CH 1

Initial

He was aware that his name, ‘Ji Chen Ai [1]‘ is strange.

[1] 季 [Jì]: surname Ji;   尘埃   [chén āi]: dust, dirt

When a baby born, usually parents will always give a name with meaning for the baby. Chen Ai, Chen Ai, which parents will give the child such a bad name.

Ji Chen Ai has asked his mother about his name once, his mother answer was the name decided at that time was actually ‘Zeng An [2]‘ but something when wrong during the name registration and since it is troublesome, they didn’t change his name.

[2] 曾 [zēng]: a surname; 谙 [ān]: to be versed in; to know well

Ji Chen Ai is a good boy, so he even tolerate his mother’s somewhat absurd explanation.

They said love is blind, let me tell you how blind it was. lovely. mUackkk~

Ji Chen Ai’s mother, Shen Shuya is a standard mistress from a modern point of view. However, she was forced to be a mistress.

Ji Mingzhong, Ji Chen Ai’s father, is a very caring man. When he was with Shen Shuya, he never mentioned that he had a family. He told Shen Shuya the truth that not only did he have a wife, also his eldest son had even gone to elementary school when Shen Shuya was almost eight months pregnant with his child.

At that time, Shen Shuya can only cry in the dark, but no matter how much she cried, life goes on. Shen Shuya’s character is very soft. If we use a nice word, it will be ‘gentle’ and if we use a bad word, it will be ‘coward’.

She had fallen out with her family in order to give birth to Ji Chen Ai. At that time, facing Ji Mingzhong’s promise, she had to compromise.

The only thing to be thankful for is Ji Mingzhong’s wife died by accident soon after. Shen Shuya, who has always been a yes-man, enter Ji Jia[3] with Ji Chen Ai who was just over one years old.

[3] 家 [jiā]: family; household; home;

So, Chen Ai has begun to live in Ji Jia since his childhood.

But then, the dead wife came back to life, since u guys don’t read at shunraikitranslations

When Shen Shuya entered the room, she saw Chen Ai was sitting on his wheelchair, reading a book. The sunshine was mottled light spots through the curtains, shine on Chen Ai and act as a foil making Chen Ai looks extraordinarily peaceful.

Shen Shuya paused her step for a moment, and a little hesitant expression appeared on her face.

Ji Chen Ai heard Shen Shuya’s footsteps. He put the book aside and raised his head. “Mom, what’s wrong?”

Shen Shuya wants to smile, but as the remaining light swept onto Chen Ai’s leg, her smile disappears, she said, “Xiao Ai, your father asked me to ask you… Do you want to consider going abroad for treatment?”

Ji Chen Ai looks at Shen Shuya’s expression, what he saw was a tranquil expression on her eyes. Until he saw Shen Shuya was a bit overwhelmed, Chen Ai bowed his head and said, “Mom, I don’t want to go abroad.”

Shen Shuya opened her mouth and eventually swallowed the words back. She said, “If you don’t want to go abroad, en[4]…….Your dad wasn’t thoughtful either……..you like this…….” At this point, she herself felt it’s inappropriate, so after showing two awkward laughs, she got up and left.

[4]嗯 [en]: interjection indicating approval, appreciation or agreement

Ji Chen Ai looks at Shen Shuya’s back. Until she left the room, only then did Chen Ai lift the book in his hand and hit it hard on the ground.

How could Ji Chen Ai didn’t understand what the f**k these words mean. It’s nothing more than disrelishing Chen Ai’s disability which will make Ji Jia’s lose face in front of everyone.

After having paraplegic[5], a 17-years-old Ji Chen Ai, seems to have been abandoned by the family.

[5]paraplegic: sometimes called partial paralysis, is a form of paralysis in which function is substantially impeded from the waist down.

And the cause of paralysis…..also let others ridiculed Chen Ai.

Looking at the closed door, Chen Ai’s smile finally revealed some despairs.

The next morning, all four Ji’s family member sat together for breakfast.

Ji Suming, Ji Chen Ai’s elder brother, is five years older than Ji Chen Ai. He just graduated from college this year and has begun to accept some uncomplicated Ji Jia’s business.

He never liked his half-brother, Ji Chen Ai. He almost regarded him as the air. After Chen Ai become disable, the way he neglects him becoming more serious.

Although Shen Shuya was just a stepmother, she is being very good to Ji Suming. As a human, she should be a good person, but as a mother, she is not qualified.

Now, for example, Shen Shuya is nagging to Ji Suming while pouring coffee for him, and telling him to drive carefully while she completely ignoring Ji Chen Ai who was sitting at the table and eat his bread silently.

After Ji Suming was done eating, he greets Ji Mingzhong and went to work. So there were three people left at the table.

When Ji Mingzhong saw Ji Suming leave, he put down his newspaper and said to Ji Chen Ai, “Xiao Ai, I heard from your mother that you don’t want to go abroad? Can you tell me why?”

Ji Chen Ai holds a piece of bread on his hand and slightly lowered his head: “I, I am not familiar with foreign countries.”

Ji Mingzhong said: “Rehabilitation technology abroad is much better and your English is not bad either. Go abroad and make a good effort, you will be better than now.”

Ji Chen Ai listened to Ji Mingzhong’s words but felt his blood cooling down. Ji Mingzhong’s words were beautiful, and in fact, with Ji Mingzhong’s financial resources, it is very simple to task for him to find the best rehabilitation practitioner abroad.

