As Su Xu said this, her heart began to pacify An Yue, or perhaps she was trying to comfort herself. Looking around, Du Du was already playing happily on the side. Obviously, he didn't feel sad because of his death. Young was such a good thing, and more precious, death was so far away from him, and sorrow so far away.
"We do not know if there is disease or suffering in heaven. Su Xu, the only thing we can grasp is the present. In heaven, only those who have gone there will know. How many can we hold in our hands? "
As An Yue asked Su Xu, Su Xu raised her head and looked at An Yue. More and more, she felt that An Yue's appearance was a gift from heaven. Such a single mother could give her such encouragement.
"An Yue, you must have been blessed by God, right?" Su Xu felt that at this moment, she could not think of any other way to praise him besides saying such naive words.
However, An Yue slowly smiled, "I'm not blessed by God, I was born to my mother!"
After saying this, the two of them laughed.
"An Yue, you're an amazing person!" Looking at An Yue like this, Su Xu sighed from the bottom of her heart once again.
"I think so too." This time, An Yue did not refute Su Xu. Instead, she bowed her large eyes in response to Su Xu's praise.
"But, Su Xu, no matter how wonderful I am, I am still a mortal trapped by love. I can't help myself, I can't help you! " An Yue stared at Su Xu, her eyes filled with thousands of words, but Su Xu was a little confused.
"An Yue, what are you saying? I'm actually very good, and I don't need any help! " Perhaps it was due to her innate stubbornness, Su Xu did not take An Yue's words seriously. She was fine, everything went according to her expectations, what was there to be unsatisfied about?
"Su Xu, I'm an experienced person, you don't have to hide this from me. In fact, I couldn't get in there at all. What I don't know is, since Mr. Qin already knows that you didn't push that woman downstairs, and since Mr. Qin is already divorced, why can't you all walk together! "
An Yue clearly didn't care about Su Xu's feelings. She was very anxious, as if she couldn't bear to see such a couple separate from each other. Why couldn't she walk on when she clearly loved him? Why do you have to act like you don't know each other when you love each other?
Her own love was due to helplessness. A man like that, whose heart grows in a region, but whose eyes are in the sky. She knew that he had been troubled since he was young, and that he was destined to be extraordinary. But was it really worth it to forsake love for the sake of hatred?
An Yue's heart ached, she seemed to remember herself all those years ago. The person she longed for, who was supposed to be a dragon and phoenix from the heavens, was sent into a valley by someone else. He had never known how to give up. He had given up love for the sake of hatred. Perhaps he didn't think that it was love.
It was because of this pride that An Yue didn't tell him about the pregnancy. However, An Yue felt that she was very foolish after all. Why didn't she say so? His mother was severely ill. She was no longer able to raise her child, much less give him a good life. Why didn't she use her child to keep him back then?
However, when he thought about it again, he realized that she didn't want to be a stumbling block on his path to success, and even more so, she didn't want to stop him from taking revenge. However, all of this seemed to be wrong. In the past few years, An Yue had learned that even though he had returned as he had hoped, he had already buried himself deep in his hatred, and was unable to extricate himself from it.
If she had pulled him back then, perhaps he wouldn't be in such pain now. There had always been news about him and his family business in the newspapers, but he had never heard the least bit about his personal feelings. Even if he had told a scandal to Su Xu, it seemed to have been filled with anger.
Moreover, An Yue could see that Su Xu always liked Qin Zheng. This was the intuition of a woman. There was no need to say anything else, there was no reason for it. Her heart was right there. The moment she moved, she would know who she was feeling pain for and who she was most concerned about.
In a split-second, An Yue suddenly realized that she had the desire to confide in Su Xu. However, those memories should have long been lost in her memories. Even if he said it out loud, what else could he do?
After so many years, his appearance had long since changed. Even if you stood in front of him, he still wouldn't be able to clearly recognize you. It was still the past.
Seeing that An Yue was distracted, Su Xu did not speak immediately. Instead, she looked at An Yue silently, "Perhaps this kind of question, I shouldn't have asked so abruptly. However, An Yue, why don't you go find Du Du's father? "
With that said, An Yue immediately lost her composure, "It's already over, what's the use of finding him?" It's impossible for us! " An Yue lowered her head. Obviously, Su Xu's words had touched the softest part of her heart, the scar that couldn't be opened.
"Does Toot look like his father?" This time, Su Xu, together with An Yue, didn't continue on with the previous topic. Unexpectedly, An Yue's reaction was even more intense than before.
"No, Toot wasn't like his father at all. "Su Xu, I don't want to ask this question for now, is that okay?" Gradually realizing that she had lost her composure, An Yue apologetically smiled at Su Xu, but could not stop her sadness.
