Su Su always pays attention to fan Jia from time to time recently. It's not that he doesn't trust Gu Sinian. It's because he trusts Gu Sinian too much and knows that he doesn't feel fan Jia, so he can't help observing fan Jia.
As a woman, she naturally hopes that her other half can be liked by others, rather than disliked by others. However, if she is loved too much, she will feel uncomfortable.
Woman is a contradiction.
Since knowing fan Jia's friendship with Gu Sixian, Su Su always looks at the woman in front of her intentionally or unconsciously.
Fan Jia doesn't seem to want to marry Gu Sinian just like Shu Xiaoxiao. It's just out of a kind of worship and infatuation for excellent men, which is beyond doubt.
But even in this way, Su Su still felt a sense of crisis, this sense of crisis is not caused by others inexplicably, but because of herself.
What Shu Xiaoxiao has done before makes her feel guilty for Gu Sinian. She feels guilty that she doesn't trust Gu Sinian. What's more, she almost stops living in this world because she resists such a situation.
But she was playing alone in Africa. She didn't care about Gu Sinian's life without her.
Even after having that nightmare, I didn't think that he really had an accident.
This guilt forces Su Su Su's relationship with Gu Sinian to be weaker and weaker. Now the appearance of fan Jia makes Su Su eager to strengthen her relationship with Gu Sinian.
After nursing Gu Sinian, fan Jia turns around and says goodbye to Su Su. She goes out of the ward with her things. After she leaves, Su Su and Gu Sinian are the only two left in the ward.
Looking at Gu Sinian who was sleeping on the bed, Su Su's head suddenly floated an idea. If she had been in the past, she would have been ashamed of her current idea, but now she feels very normal.
She tried to go a few more steps forward and stood beside Gu Sinian's bed.
Gu Sinian had some signs that she was about to wake up. Her closed eyelashes began to stir slightly. However, the oxygen mask on the ventilator blocked Su Su Su's vision. She didn't see it.
Su Su's hand began to wander uneasily on Gu Sixian's body. At first, she was just testing. After all, it was the first time that she did this kind of thing. She had no experience and was very nervous.
Every time there was some movement outside the door or someone passed by, she was very nervous, for fear that someone would push the door in, or fan Jia would return to the beautiful room because she had something left here.
Gu Sinian opened his eyes the moment Su Su met his skin.
Naturally, he knew fan Jia's thoughts about him, but he didn't know Su Su would think so much about him and would be so upset because of fan Jia.
After all, Su Su was very shy and would not do anything else in public.
But this time, Gu Sinian was wrong.
Man's instinct has always been there, no matter when, Su Su's fingers swam on him, he felt a heat surge to his abdomen.
"Well." I don't know whether it's comfortable or something else. Gu Sinian can't help breathing out. He feels uncomfortable and wants to resist the disorderly hand.
The voice heard in Su Su's ears was Gu Sinian's extremely comfortable feedback, and his hands on Gu Sinian became more and more bold.
Gu Sinian feels his body's natural reaction. He has been breathing deeply under the oxygen mask to control himself, but Su Su doesn't understand his good intentions. He runs around restlessly, leaving them everywhere he passes by.
As a man, this feeling of not being able to control himself disgusts Gu Sinian. He subconsciously wants to resist. However, as he has just come to life, he can't resist physically. His ventilator and oxygen mask are also blocking him.
Su Su didn't feel the strong resistance from Gu Sinian. Gu Sinian's discovery surprised her very much. At least it showed that his feelings for himself could not be changed.
Gu Sinian wanted to resist, but he couldn't. He could only adjust his breathing rate. His breathing became more and more loud. Su Su's ears were the evidence of emotion. The corners of her mouth could not be controlled, and her hands began to feel more and more uneasily down Gu Sinian's body.
Hospital white beds are generally equipped with pure white quilts, and now Gu Sixian's ward is a beautiful quilt.
As Gu Sinian breathes faster and faster, Su Su stops her movements and turns to the bathroom to wipe her hands clean. Then she brings a basin of hot water to help Gu Sinian wipe her body.
During the whole process, Su Su didn't make a sound. Maybe it was because she was a little shy when she did such a shameful thing for the first time. She didn't know what to say to ease the embarrassment.
"Su Su." The oxygen mask hindered the transmission of sound, but because Su Su was wiping Gu Sinian's body, they were so close that Su Su could hear them. The sound was not clear, but it was not fuzzy.Su Su turned and looked at Gu Sinian. He didn't know what he was doing. He looked at Gu Sinian with a smile in his eyes.
Seeing Su Su's smiling face, Gu Sinian didn't know how to say it when he came to his mouth. He opened his mouth, but no voice came out.
"What's the matter?" Seeing Gu Sixian's constipation, Su Su asked in a voice. It's not hard to tell from her voice that she was in a good mood.
"Su Su..." Gu Sinian wanted to make a voice again, but he was not in the active position. What happened today was also in a passive position, and he didn't even have the qualification to resist. This feeling made him very uncomfortable, even a little uncomfortable.
He wanted to stop it from the bottom of his heart, but he was afraid that his words would hurt Su Su's heart.
"Well? I'm here Hearing Gu Sinian call her again, Su Su stops her action and sits on the stool beside the hospital bed, but she doesn't forget to help him cover the quilt for fear that Gu Sinian will catch cold.
Su Su put her hand on the edge of the bed and looked at the lover lying on the bed with a smile. The longer she looked at her, the stronger the sense of reality Gu Sinian gave her. She was no longer illusory.
At least after this incident, the connection between them is real. Su Su is not particularly confused. She has determined a development direction. When she is faced with fan Jia again, she will not think wildly, and she has confidence.