1.50 In Which the Dark Lord is Just Getting Started
It was easily my best landing so far, which wasnt much to brag about considering how many shingles Id crashed into and through in the last few minutes. Thanks to the Surestep Boots I hit the ground in a perfect roll and came up on my feet, neat as a professional stunt actor. All the impacts and near-misses recently had helped; after taking enough fatal injuries to fell a platoon this night alone I was pretty sanguine about stepping off a roof into a two-story drop to hard pavement. The ongoing adrenaline high didnt hurt, either.
I landed in what was clearly the bedraggled end of a battle. The good news was that I could see at a glance wed won. The bad was Looking around, I found myself questioning whether anybody ever won a battle. Bodies lay everywhere; blood splattered the street and the walls, the stench of it hung in the air, along with the fouler smell of excrementevidence of human intestines having been slashed open.
For a span of three seconds, I stood there, paralyzed by the horror of the spectacle, and my own sudden feeling of helpless uncertainty what I could do. The last of the armed men I could see were in the process of slipping away into various alleys. A vengeful corner of my mind wanted to shoot them in the back, war crimes be damned, but I didnt conjure a single Slimeshot.
Then Aster appeared from the crowd of bloodied women surrounding the space in front of the Alley Cat, her oversized sword held at her side instead of braced across her shoulder like she usually kept it. No doubt because its blade was dripping with blood. I could see that most of the nearest corpses were her work, to judge by the huge wounds marring them.
Apparently bisecting people like Id seen her do that one time required some fairly specific circumstances to align, but even so, that thing could take off heads with trivial ease, and even when it didnt the damage it caused was catastrophic. I could see, now, how this situation had been the opposite of Asters clumsy duel with Ariders bodyguard back when wed first come to town: Cat Alley made a space of the perfect size, giving her exactly the room needed to swing the greatsword in wide arcs while funneling her opponents into inescapable rows. They mustve gone down like she was scything wheat.
Her appearance, and the small but visible sigh of relief she let out at the sight of me, made my brain snap back into focus. People were hurt, all around me. I knew what to do about that, it was my whole shtick.
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Pink light burst around a woman leaning weakly against a wall, clutching a bloody patch on her side. There were more all around; I held the spell in the forefront of my brain, casting as rapidly as I could focus my eyes on anybody.
Heal, Heal, Heal, Heal Heal Heal Heal HealHealHealHealHealHealHeal
My god, they were everywhere. I started walking forward to reach more, my pace rapidly increasing till I was at a near run, pausing only to check down alleys with a quick Light Beam and occasionally finding people in need.
Increasingly frantic, I didnt discriminate, trying to get everyone. Some of Lady Grays fallen forces got a free healing and I didnt have time to begrudge them. Sometimes I would miss a beat when I tried to cast Heal on an unmoving woman but the spell didnt react. You cant Heal the dead. Each time I pressed on. I couldnt stop to deal with that, not when my help was needed. Once I let myself really feel that guilt there was no telling how long itd be before I was any use to anyone again.
If youre healed up and able to move, we need help! Aster called aloud as she paced along at my side, back in bodyguard mode now that I had switched from offensive to healing magic and was fully occupied. Bodyguard, with a hint of administrator. Check inside buildings and down alleys, look behind the brothels and dont forget the canals! Find the wounded who arent out on the street! If they can be moved, bring them out here; if not, yell until we get to you. The Healer is working as fast as he can!
It wasnt as bad as it could have been. As it should have been. These women had gone up against roughly their number in hardened thugs, unarmored and wielding nothing but improvised weapons and curses. I didnt see a single one uninjured, though theyd done surprisingly well, to judge by how many only had relatively minor wounds.
As I rushed from one end of the street to the other, the women organized around me, mostly centering on Gannit and some of the less successful madams and veteran prostitutes who had some experience in herding their comrades into line. By the time Aster and I had made one breakneck triage circuit, more victims had been brought forward from the systematic search of the brothels. Only some of the fighting had spilled indoors, but there it had been bloodiest, usually amounting to one side cornering one or a few members of the other. The second pass was slower, though I kept my feet moving as rapidly as they could. We had to divert into the brothels at which the search parties flagged me down, dashing to the rescue of women too badly mangled to make it outside. Several times Aster slipped on blood, trying to keep up with me, but my artifact boots kept me going.
