C92

What must a person experience to be able to cultivate a strong and unyielding heart? This was an unsolvable question. For everyone, this was a type of helpless experiential learning.

Liu Yuxi slept with his clothes on. Perhaps it was the effect of the alcohol, which caused her to wake up early and not feel tired. She blankly stared at the sun in the sky. No matter how dazzling or uncomfortable it was, she didn't want to move even a little bit.

Because she was afraid that if an accident happened one day, she wouldn't be able to see the bright sky.

When Lin Qingrou arrived, a strong smell of alcohol came from the dark bedroom. She had forgotten to retch, and she went into the bedroom with her new clothes and the food she had cooked.

"You're finally awake. I thought you were going to sleep until night."

Liu Yuxi sighed and said quietly, "I wish I could sleep forever. This way, I won't have any worries and won't think about those things that bother me."

"I don't understand. The abbreviations look so normal, so sunny. He's an architect, how could this happen... "

Lin Qingrou's heart was stuck. There was no way for her to sit up, so she could only throw a small paper bag on top of her.

"What is this?"

"AIDS test paper."

Ah!

When Liu Yuxi heard this, he shook off the paper as if he had been electrocuted, then jumped off the bed and hid in a corner, shivering.

"What are you doing with this!? Take it away, take it away! "

Lin Qingrou had to let her face reality, escaping was useless.

"Listen to me, now go and have a drink of water. After that, use the test paper to test your confidence."

She wholeheartedly advised Liu Yuxi, hoping that he would wake up a little.

Liu Yuxi subconsciously shook her head. When the soreness and pain in her body finally surged up, she finally couldn't hold it in anymore and sat on the ground, tears flowing out of her eyes once more.

She didn't understand why this was happening.

It wasn't that she couldn't accept such an outcome, but that she couldn't accept why she had chosen her.

"Even if you were to tell me that I have done all sorts of bad things and that the heavens are going to punish me, that's why I am acting like this. Even if that were the case, I wouldn't be so afraid. "Why did it have to be like this? Why did you let me meet with this kind of thing for no reason at all?"

Lin Qingrou calmed down.

"Listen to me. Have you had a fever lately? A low fever."

"Low fever? "No." Liu Yuxi didn't hesitate.

"Sweat?"

Liu Yuxi was in a trance, "No, I never sweat in my sleep."

"Muscle soreness? There was a lot of weight loss all of a sudden, was there? "

She thought for a moment. "My muscles are sore. I think they are." Weight loss, I think. "

Following that, Liu Yuxi's mouth twitched, and he became even more desperate.

Lin Qingrou didn't want to be tortured like this again, so she simply pulled Liu Yuxi's index finger, detoxified it, then pricked it with a Blood Harvesting Needle and dripped a few drops of blood on the testing paper.

"The whole process took less than a minute. While Liu Yuxi was still in grief, his index finger had already lost a lot of blood." "Use this to press down." Lin Qingrou handed her a cotton swab.

Liu Yuxi lowered his head in grief, not daring to speak.

Half an hour, you can listen to a lesson, you can buy a piece of clothing, you can drive from one ring to three rings, and you can do a lot of things.

In the past, they didn't think half an hour was that long.

But now, it felt like a century had passed.

Together they looked at the box on the test paper — two red lines.

Lin Qingrou's heart was as if it was on the verge of death. She leaned against the wall dispiritedly, all the strength and certainty that she had instantly vanished into thin air. Liu Yuxi's shoulders collapsed, and he remained expressionless.

After a long while, when Lin Qingrou was about to touch Liu Yuxi, her body suddenly trembled, and she said resolutely to Lin Ran, "Don't touch me, don't touch me. I'm not clean. "

Lin Qingrou's heart was in a panic, but there was nothing she could do about it. She did not know what to say, as if everything she had said had become meaningless.

Because she wasn't Liu Yuxi, she didn't feel that kind of bone-piercing pain and anxiety.

But Lin Qingrou didn't want to believe, what could this piece of paper mean? Was it even more accurate than the hospital's results!

She didn't believe it. She took another test paper and gave it to Liu Yuxi.

Liu Yuxi was puzzled, and all of his despair turned into anger: "What the hell do you want? Do I have to tie my ten fingers into a sieve to be satisfied? I'm sick now, I admit it. I'm not you, can you stop tormenting me! "

Lin Qingrou tucked the broken hair behind her ears and said coldly, "I don't believe that you would be so unlucky."

