Chapter 287

Gu Sinian is haunted by Shu Xiaoxiao's mother and gets a call from Gu Sirui. Gu Sirui is still looking for Su Su on the other side of the phone, which makes him feel bad. It's so painful that the people he loves can't be protected by himself. All this is so unreal, his mind is full of Su Su at the moment.

But Shu Xiaoxiao is still shameless to interrupt him to answer the phone, this is not married, she is like this. It's hard for him to think about his future life. Should he live like a puppet? He was not reconciled.

But when he looked back and saw Mrs. Gu drinking tea, he couldn't bear to leave. He didn't dare to imagine what the family would be like after he left. He couldn't forget the kindness of Gu's family. Now Gu's family can only be saved by this wedding. He is too tired today, but he can't express it. He has too many emotions to vent, but he has nowhere to vent.

Finally, he saw off Shu Xiaoxiao and her parents. He held on to his last strength to say goodbye to them. Later, Mrs. Gu said to him, "Gu Sinian, I know you have 10000 people who don't want to, but there's no way. Shu Xiaoxiao is also a good girl. She wants to be a little bit more open." "I see, grandma. Today, thank you." Gu Sixian said powerlessly.

"Well, it's getting late, and you've been tired all day. I understand your mood. Don't say grandma doesn't care. It's a helpless move. " Mrs. Gu sighed. Gu Sinian raised his arm, looked at the watch and said, "grandma, I know. You should have a rest early. If you have anything to do, please call me." After listening to this, Mrs. Gu patted Gu's shoulder and said, "OK, I'll have a rest early, and you'll have a rest early." Then he went to his room.

Gu Sinian was relieved to see old lady Gu enter the room, and then dragged her tired body into her room. As soon as he entered the room, he took off all his precautions and collapsed on the bed. He wrapped himself in a quilt feebly.

He thought of the first time he went to take care of his family, the way old Mrs. Gu looked when she was young, and how he grew up in taking care of his family. He can't be ungrateful and can't leave at such a big time.

He remembered what he looked like when he saw Su Su for the first time. He thought of the scene when he got along with Su Su. A smile gradually appeared on his face. He thought about how he and Su Su changed from hating each other to liking each other, and then decided to join hands for life. Scene by scene, Su Su's smile and frown, he can clearly recall. Gradually, Gu Sixian's eyes were full of tears. He thought that no one could enter his heart except Su Su in his life.

Gu Sixian usually lives very delicately. He has to take care of all the sundries beside the bed, but now he has no mind to care about them. If he can't even control his life, what's the point of living? A series of events in recent days have made him gasp. Up to now, he can't believe that he is going to marry someone who is not Su Su. His eyes were open and empty. He thought he could deal with these things well, but he didn't expect to let Mrs. Gu solve them in a word. This sentence determines what kind of people he will face every day for the rest of his life. In the future, he may only live on the memories of himself and Su Su.

He thought of Su Su's favorite song and hummed in his mouth, hoping that Su Su would appear beside him at this time, even if he didn't say anything, beat him or scold him. He just wanted to see Su Su selfishly. He once had the impulse to be with Su Su regardless of everything, but he couldn't give Mrs. Gu the big mess he had created. He didn't want Mrs. Gu to die because of himself, and even less did he want Mrs. Gu to tear her face every day. After all, the family was too kind to him. More than 20 years of nurturing grace, he is not a little bit can finish.

On the one hand, he is kind to himself and takes care of his family, on the other hand, he is his beloved woman. Gu Sixian couldn't make a choice. He knew he was too sorry for Su Su, and he didn't expect Su Su to forgive him. He just hates that he can't deal with these things well, that he is not strong enough to protect his family and love.

Today, Gu Sirui called him out, and the words that he said echoed in his ears. He actually did such a thing, which made Su Su sad. He didn't deserve to be with her. Maybe he shouldn't have real feelings for anyone who lives in Gu's family. From the moment when Gu's family adopted him, he knew this truth, but he couldn't control it at all. He also wants to live like a normal person, and like Gu Sirui, he can go through fire and water for the people he likes. He thought, he shouldn't love anyone, no matter which one is hurt.

He found out Su Su's picture and put it in the palm of his hand to touch it. He looked at Su Su's eyebrows and eyes, and even thought of their future children. But now everything is in vain. His Su Su, he only hopes Su Su can live in peace, health and happiness, no longer sad for him, even forget him, let him bear all this alone.

He put Su Su's picture to his mouth, closed his eyes and imagined that Su Su was beside him. He bowed his head and was silent, feeling that Su Su was at ease. Suddenly he woke up, he remembered that Su Su did not know where she was until now, Gu Sirui was crazy to find her outside.

Gu Sinian's heart is very painful, he has been reciting Su Su, I'm sorry, I'm sorry. If it wasn't for him, Su Su would not leave. If it wasn't for him, Su Su might live happily somewhere. If it wasn't for him, Gu would not face bankruptcy, and old lady Gu wouldn't be angry to take a knife to her chest.He vowed in his heart that he would do his best in the future and not let the people around him get hurt. Su Su is the most sorry person in his life. Except Su Su, he will not be emotional to anyone else. In the rest of his life, he has to repay his family's kindness. If he is lucky enough to meet Su Su again, he can't think about it any more. He doesn't know when he will see Su Su again and what he will do.

He didn't dare to think about Su Su's reaction when she knew she was going to get married so soon. Even he didn't know how to face the wedding. He even hoped that Su Su would never come back, never see himself, forget himself and find a new place. There would be someone who loves her and start a new life.

He doesn't want to hurt Su Su any more. Su Su has been hurt enough by him. He hopes that he and Su Su can have telepathy at this time. Su Su can feel his apology, his helplessness and his reluctance.