I saw some truly horrible things in there. The really sick part, though, was that I didnt see anything worse than Id encountered as a result of Cat Alleys business as usual. Justa lot of it, at once.
Maybe that was why these women were able to stay active and quickly organize themselves; as far as I could tell, nobody was as close as I felt to breaking from the sheer stress of it. Seeing that, I pushed myself to keep going. If they could tough it out, so could I.
Our final route was the slowest, due to involving a lot of improvised surgery. A number of the women I had hastily Healed now had crossbow bolts, knives, and bits of glass sealed in their skin; those had to be cut out and Healed again. I was amazed at how little complaining resulted from this. Some had to bite down on strips of leather or wads of cloth, as they were carefully cut into, but nobody even blamed me. They were accustomed to pain around here.
During this last, ugliest phase, Madyn joined my side as designated surgeon. For as squeamish as shed been back at the Jugs about killing that guy, she sure didnt shy away from blood or taking a blade to flesh. Well, good on her. At this point I could only envy someone who could still hold onto principles like that. A rotating circle of girls brought her water and pungent alcohol to repeatedly clean the kitchen knife she was using to cut debris out of victims skin. Given that Heal would annihilate any infection as easily as it did an axe wound, that may not have been strictly necessary, but I was sufficiently impressed that these medieval peasants understood the importance of sterilization that I didnt say anything to dissuade them.
When I finished, it was sudden. I hadnt been looking ahead or trying to guess how close we were to the end. I just Healed the fresh wound Madyn had cut in a womans arm to extract a crossbow bolt, looked for the next victim, andthere wasnt one.
Standing there, looking around to verify this, I found my view of the street wavering. What wasoh, I was actually swaying on my feet. That was odd. Oh, well, the boots would
Okay, now its your turn, Gannit ordered, taking my other arm. Aster had grabbed the left one, I blearily realized. She was probably the reason I hadnt fallen down. Back to the Jugs, we gotta get some sustenance into you.
Im
Boy, you know whats nice about you being able to heal literally anything? the old madame said lightly as she led me away. If you try to stand there and tell me youre fine, I get to smack you as hard as yo deserve for once. Its damn well refreshing, most men are such delicate creatures. Now come on, youve done your job and several other peoples tonight. Ahp! Shut it, Im in no mood for backtalk. Left foot, right foot, there we go.
Turned out I didnt care for what they called blood tea. Whatever it was made from made it a deep crimson in color, with little shifting swirls of black particulate matter on top; fortunately it was actually tea, the liquid not nearly as thick as blood, otherwise I wouldnt have been able to get it down after as much of the real thing as Id seen tonight. Also, it had a deep bitter taste, which was compensated for by more whatever the Fflyr put in their tea to make it spicy and sweet. If I ever needed my sinuses cleared out in a hurry (and for some reason couldnt cast Heal) I now knew how to get that done.
But whatever else it was, blood tea seemed to have at least as much caffeine as the same volume of coffee. After two cups, a mug of water and some crawn stew, I was improved from being as exhausted as I had ever been in my life (and dreading the hike back to North Watch) to feelingwell, functional.
Gannit set me up in her common room, which seemed to be the new de facto administrative center of the whores revolution. I was tucked away in a corner table being hovered protectively over by Aster, Sakin, Donon, Kastrin and Adelly. Gilder was holding court in another, brashly flirting with several prostitutes who had clearly chosen to find him amusing rather than offensive. I made a mental note to have a talk with him about how to treat women, and then a second one to first have a talk with Minifrit about that because what the fuck did I know? Far from being proud that I wasnt as sexist as a bunch of the literal rapists Id been dealing with recently, I was left with a lot of uncomfortable realizations about how Id acted toward my girlfriends and other women Id known back in Japan.
But that was an issue for another day.
Gannit was pooling together resources from the nearby brothels to make sure everybody got fed and hydrated, while the remaining whores and madams got people organized. For what purpose I didnt yet know; I was busy surviving my brush with exhaustion and an adrenaline crash, and was doing well to have gotten a meal and some tea into me without passing out or sobbing. Adrenaline, it turns out, is a hell of a drug, and the withdrawals a bitch.
