123. To love again

123. To love again

However, things didn’t go as they should have.

“That is disgusting.”

Aurora felt confused, she felt dizzy and tired. Her mind had come to a halt as if it had crashed against a concrete wall. No matter how much she tried her brain couldn’t seem to comprehend what had happened. Worst of all was how her heart hurt. It was as if someone was squeezing it with all their might. It felt as if her heart would stop beating at any moment.

“I don’t understand.” That's all Aurora could say as she tried to keep herself standing. her legs felt like jelly, her muscles like lead. She simply couldn’t understand what was going on.

“What can’t you understand? You disgust me! To think I thought of you as a friend. I feel like puking now.” Hearing that what little strength Aurora had left simply banished. Her legs gave under her as she fell to the floor.

“Tch, no wonder you were all alone back then. To think you were a lesbo. To think I had been mingling with a sinner for the last two years!” As Susan continued to speak Aurora felt her life crumbling in front of her.

“I love you.” These three words, spoken by two girls she had known for far longer than she knew Susan for. Nozomi and Hinata, these two girls had somehow reached her broken heart even past her dead emotions. Even though the pain of Susan’s awful words continued to haunt her, Hinata and Nozomi’s words kept soothing the pain away.

“I want to love them.” That is all she could think at the moment. She truly wanted to love them, she wanted to be able to love again. That is why she looked at the corps in front of her full of determination.

“I will love again.” Saying this she stepped forwards and hugged the corpse. As she did it began to regain life. The pale skin regains its color, the hair its luster and the eyes their meaning.

“I’m glad.” That’s all the now healed emotion said as it banished into motes of light.

That is when, like a tsunami, all of Tomoka’s repressed feelings came surging. All the pain, all the love, everything came crashing onto her, It was too much. Before she lost consciousness again Tomoka glanced at the other corpses. She promised herself that she would come back and fix all the damage she had done to herself.

“For them, all this pain is worth it.” That was all she could murmure before consciousness escaped her. NewW novels updates at novelhall.com