C91 How strong is motherly love

With such a soft and touching feeling in his hand, it should be something that only a child would have. His face had yet to experience much wind and frost, Luo Qingqi sighed in his heart, and continued to speak about it for Zheng Qing.

"The imperial physicians didn't dare to hold back after being threatened by the emperor. They used all the skills in their bodies, but in the end, they still didn't know if the imperial physician was really proficient, or if the herbs in the emperor's private storehouse were too good. Anyway, I'm fine."

"The child recovered quickly. Although it was very scary at that time, but after the poison was purged, it was only three to five days before I started to be lively again."

Thinking about the danger she was in then, and listening to Luo Qingqi's relaxed tone, Zheng Qingluo knew that he was still afraid that she would worry too much about him. Only, she wasn't that worried about him anymore.

Then, did you return to the Grand matriarch's side? Qingluo had heard from Luo Qingqi that the emperor didn't intend to keep him by the empress dowager's side. Then why would the emperor bring him along in the end?

"Mufei has obtained the permission of the empress dowager. I will stay at her palace to treat her, and she will take care of me there. When I recovered, mufei will leave, and when she leaves, she will kowtow to the empress dowager again, hoping that I can stay at her palace."

"She wants the empress dowager to take care of my life, and she even asks that she can change the imperial jade ultimatum and raise me as her son from now on. She'll treat me like she never gave birth to me and never come see me again, and break off all ties with me from now on."

That was why she was enduring the pain and handing her son over to someone who had the ability to protect her. She didn't ask for anything else but to have her son grow up healthy and healthy.

"So the Empress adopted you? left you in her palace? " Was this what he had just said, that the Empress had raised him? That was no different from his own mother. No wonder he was so close to the empress dowager.

"What adoption? How could there be such a saying in the palace? If I pass the jade proclamation, I would be the empress dowager's child. Although Grand matriarch still calls her by the same name, she would no longer be my mother."

"But the empress dowager didn't do that. She couldn't bear for mufei to kowtow so many times, and she couldn't bear for me to be hurt again. Thus, she agreed to leave me in the palace, but didn't change the jade ultimatum."

"She told mufei that no matter what happens, I'll always be her son. You can go see me at any time, and you can bring me back anytime. But mufei never turns back."

"She returned to the side hall where she lived. Every day, she would shine with green lights, eat and recite scriptures, and never see me again. Even if I ran back to her, she would not meet me."

"At that time, I was still a bit insensible. After I was rejected several times, I started to hate her. I felt that she abandoned me and I became a child that no one wanted."

The Luo Qingqi at that time, had repeatedly knocked on his mother's door, but that vermilion door had never again opened wide for him.

"Ever since mufei ignored me, I began to eat and drink. No one could persuade her, so the empress dowager had no choice but to inform the emperor that she had no other choice. Both these ladies were stubborn, so they had their own plans."

"Tell the emperor to go tell mufei. Bring me back, she'll guarantee mufei, she and the emperor will protect me a bit more. The emperor says how to protect me, the court is still unstable, and he can't busy himself with matters of the court."

"The empress dowager doesn't care about harem matters right now. She's holding onto the phoenix imprint, so he really can't count on her. If she sends me back and doesn't protect me, then what's the point of making a promise?"

If a emperor can't even protect his own little brother, then how can he have the face to be the emperor anymore? How about this, he will personally take me along until I grow up, then the emperor will raise the position of mufei, and the mufei will become the Grand Consort.

Luo Qingqi was very happy to have such an elder brother. There was no dynasty that would raise a younger brother personally, and the reason the emperor did this was just because of a promise.

"Since that time, have you not paid any more attention to Grand matriarch? You really haven't gone to see her again? " Zheng Qingluo actually understood the feelings of a child. When she was young, she also hated her mother a lot.

Just because she couldn't live a life, she gave up her right to live. But had she ever thought that by doing so, she would also give up her daughter's right to live?

Although the original intent of the Grand matriarch was different from the mother of his body, the things that they did were similar to what a child would do.

