last night was surely not a mistake for him. Though Matt knew that it shouldn't have happened but he wasn't regretting it. Yes, he was feeling guilty but it was a different kind of guilt.

After staying there for quite some time, Matt left. 

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Davies Enterprise.

Next day when Matt arrived in his office, he had made up his mind to talk to Bella about last night in detail.

Just then his office door opened.

Matt got up and said," I want to-" but he stopped when he saw someone else.

Lisa lowered her head and said," Boss, Bella is not well so I am her replacement for today."

Matt frowned and asked," What happened to her?"

" She was admitted to the hospital yesterday and-"

" Hospital? Why?" Matt asked anxiously.

" Her father had called me and told me that she is in the hospital but will be discharged today." Lisa said.

" Oh I see." Matt said.

" Later Bella called me and said that she will be coming to the office to meet you in the afternoon." Lisa said.

" Hmm okay, get back to work." Matt said.

Lisa nodded her head and left.

With a very gloomy expression, Matt continued doing her work. Not seeing Bella around him had already started bothering him. 

For five years, Bella had not taken a single leave when Matt was around. She had been by his side every time. 

….

As Lisa was narrating his schedule for the evening, Matt was thinking about what had happened that night. No matter how much he tried, he couldn't take it out of his system.

Just the Bella entered the room and said," Good afternoon sir."

Coming out of his daze, Matt quickly got up and said," You are here? How are you feeling now?"

Turning towards Lisa, Matt said," You can leave."

Lisa nodded her head and left.

When Matt noticed a bag in Bella's hand, he asked," What is that?"

Placing the bag on Matt's desk, Bella said," These are the company files. If you don't want to go through them then I can pass it on to Lisa." 

Matt frowned and asked," What do you mean by pass it on?"

Bella then took out a bunch of keys from her bag and said," These are your office keys and locker keys."

" Will you tell me what is going on?" Matt asked.

Bella then took out a while envelope from her bag and said," And this is my resignation."

When Matt did not say anything, Bella said," This resignation is not because of what happened that night. I have my personal reasons for this."

" What personal reasons?" Matt asked.

" My dad wants me to get married to his friend's son. He has already made arrangements so I have to go back home to make preparations for my wedding. I cannot work after getting married because I have to settle down in the States with my future husband for three years. I am sorry for not giving a notice beforehand. You don't have to pay me this months salary too." Bella said.

" Do you know that man?" Matt asked.

" I met him once during-"

" Once? You met him once and you are marrying him? How can you blindly marry anyone?" Matt asked.

Bella smiled and said," It doesn't really matter to me."

" You don't even love him Bella. How can you marry someone whom you do not love?" Matt asked.

" It was lovely working with you sir and I hope and believe that you'll achieve everything you want in life. I'll take my leave now." Bella said before turning around.

" Think about it once more." Matt said.

Turning around, Bella smiled and said," I have made up my mind." 

Pausing for a while, Bella said," You were right Matt, I shouldn't waste my youth loving someone who will never requite my love. But I will never regret the five years that I gave you. I have learnt a lot from you and I will never forget them. Thank you for making me realise how beautiful love is. I thought that I could stand by this one sided love throughout my life but I was wrong, I cannot. I think I overestimated my love for you."

" Be-"

Cutting him off, Bella said," I don't blame you for anything. It was me who decided to follow you and stay by your side even after knowing that you would never feel the way that I feel for you. The love that you have for Ella is remarkable and I respect the strong feelings that you still have for her. God has given me everything I had wanted but sometimes I really wish-" 

Looking at Matt with teary eyes, Bella smiled and said," Sometimes I wish I was Ella." before walking out of the office leaving Matt behind.

After Bella left, Matt wanted to chase her and ask her not to leave but he couldn't. Something inside him was stopping him from doing that. 

Having someone beside you for five continuous years loving you and caring for you, why wouldn't anyone feel something for such a lovely person beside them? And Matt was no different.

Matt knew that he liked Bella but he also knew that he still loved Ella so he never paid attention to the small liking that he had for Bella.

But now when he saw her walking out of his office, why was he feeling lonely? Why was he feeling a strange kind of pain in his heart which was similar to the one that he had felt when he lost Ella? Why was he feeling so lost? If he never loved Bella, why was his heart reluctant to let her go? 

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