"Actually, I didn't mean to mention it, but we really are alike. Qin Zheng and I are both in the past, what's the use of finding him? There's no other way around it. Besides, I won't be able to get past myself! "
Su Xu spoke calmly, but her heart was not at all calm. It may only take a moment to fall in love with someone, but it is too difficult to forget someone. The human body would be updated once every seven years. Perhaps it would take her seven years before she could forget about Qin Zheng.
In the end, An Yue was also silent. The two women's minds had been exposed. Naturally, they were not in the mood to continue the conversation. Su Xu was the first to give An Yue a step down. In her heart, Su Xu was more fortunate than An Yue. She had no children to hold her back, so she had no scruples. However, An Yue was different. The shadow of her biological father was on Du Du's body. It was impossible for An Yue to forget it.
After all, she was still walking alone on the street. Su Xu's heart returned to its former serenity, and for the whole day, two things that were neither big nor small happened. When they met some people they didn't want to meet, they realized that she was the only one from the beginning until the end.
Su Xu did not know where she should go. Everything she had was given to her by the Tang Clan. The current Su Xu still had her safe house and job. If it weren't for the Tang Clan, she still didn't know where she would have gotten into this mess or what sort of things she would have done.
In the past, there was also Tang Ling who was like a father to her. He was strict with her and asked her to accomplish his task. In the majesty, however, Su Fu felt an inexplicable sense of security. Even though Tang Ling was an existence divided into two in Su Xu's life, giving her a sense of security, but also giving her a sense of insecurity.
But today, Su Xu was grateful to Tang Ling. However, she truly did have a grudge against him. But where did this hatred come from? She was just a girl who relied on others. You should be grateful if she could give you a few bites of food, not to mention the fact that she had given you a new lease on life, so don't even think about betraying her.
But from the start, who asked if that was what she liked? Who cared what she really needed? She could be a strong woman in the business world. Why not something else? Talent, does this thing really exist? But the fruits of her hard work day and night.
Unfortunately, no one knew. Even Qin Zheng had said this from beginning to end, "Su Xu, you're too strong!"
It wasn't that she didn't show her weakness in front of Qin Zheng, but every time she tested him, Qin Zheng only felt that she was very strong. Thus, they could only pick up their armors and continue being the strong woman they were talking about. No one knew what it would feel like to strip off an armor after it had been worn on for a long time.
Each time she made a decision, each time she displayed her fragility, it was with complete trust. Every time she made a decision, she made a decision, every single time she revealed her fragility. However, in the end, her wish was shattered and no one could give her that feeling.
The big screen in the square announced that it was raining today, but Su Xu didn't bring an umbrella. At the start, there were still a lot of people standing on the huge plaza. As the sky became darker, a lot of people started walking away. However, there were still people running about in the distant streets. They were in a hurry, forming groups of people. They were the only ones who stood still, as if they were a single person.
Today, Su Xu did not avoid the rain. She stood in the rain, and from the beginning to the end, she just stood there. No one held up an umbrella for him. Some people walked past her, but they did not stop. It was raining in the autumn, and no one had expected it to rain so heavily. They were in a hurry to get out of the rain.
As for Su Xu, she would rather stay under the rain. This city, cold and busy, this city, prosperous and desolate, this city that belonged to her but did not belong to her. This city would eventually forget her.
"Su Xu, why are you standing here! "Come back with me!" In the blurry rain curtain, Su Xu saw who looked anxious. Who threw away the umbrella, who ran towards her, who truly cared about her.
"Finally, someone who cares about me has arrived!" In the rain, Su Xu muttered to himself with a smile. The next second, she thought she was going to faint. Fortunately, someone's arm was full of power and caught her steadily.
Su Xu tried to look down on the face, but her vision was still blurry. He could only laugh as he tugged at the corner of the person's clothes. Su Xu suddenly wanted to say something, but she was carried by someone, and she felt that the person holding him was running.
Perhaps, he was the person in the world that cared about him the most. Perhaps, he was the one that belonged to her last. Perhaps, this was the so called unforeseen event. Su Xu felt that she was too fragile, which was why she said the words she usually felt the most embarrassed to say.
"I've waited for you!"
This voice was so soft, it was unknown if the person holding her could hear it or not.
"I think there's a home!"
She didn't have any strength left, Su Xu thought to herself for the last time. The first person she saw when she woke up was someone worthy of her giving everything to. Love, still must pay attention to the equivalence ah, only you to me, I dare to return your sincere ah!
This rain seemed to be worth it in the end. But what Su Xu didn't know was that she had been standing in the square for so long, directly facing the largest business center in the city. There were already people there who had noticed her, but it was too late to be the first person to rush up.