C57 is desire

If you go out and ask around, who didn't know that your Master Zheng doted on a concubine and brought her up to the room, mistreating the daughter left behind by your ex-wife. If not, why did you serve the territory of the Weir Prefecture for three consecutive terms and stay in the Weir Prefecture for nine years?

"With your outstanding performance, even if I was in trouble, it would be impossible for your position to not progress when you return to the capital to report."

"How can you sweep the world if you don't sweep the room? His Majesty was giving you a reminder, but you didn't even know it. It looks like there's no point in sitting in your official seat anymore."

This was the second person that told Master Zheng today, that there was no meaning in sitting on his seat or not. In other words, his position was extremely disheartening.

Isn't it a kind of sacrifice to give up all one's body and mind to the people and neglect the family? Why did so many people criticize him? Even His Majesty …

"What? You still don't understand?" Seeing that Master Zheng was still confused, Chiang became so angry that he wanted to strangle him to death.

He really didn't know how this person's brain grew. He was obviously very shrewd on official matters, but in terms of being a person, he just made such a mess. Chiang understood him well, but he truly knew that he didn't want to borrow someone's light.

But this made the Chiang even angrier, because he didn't want to take advantage of his family's power, he caused his sister to die early.

"Nope. If I really loved rights, how could I not have climbed onto your Jiang family?" Master Zheng felt wronged. She had worked so hard, why couldn't anyone understand her?

Of course I know why you don't want to climb up to our Jiang family. I'm afraid my sister will use this opportunity to latch onto you, so I'll hold you back while you pity that concubine of yours.

"That's why it's even scarier, why people who think so deeply will not only let the ladder before them go up, but also want to climb another ladder up to the wall. In everyone's eyes, the people are the ladder you hit. Do you understand this time?"

How could this be? How could this be? He had never thought about this before, but what if everyone else thought this way? Was he wrong? Was it because he had not taken good care of his daughter? No matter how hard Zheng Mingrui tried, he couldn't come to a conclusion.

"I really want to do something for the people. It's true. I've never thought about my future." His explanation made Chiang even more speechless. But Chiang still knew that what he said was true.

"So you don't want to take advantage of anyone but yourself. You just want to do your best to make yourself feel better, right?" Who would have thought that Chiang would actually think this way.

"Yes, yes, I really do." Zheng Mingrui nodded her head vigorously, but Chiang smiled bitterly, in terms of feelings, she was simply an idiot. This current Madame Zheng had won first because she had met Zheng Mingrui, and he had won because he had nothing left for her.

"So, when my sister got married, you didn't want to get close to her at all. You were just afraid of borrowing the Jiang Clan's power, right?" Is that so? Master Zheng was confused, he did not know whether to answer or not.

"You are afraid of getting too close to Wan Ning, afraid that if you get too close to her, you will have no choice but to get closer to our family. So, watch her struggle in pain, watch her walk step by step towards death."

"And all of this, is because you want to prove that you can take your position without relying on anyone, and become a good official without following any family background. But you have never thought that Wan Ning is also your citizen, and she is also a living person."

"Because of your selfishness, you destroyed the latter half of her life. It's also because you don't dare to face her that you turned a blind eye to her. "

"As long as you take a look at Qingluo when she eats, you'll know what kind of life she's leading. But you're stingy with your efforts, even if it's just a few steps away."

What's more cruel is that your selfishness ended the life of your wife and daughter.

Master Zheng was speechless from Chiang's question. He had never thought about this before, but after being exposed by Chiang, he knew that it was true from the bottom of his heart.

He never dared to think about it. He was really selfish. He was so selfish that he deliberately avoided his thoughts in order to make himself calm down. He deliberately didn't pay attention to those two people, which led to so many tragedies.

But who were those two people? That was his wife and daughter. How cold-blooded was he to be able to do such a selfish thing? Was he still a good official?