"Unlucky?" Liu Yuxi's will wasn't clear.

"Yeah, it's a sad thing to be happy about. It's really a true portrayal. Yesterday, I promised you that I would become an AIDS patient today. "

Lin Qingrou said bitterly, as if she had a bad premonition, "You admit it just like that? "Wait a little longer, there might be a chance."

Liu Yuxi ignored him, and waggled his fingers at her as if he was trying to anger her: "I'm bleeding now, if you have any wounds, we can only die together."

Lin Qingrou had no attachment to this world because death was release.

Not long later, the sound of flowing water could be heard from the bathroom. The voice was calm and continuous, not at all like when someone was standing below it. Although Liu Yuxi wanted to make it sound like she was taking a bath, from the sound of her voice, Lin Qingrou could tell that she was crying.

If they wanted to cry, they couldn't cry. This was something they would do.

Lin Qingrou's mind was blank, she did not know what had happened to her just now.

She leaned against the wall weakly and let her hand stroke her side. He could not care about the blood, nor could he care about the wounds on his body. She didn't have any other feelings, she only felt a bone-piercing desolation from her heart.

Lin Qingrou held onto the bed and stood up. Just as she was about to go to the bathroom to find Liu Yuxi, she suddenly saw a red line appear on the test paper beside her.

There was only one! There was only one this time!

With the test paper in hand, she ignored the items on the floor and her own weight. She quickly made her way to the bathroom door.

Lin Qingrou forcefully opened the bathroom door. Sure enough, Liu Yuxi was sitting in the bathtub, crying softly. She hadn't taken off her clothes, but she had already been drenched.

"What are you doing here?" Take that thing again, and show it to me again. Do you want me to die right now?! "

Lin Qingrou pretended not to hear it and passed the test paper to her.

"After this test, it proves that you are not sick. At the very least, it means that you might not be afflicted with an illness! "

Liu Yuxi stared blankly for a moment, before snatching it away.

But just as he looked, the test paper was immediately wet by the flowing water.

"No." Liu Yuxi wiped the water off his face and said firmly, "Let's go to the hospital now!"

Lin Manshou's nose twitched as she stood up and walked out of the bathroom.

Lin Qingrou said, "We'll go now. If we go earlier, we'll know the results today."

Although Liu Yuxi hesitated, he immediately changed his clothes and prepared to go to the hospital.

He put on his sunglasses and a scarf. Although Liu Yuxi said he wasn't afraid, he still had to cover himself tightly, afraid that someone familiar with him would see and cause trouble.

They didn't go to Ye Qingming's hospital, but to the other three A hospitals. It would be best if they stayed far away from home in fear of being found out.

After drawing their blood, Liu Yuxi and Lin Manshou sat in the garden at the back of the hospital, quietly waiting for the results.

Lin Qingrou looked at the ambulance cars coming and going, and suddenly remembered that day when she went to the orphanage.

After she finished talking, Lin Qingrou took a deep breath.

"There is never a lack of unlucky people in this world. There is always one less person than me, and one less person than me. How could it be like this? " Liu Yuxi complained.

Lin said, "When I see that child, I can think of my childhood. There's nothing but yourself. "

Liu Yuxi lamented, "There's no reason for you to be so carefree. It seems like there's a reason for you to be here as well." I just want to live in peace and quiet for the rest of my life, whether I am sick or not. "

A few hours ago, they had been thinking together about their future. Excited and filled with anticipation, but now she only wanted to be calm and tranquil. Even if it was boring, it was a rare kind of happiness.

Lin Qingrou patted Liu Yuxi's shoulder, "Right now, I can't let you relax no matter what you say. However, I still feel like before we reach the final step, don't be discouraged."

Liu Yuxi couldn't help but laugh, "Since when have you become so energetic? It wasn't like this in the past."

"What's wrong with positive energy?"

"Of course it's not bad. It's just that you were more practical and calm in the past, you wouldn't encourage me like this for no reason at all. To be honest, you also think that I won't be able to escape? "

Lin Qingrou said helplessly, "Don't spout nonsense. It's your fault for trying to encourage you. No one can escape, not even the two of us! "

What they could not escape was their own fate. No matter how much they struggled, it would only be the unwillingness to give up in the thicket of thorns. At the end of the road was another, wider patch of longer thorns, and by then they were covered with bruises.