I did note from conversations that happened near me that apparently there were few madams left on Cat Alley, just Gannit and a handful from the poorer brothels near the ends of the street. As it turned out, most of those who profited from the status quo had resisted any change to it, and been turned on by their own workers when rebel furor swept Yrshith Street. A few of the madams whod tried to throw in with Lady Gray had actually been lynched and dumped in the canals, after which the others from the richer brothels here in the center had fled or been chased out.
Just as I pushed away my empty bowl, Gannit stopped on her way by my table, giving me a critical look over. Nodding to herself in satisfaction that I was apparently replenished enough to be given shit, she prodded me aggressively with a ladle.
You lied to me, boy.
Did not. I was still tired and somewhat out of it, but that much I was sure of. I had been very careful to dissemble and deflect every time I was here, never saying anything to anyone that could be found untrue.
Whaddaya think? Gannit asked, coming over again. Now, I saw, she had a leather satchel slung over her bony shoulder. Everybodys gettin packed and organized. Your boy here let slip that youve got a defensible base, and after tonights work it aint like we can all stay in Gwyllthean. Gray aint dead, and shes as pissed as anyone has ever been. Shell go right to work picking off whoever she can get her little claws on. Not everybodys coming, Healer, but Ill eat my own ass if you got less than fifty women out there ready to march.
I took a deep breath and blew it out slowly. All right. Then Id better not keep them waiting any longer.
She wasnt kidding. They were not only ready, but waiting; the last occupants of the Jostled Jugs common room trickled out while I gathered myself, and when I stepped onto the street with Aster and the others behind me, it was to find a crowd already formed. Theyd made a semicircle around the front of the Jugs, most carrying bundles and many still holding their cobbled-together weapons. No one was still actively hurt anymore, but the nights brutal work still showed in torn and bloodstained clothing.
Gilder stood grinning hugely in the front row, both arms raised to wrap around the waists of the two amused-looking prostitutes bracketing him, one of whom I noted had a grip on his collar. I was gonna have to do something with that boy.
Id kept my hood down, and now turned my head slowly, taking in as many faces as I could. I didnt know everybodys name after just two months of weekly visits, but I recognized all the women I could see.
I had recognized those who had died, too.
Kadret, I said, stepping off the Jugss stoop and nodding to her. You and your friends joined me out of principle and did good work under pressure. I will remember that. In fact, going forward, I may find myself relying on youbecause I know, now, that you ladies have a limited tolerance for bullshit. That is immensely valuable to me. I am just beginning to learn how easily violence and power can lead to a self-destructive spiral, and I need people around me wholl say so when things go too far. I want you to always feel free to speak up if you see a need. If you have concerns, over anything, Ill hear them out.
Kadret was smiling by the end of that little speech, as were four of her five cohorts, none of whose names Id learned yet. The fifth had folded her arms and was regarding me with a pensive expression, but at last she didnt look openly skeptical.
Glad to hear that, Lord Seiji, said Kadret, nodding. We wont let you down.
I believe you wont. Now, Craed. I turned to him; he immediately stepped forward out of the crowd, followed by his two friends. I really needed to start learning names, especially of this group. You lads joined up in the middle of a fight out of simple opportunism. Im going to have to remember that, too. Youve done right by me and mine, and helped turn the tide, and I honor good work.
Craed nodded, the ghost of a smile flitting across his lips. But?
But things arent always going to go my way, I said, holding his gaze. Eventually, a time will come when Im in the position Lady Gray was: against the ropes, beset by an enemy I cant easily defeat. I dont know when that time will comeit likely wont be for yearsbut its one of the inevitabilities of life. Theres always a bigger fish. However long it takes, thats how long you boys have got to make yourselves absolutely indispensable.
Belatedly, I remembered they didnt know what fish were. Nobody commented, though; apparently my meaning was clear.
We can do that, Lord Seiji, Craed said with utter self-confidence, nodding again. Especially with the kind of opportunities a boss like you creates. Youll be impressed, I guarantee it.
