Chapter 72 - The Emperor and The Protector (2)

"What do you want me to do?" Emperor Xu Fengxin asked. He had this feeling that Su Wenshin was asking him to do something. He wouldn't have come here just to tell him this.

"I want you to die." Su Wenshin looked straight into the Emperor's eyes.

Emperor Xu Fengxin's chest became tighter. Ever since his Empress died, his chest would feel tighter sometimes. Especially when he gets agitated or furious. It would also become harder for him to breathe. Something that would make his Imperial Physicians extremely worried.

"Why?" he asked.

"Only then could I sent you back to her." Su Wenshin replied.

This time, Emperor Xu Fengxin became shocked again. Return back to time? Didn't he just wished for it a minute or so ago?!

"When was it?" Emperor Xu Fengxin couldn't help but be excited. He would throw everything just to have a second time with her.

"24th year of Ming's reign is when she had returned. Just months before your wedding. But I can't send you at that time. Only when one is closed to death shall I be able to take advantage of sending you."

"Close to death?" Emperor Xu Fengxin instantly tried to rewind his memories. The closest time he had a near-death experience would've been a few months after their marriage.

"That would be in Sukkang Mountain when I was sent to scout the Northern Border. 3 or 4 months after our marriage." Then I met concubine Qu Mingming. His fists clenched tighter at the thought.

"Then I will see you there when the time comes. Prepare the arrangements of your death. That's if, you want to see her again." Su Wenshin turned around. He had said his piece and no longer wish to stay here.

"Wait! Didn't you say that I don't have to be the one? And that I don't qualify to have her? Then why are you willing to send me back? Why can't it be you?" Emperor Xu Fengxin couldn't help but ask.

Su Wenshin's fist tightens underneath his wide sleeves. It had been a month since he had seen the changes in the stars. It took him a while to finally decided to tell Emperor Xu. Although he thought that Emperor Xu was not worthy of Empress Yu Ronglou, only Emperor Fengxin would be able to come back. He wasn't able to send himself back. It was against the rulings of heaven. Even sending Emperor Xu Fengxin would be but he had to take a chance. Su Wenshin didn't want to let Yu Ronglou suffer.

He didn't actually say everything to Emperor Xu. He still held vital information, something that could detrimental to everything. That is, he in his past had also become aware of the situation. Also, his feelings had started to change already. In this lifetime, he had learned of his feelings for Yu Ronglou at a much later date. In that new time period, his feelings for her had rooted way too early.

Back then, he was too naive. Would he back then, try to gain her affections instead? Especially that he knew himself that Xu Fengxin doesn't have to be the one ending up with her?

Instead of turning back, he only stopped his tracks and said. "You still aren't worthy. But the hands of the Zhenglin Continent resided on you once you became the Emperor. It became your responsibility to make sure that the continent stays safe. I will send you back. This time, don't be an idiot." After that, he left.

Emperor Xu Fengxin couldn't keep his calm. He was given the chance to see her again. She also held the memories of them both together. He didn't know how to approach her back then, much less now. He became restless and agitated. He wants to go, he wants to see her again.

"Lulu..." He then stared at the portrait on his desk. He had drawn this one when she was 25 years old. 5 years before her death. At that time, His feelings for her were so strong. He was 20 years old when he finally realized that he loved her. But because of his young mind, he had been schemed. Schemed until her death. The Protector was right, he was an idiot. He believed the other people's words than hers.

"Lulu... wait for me. I'll come back to you and fix everything. Please, give me another chance."

Yu Ronglou's smile on the portrait had been one of her true and rare smiles. The smile wasn't forced. She had a relaxed look on her face. It was when he had complimented her for being so intelligent and full of ideas. Her smile had captivated him that day.

"Someone! come!" Emperor Xu Fengxin yelled. He needed to prepare for his death. For that, he needed to declare the new Crown Prince. He had delayed it for far too long. He was excited to see his Empress again.