"Hate her for abandoning me, hate her for ignoring me, hate her even. Why did you save me? If I didn't come back to life, would I not have lost my mother, would I not be so sad?"

"That's why I obediently followed the emperor after he had a deep conversation with me like an adult. At that time, the emperor was still working very hard and his court was very busy. Since he didn't trust the empress, he had no choice but to bring me along as much as possible."

"At that time, because I lost my mother, I knew that I didn't have the qualifications to be mischievous or fooling around, so I was very obedient. I didn't make the emperor worry too much, and everything I have was won over for me by mufei."

"It was only after I grew up that I understood mufei's methods. But by then, I had already been separated from the Grand matriarch for too long, so I didn't know how to stand in front of her."

Zheng Qingluo wrapped her arms around Luo Qingqi, trying to stop him from feeling so sad. She wanted to warm him with her body's temperature, Zheng Qingluo had experienced how painful and desperate that feeling of being abandoned by her loved ones was.

"I can no longer make myself love her like an ordinary son, because I caused her to lose her son, her youth, everything she should have as a woman, and my gratitude can never recover anything she has lost."

Luo Qingqi hugged the little Blue Lo to his chest, and rested his chin on the top of her head. He felt her dependence and then, amidst this warmth, he began to cry.

She has lived her entire life for me, but she has never had me again. She has kept her promise, and as long as I can live well, she will never recognize me again.

This maternal love made Zheng Qingluo envious, but she wasn't lacking in it. The main body didn't have a good mother, but the main body did have a good mother. Zheng Qingluo missed her even more.

"She is a mother. Mother always thinks more about her children, so don't be too sad. We can visit her often, so that she won't be so lonely, so anxious about her."

Zheng Qing gently patted Luo Qingqi's back with his small hands. She wanted to give him more comfort, but he also knew that whatever he said now would be unnecessary.

"It's useless. She won't see me. In her heart, she probably has an ominous feeling about it. Mufei must have felt that after I left her, my life went smoothly, and when I got close to her, there were many calamities."

"I think if she didn't want to watch me grow up, she would have died long ago. It was because of me that she was able to last until now."

Luo Qingqi also patted Qing Luo's back lightly as if he was responding. He felt that she was a little too worried, after all these years, he had already gotten used to watching his from far away, and missing his from far away.

"As you can see from my gratitude, she's in a very bad condition. She had used up almost all of her energy to give birth to me, and she also gritted her teeth and raised me for six or seven years. Those few years weren't too good either."

"From time to time, something will happen. I'm too young to take care of myself, so I always fall into someone else's trap. At that time, I would fall down the stairs, stumble over some stones, and drink some dirty food."

"These things happen every now and then. In order for mufei to take care of me, she really put in all her effort. Until that poisoning incident happened, she used all her strength to place me in a place she felt was the safest place, and then she didn't have the strength to give me any love anymore."

"The only thing she can do is to let herself live, try her best to live, and then, hide in that secluded corner and watch me grow up. She can't bear to leave me alone, I understand, because no one knows how she worked so hard to survive."

When Luo Qingqi grew up and gained his own power, he investigated everything that had happened that year clearly. The life of the Grand matriarch was naturally not something that could be missed, and only then did he realize how deep and firm a mother's love was. And how lucky he was.

"If it was anyone else with mufei's body, she would probably not have lived for more than a year or two, but she was still struggling with her last breath, struggling to stay upright. The reason the empress dowager didn't plan to send me back later was because her body could no longer take care of me."

"Her body is weak to begin with, and she has been living forever. If it wasn't for the pills, she would have died a long time ago, but the pills have been consuming her for so long, causing her body to burn even more."

"But if I don't eat it and I can't persevere for so many years, it has already become a vicious cycle. But she persisted in this manner, and I think that only when I have a child, will she be able to relax. At that time, perhaps, she will be free."

I wanted her to live well, I wanted to love her well, but I couldn't do it. Watching her suffer, I also wondered if it would be a kind of happiness if she could be released just like that.