Liu Yuxi lamented, "The plan didn't change too quickly. Who would have thought that such a thing would happen? It was so cold that it seemed we could only comfort each other, no matter what. No matter how many friends, money, and luxury goods there are, I still want you to accompany me in the end. "

Lin Qingrou didn't say anything, but she was thinking about Liu Yuxi's words.

They didn't have the capital to ask others to do anything to them. Thus, he could only leave the tempers and emotions that no one else was able to see to the other party.

Liu Yuxi was right: people's hearts were as cold as the weather, so they had to comfort each other to keep warm.

At three o'clock in the afternoon, Lin Manrou went to the hospital to collect the results for Liu Yuxi.

Liu Yuxi didn't dare to go, afraid of the worst possible outcome. She was not afraid of death, but she was very afraid of the kind of life that was worse than death and looked down upon and could not understand.

The doctor in charge of the lab looked up and down with a subtle and curious expression on his face, then checked the name on the report again. It seemed to be saying, 'Why are you so young and still pregnant to test for AIDS!?'

Lin Qingrou's face was burning. She took the test paper and quickly hid behind the stone pillar to look at the results.

'May nothing happen to you, please don't let anything happen to you! ' she said to herself.

The test paper slowly unfolded. On the white A4 paper, there were many results.

The taste of this suffering is not good, so Lin Luanrou found the AIDS side in one go.

"Negative."

She was stunned for a moment. Then, a feeling of having survived a disaster surged through her heart. Tears were streaming down her face, and those on the side thought that something was wrong with the child in her womb.

"Is the girl all right?" an aunt asked.

Lin Qingrou wiped away her tears, smiling through her tears.

"No problem, thank you." After saying that, she quickly went to the other side of the corridor to look for Liu Yuxi.

"What!?" Liu Yuxi opened his eyes wide, flabbergasted.

Lin Manshui shook Liu Yuxi's shoulder, trying to wake her up.

"It's fine now! "You're not sick!"

After Liu Yuxi's pleasant surprise, his expression turned serious again.

"But AIDS has an incubation period... Three months. "

This time, the two of them once again fell into the state of grief that they had just escaped from.

Three months, from the time Liu Yuxi and Jane split up, there were still two and a half months. In other words, they would have to wait two and a half months before they could truly relax.

However, he still couldn't let down his guard. Halfway through their journey, Lin Qingrou said to Liu Yuxi, "At the very least, I can put my guard down for now. Don't think too much into it for now." Even if you really get sick, you should still live the next two and a half months well, just like before you get sick. "

Liu Yuxi held onto the steering wheel and didn't start the car for a long time.

Seeing that she was not in a good condition, Lin Qingrou asked, "Why don't I drive? I think you should go home and rest as soon as possible. "

Liu Yuxi thought for a moment, and without any resistance, he gave his seat to Lin Qingrou.

"You're right, I have to stay safe for the next two months," Liu Yuxi said with tears streaming down his face. "Even if I get sick in the end, I won't regret it."

Finally, she said suddenly, "Should I make a will?"

Lin Qingrou said helplessly, "Why are you so preoccupied with random things? Let's talk about it when you're sick!"

It was unknown what Liu Yuxi was thinking, but he actually burst out laughing.

"What's wrong?"

"If you had said these words to someone else, that person would have been like a dying man with a dead heart. It is fortunate that my heart is strong; otherwise, I would have been angered to death by these words."

Lin Qingrou said weakly, "The principles are all the same to you, you have to face them."

Liu Yuxi nodded, he had to accept this fact.

Lin Manshui sent her home. As she was about to return her car keys, Liu Yuxi refused.

"I don't want to drive anymore. I don't want to go out either. I just want to rest at home."

Lin Qingrou was worried, "Then what do we do when you go out? "Don't tell me we have to walk."

"It's not like I've never done public transit, don't worry. Besides, when you go out these days, it's not the right thing to drive my car, so you don't have to ask someone to rent it. I... I just don't want to go out. I'm afraid of causing trouble for others, but also afraid of causing trouble for myself. "

Liu Yuxi paused for a moment, then casually said, "I don't know. In the future, I'll say my goodbyes and drive the car. When that happens, I'll treat this car as your last gift."

Lin Qingrou could only force a smile as she could no longer cry.

After bidding farewell to Liu Yuxi, Lin Qingrou returned home alone and sat in the dining room in a daze.