Master Zheng felt that he had never felt such despair before. He had always thought that he had done well, that the people of Weir Prefecture under his jurisdiction were at ease and at ease, that he could touch their chests to clear his conscience.

The backyard of his own home had never been as messy as other people's houses. There was no jealousy or jealousy, because he never gave himself such an opportunity.

He had only wanted her. Yes, he hadn't given her a chance, so he had killed his wife. If he said that no one was jealous, he would be lying to himself.

In fact, he had clearly seen her just like that, swaying right in front of Wan Ning's eyes, dressed in bright clothes. Seeing her bring his daughter to Wan Ning's courtyard, he then said that Wan Ning had underestimated her.

Wan Ning did not want to argue, she had already went into hiding in the courtyard and hid in her shell, but she did not let him go, what was she doing at that time?

He was trying to earn money for that woman, afraid that she was just a concubine, and felt wronged. Even though he clearly saw her provoking him, he still tried to find excuses for her because her status was too low.

However, should he be abandoned due to his high status? [I didn't know that she would be so jealous of me after my performance. I didn't expect such a simple thing to happen.]

"Chiang, my mind is in a mess today, I won't be able to entertain you any longer. Please wait here for your wife, I will go inform the madame and when they are done chatting, I will call someone to come find you."

Seeing Master Zheng's dejected look, he was too lazy to face him. Chiang waved his hand, signalling him to leave quickly.

But after Master Zheng left, the Chiang remembered that he had come to ask about the marriage proposal by His Majesty. After being disturbed by the Master Zheng, he had completely forgotten about it.

"Just tell me. A man only has the ability to bully his own wife. What other great abilities does he have to dare to call out? He's acting for the country and for the people. Pui, just him?"

"A lowly girl can even confuse him, how can he talk about making decisions for the people? He doesn't look like a man just because he is pretending to be a Taoist. I wonder where all his knowledge has gone to?"

"Is that what the sages taught him? Teach him not to separate the two. Teach him not to respect his wife. Teach him to mistreat his own daughter? You Zheng Mingrui, who would believe what you're saying, you're the only one deceiving yourself. "

The boy in the room was huddled up in a corner, trying to make sure he didn't exist. How could he dare to listen to such words? If an outsider was in the study room of the main house and scolded him for being useless, then he must be tired of living.

Even if he told the main house out of good intentions and someone scolded him, if the master heard his words, would he still be able to get away with it? A single match was considered light. It was most likely that he would be sold. It would be better to just be honest and pretend that he didn't exist.

The Chiang was also saddened by Zheng Mingrui, a person who thought he was innocent tried hard to keep himself noble and clean. Unbeknownst to him, he was already too deep in the mud to notice.

Chiang could not say whether this man was clever or stupid. A whole body of knowledge was thrown into the river of desire, yes, desire.

The Master Zheng thought that since he had no desire and no desire, he pursued his own cleanliness and was unwilling to be tainted by the secular world. Actually, this was also a kind of desire, a desire that allowed everyone in the world to see his clarity.

He did not know that when water is clear, there is no fish. If he was like what he thought he was, with no one to catch him, he would have already left this position, and the result would be even worse than now.

Master Zheng went back to his study room and threw himself on the bed. After some thought, he still couldn't accept it, he just didn't believe that he wanted to be a proper and honest official, what was wrong with that?

He had always been loyal to his feelings, was there really anything he did not know? Or was what his mother said, what Seventh Prince said, and what Chiang said all true? He was stunned once again and sat up from the bed, shouting for someone.

"Go to the backyard and get Third Miss Mo Li in. Tell her that I have something to ask her." Seeing a servant coming in, Master Zheng immediately ordered him to go get someone. He couldn't take it anymore, and felt as if there was a cat claw scratching his heart nonstop.

"Do you want to call me now?" The attendant asked nervously.

"Since I asked you to go and scream, then of course it's now. Why are you wasting your breath?" Master Zheng was originally filled with rage, but now that she was blocked by a little servant, his heart began to burn with a raging fire.