But now, Ji Mingzhong wants Chen Ai to go abroad alone.

Ji Chen Ai raised up his head and looked at Shen Shuya, who was smiling at him while eating porridge, and he looks at Ji Mingzhong, who are looking at him with a gentle gaze, Chen Ai whispered, “I don’t want to go.”

The expression in Ji Mingzhong’s eyes become cold. He didn’t say anything, but he stops eating. He just got up and left.

Shen Shuya said, “Mingzhong, you don’t want to eat?”

Ji Mingzhong said, “I have lost appetite.”

Ji Chen Ai squeezed the spoon in his hand and lowered his head so that Shen Shuya could not see his expression.

Shen Shuya said, “Xiao Ai, you are a good boy. Why are you so stubborn this time? Listen to your father, isn’t it good to go abroad? You… “

Ji Chen Ai interrupted Shen Shuya and said, “Mom, I have been a good child, but now?”

Shen Shuya becomes mute. She had a flustered look in her eyes but soon she suppressed it with a reluctant smile. She said, “Chen Ai……. It was just an accident.”

Ji Chen Ai said, “Accident? Why do I have to pay so much for this accident?” He is only a 17 years old boy who was about to face the most important college entrance examination in his life. If it weren’t for accidental injuries, he would surely have been admitted to the first-class university in China. But now, he has nothing left.

Not only has he become the laughingstock of the outside world, but he has also been completely abandoned by his family.

Shen Shuya moved her lips and finally said nothing. Since Chen Ai was a little, she teaches him to be a good person, to act bravely, to be honest, and to be kind, but now, the reality hit her hard.

“Did they come to see me?” ask Chen Ai.

Shen Shuya knows who Chen Ai was talking about. She said, “Maybe they don’t know…”

Ji Chen Ai looks at his mother and suddenly something in the body cooled down completely. His mother has always been a small woman[6]. She was full of benevolence. She would donate money when she saw tragic things. She would also take the injured animals home and bring them back to the rescue station. But why was she so cruel to her only son?

[6] a small woman: a woman that has all the good thing and bad thing in women.

Shen Shuya unwilling to face Ji Chen Ai again, so she stands up hurriedly and said, “I’ll go and see your father.” After that, she left.

Ji Chen Ai looks at her back and finally, tears began to accumulate in the eyes. He slowly leaned over the table, buried his face in his arms, and shook his shoulders silently.

His wheelchair suddenly turn into a fairy godmother and well, he was saved?

After all, he was only a 17-years-old boy. After he cried, Chen Ai wheeled himself back to his room.

Originally he lived on the second floor, but his room was moved to the first floor because of a spinal injury.

Ji Chen Ai struggled to open his room’s door and wheeled himself into the room.

After he just got in the room, his cellphone on the bed happened to ring. Jin Chen Ai picks up and saw that it was his best friend calling him.

He answered the call by pressing ‘Accept’ button. A teenager’s voice came from the other end of the phone. He said, “Chen Ai, let’s go out and have fun. I haven’t seen you for a long time.”

After Ji Chen Ai was injured, he had not been in contact with the outside world. At this time, when he heard his friend’s invitation, he felt a lot better. He said, “I am not very convenient now…”

The man laughed and said, “That’s all right. I’ll pick you up in a car. You wait for me.”

Ji Chen Ai thinks for a while, then he agreed.

10 minutes later, Ji Chen Ai can hear honking sound from his house’s door. As soon as Chen Ai wheeled himself towards the living room, he saw his friend standing there, waving to him.

Ji Chen Ai said, “Yi Wenle, you arrived here so fast.”

The boy named Yiwenle smiled and said, “I happened to be near to your house just now. I’ve come to pick you up and let’s go out and have fun.”

Ji Chen Ai looks at his legs and he nodded.

Yi Wenle pushed the Chen Ai’s wheelchair out the door. Then he carried Chen Ai into his car and place his wheelchair in the car’s trunk.

Ji Chen Ai sat at the front passenger seat and saw Yi Wenle get on the car.

After starting the car, Yi Wenle asked casually, “Has the other party paid for compensation fees?”

Ji Chen Ai said, “I don’t know… It’s my dad who handled it.”

Yi Wenle sneered, “Your dad? Is that your dad? Ha, I don’t think he treats you like his son, but then again, Chen Ai, I’ve said it several times, don’t be so enthusiastic… This is not… ai[7]. “

[7] 唉 [āi]: to sigh

Ji Chen Ai’s eyes were somewhat blank: “Am I really wrong?”

Yi Wenle can’t bear to see Chen Ai like this, he reached out and patted Chen Ai on the shoulder and comforted him by saying, “You were right, what is wrong is the world.” People like Chen Ai is suitable to live in Utopia[8] or being protected. Otherwise, sooner or later, they will be injured.

[8] 乌托邦 [wū tuō bāng]: Utopia; Eutopia; pantisocracy ;

“When are you coming back to school? There still half a year left before the college entrance examination, so don’t drop any course behind,” said Yi Wenle.

Ji Chen Ai was silent for a while before he whispered, “Maybe… Not coming back.”

It just happened that they meet a red light. When Yi Wenle heard Chen Ai’s words, he slammed on the brake and then showed a ghostly expression: “Not coming back? Are you telling me that you are dropping from school?”

Chen Ai nodded lightly.