From dusk to night, from the setting sun to the radiance of the stars. She just sat there, her eyes dry and her throat hot.

Just when did it all start? Everything was moving towards an uncontrollable situation.

Ye Qingming's unfathomable thoughts, Quan Wei's mysterious background, his own pregnancy, Liu Yuxi's illness … With everything that had happened, the world had never felt pity for her. It was as if she was the one who had committed the sins, not the people who deserved it.

She began to wonder if it was only the bad guys who could live in peace and not be disturbed, because even the gods and ghosts were afraid of them. That was simply too ironic! Could it be that Ye Qingcheng was right: only power and victory were eternal? Everything else was just a passing cloud, nothing else mattered.

'Crack! '

The door opened and Ye Qingming entered through the light of the corridor. He saw Lin Qingrou sitting there by herself.

He seemed to have understood something.

"Did it turn out badly when I went to the hospital today?"

Lin Qingrou did not notice him, so the moment she heard his voice, she shuddered before quickly regaining her senses.

"No, it's okay. I just need to check it later."

Ye Qingming nodded, "Where did you see that?" If you have any questions, you can come to our hospital. It will be better if you have someone you know. "

"No, it's at the central hospital on the east side of the city. Her medical insurance is there, so it's easier. "

Ye Qingming understood.

"What is it? I see that you have been feeling a bit out of sorts lately. "

Lin Manshou stood up and went to the kitchen. She casually said, "It's just some common diseases," she lied, "Nephropathy."

Ye Qingming was suddenly enlightened and explained, "Nephropathy is indeed a little tricky." Kidney problems are serious and irreversible, but you have to make your friend feel better.

He followed Lin Qingrou's instructions, and when she didn't respond, he sighed softly. In the end, she still wasn't willing to make friends with him. That's true. After all, their union wasn't some sort of romantic alliance, it was just a deal that they were willing to make.

However, Ye Qingming didn't want to continue like this. Perhaps it was because of Lin Qingrou, but he knew that it was more for the sake of his children.

For this child, he could give up his past and start over. Why couldn't she do that?

Ye Qingming had believed that she had married him for money and status. However, after such a long time, Ye Qingming suddenly realized that his bad premonition had become even more unbelievable.

"Are you busy today?" Lin Qingrou came out of the kitchen and asked Ye Qingming.

Ye Qingming looked at her and that misty feeling once again assaulted him.

He retreated without leaving a trace and sat in the corner of the sofa with his hands on his chest. "When the weather gets cold, the hospital will be busy for a while."

Lin Qingrou thought back to when they went to the hospital today. There were indeed a lot of people, so she was a little puzzled.

"In winter, the temperature is low, so it is better for postoperative recovery. Add to that the winter road skid, and the proportion of car accidents and injuries will increase. So the hospital will be very busy these days, especially the orthopedic department. "

As Ye Qingming spoke, he looked at Lin Qingrou's expression and realized that she was only nodding her head in agreement. She wasn't really interested in this question. She seemed to be afraid that Ye Qingming would discover something that would cause the atmosphere to freeze. As for what this topic was, she just ignored it. She only needed to follow what he said and it would be fine. However, Lin Qingrou's attitude made Ye Qingming unhappy.

He couldn't help but ask, "What do you think?"

"What?" "The hospital..." Lin Qingrou still hadn't come back to her senses. She couldn't remember what Ye Qingming had just said.

Ye Qingming let go of his hand and shrugged. He then said to Lin Qingrou in a subtle tone, "It's nothing, why would there be anything in the hospital?"

Only then did Lin Qingrou react. "No, I was a bit distracted just now."

"His mind wandered? Is it because of your friend again? " As Ye Qingming spoke, he stood up and looked down on her.

"Mm, yes." She did not try to hide it.

Ye Qingming opened his mouth, wanting to say something, but gave up. Finally, he took a last look at Lin Qingrou and quietly returned to his study.

The two stayed in a deadlock. They slept through the night and did not see Ye Qingming take another step out of the study.

Although Lin Qingrou felt that the situation was a little strange, she did not realize that she was the culprit. Ever since she became pregnant, her mind had always been on the edge of her thoughts. Furthermore, now that such a big matter had been buried deep in her heart, she felt even more uneasy.

However, as an outsider, Ye Qingming did not know the reason behind it. Therefore, this matter gradually had an unpredictable and strange effect between the two of them.

Nobody knew what the final result of this effect would be.