I hope so. My previous warning to Sakin applied; I needed morale, and that required me to cultivate a sense of fairness. I couldnt have anybody taken for quiet walks in the forest. At least, not at this juncture. It seemed likely to me that Craed and his buddies were going to be trouble, though. Id have to talk with Sakin about arranging an opportunity for them to betray me. Them and maybe Jakkin, if he wasnt too wishy-washy.
God, this place had done a number on me. And I was only getting started.
I drew in a slow breath and let it out before continuing in a carrying tone, now constantly moving my eyes to keep watch over the whole group.
If theres one thing I know about life, on this world or any other, its that theres always another bastard. You deal with a crook, and then theres a corrupt guard. And behind him a merchant, a priesta lord. A king, an emperor, even a goddess. It just never stops. From the alleys and brothels to the halls of heaven itself, its bastards all the way down. Well, look who Im telling.
That got me a stir of grim chuckles from the crowd. Folding my hands behind me, I found myself beginning to pace up and down in front of the Jugs.
This is where Id like to promise you all something better. And, dont mistake me, I intend to do the best I can to help whoever I can. All of you know what I can do. I will heal whoever I can reach, and protect whoever my power can extend to cover. I hesitated, drew in another breath and let it out. But youve all seen, tonight, that there are limits to my power as there are to anyone elses. I cant be everywhere, or do everything. Sometimes, the bastards win. Thatwill never change. I am not here to save the world. I dont really think thats how worlds work. As long as there are people on it, no matter what we do, eventually things will crumble and go to shit. As long as there are goddesses looming over us allwell, theres no telling what we might suffer just because one of them has a whim.
I paused, both in speaking and pacing, feeling my hands clench involuntarily into fists at my sides.
Im fucking sick of it.
This got me a lot of nods and some angry mutters of agreement.
Thats not an excuse not to try! Becausehell, what else are we gonna do? Just lie down and take it? I spread my arms in a wide shrug. I wont promise you safety, or justice, or certainty of anything. In the end, we all come up against something we cant defeat. Everybodys blood spills just the same. The bastards stay in power because they keep us all too afraid and desperate to take a risk of reaching for something betterbut you see, thats their mistake. They take too much. They cant help themselvesits a sick compulsion, for people who have power over others. The bastards always want more, and more, until finally theyve driven us to a point where we have nothing left to lose. Not even our own lives, not when the only certainty is a cruel death at the end of all this.
Im not going to save the world, no. Im going to do what I can, to heal and to help and to protect whoever I can along the way. But that is not the point. I will assure you of my best efforts and intentions, but you all know what those amount to in the end. I will promise you only one thing: vengeance. Not equity, not justice, not the victory of good in the endbecause what is good without evil, and what is evil but a word the powerful use to describe whatever threatens them?
I pointed up and behind me, where the outward-arching walls of Gwyllthean loomed over us all in the darkness, the eternal and implacable fact of life for everyone scraping out an existence in the Gutters.
If you want to run away and hide, know that I have nothing bad to say about that decision. Hell, Ill respect your common sense. But if youre as sick and fucking tired as I am of all this bullshit, if you just dont have the strength for more common sense and patience while youre getting pissed on by smirking morons who dedicate their whole lives to pretending theyre better than us, then you come with me. Were not going to save the world, oh no. Were going to go find the bastards who broke it, and fuck em up.
The roar of approval that erupted was a physical thing, very nearly pushing me back. It didnt, though, and I held my arms wide, letting their rage wash over me, nourishing and stoking my own back to life. I was only the catalyst; the rage was there, the result of everything wrong with this horrible, stupid world, just waiting for someone to come along and forge it into a weapon.
Id done that, and now I had to wield it, because tonights events had proved that what Id unleashed couldnt be contained. If I didnt take the lead, the rage animating these people would find another outletand I had much better plans for them than to let their lives be squandered on the spears of a few crooked soldiers in this miserable backwater town.
This scream of primal rage was the sound of changethe promise of a reckoning that would roar across this island and every other. It was the sound of the Dark Lord rising.
I know youre watching, Virya, I whispered to the sky, inaudible beneath the still-swelling cheer of victory and fury that rose throughout Cat Alley. Enjoying the show, right? Laugh while you can. Youre on my list.
End of Book 1