Chapter 777

Su Yingxue asked about this sentence. In her heart, she wanted to try to create a little ambience of love and ignorance for the two people when they were in the world. She was not proficient in this, or even inexperienced, but she was willing to try, which was also a change in her heart.

She realized that if she wanted to hold on to Li Mu, she could no longer hesitate to make progress in the relationship as before. Li Mu had also taken the initiative, but because of her hesitation, Li Mu now no longer took the initiative. In this case, if she still hesitated, the relationship would not be possible.

Li Mu's thoughts suddenly turned back to his previous life.

Alone in Yanjing, when he drags his exhausted body back to the rented house and lies on the single bed every day, he can't help thinking about things in his mind. He can't help but think about reality, how to do the work in hand, how to realize a certain function, how to solve a bug; or he can think of some completely delusional things thing.

For example, imagine that you have a luxury car and can travel all over China; imagine that you can buy a house and a car in Yanjing with an annual salary of more than one million yuan, or even take your parents over to have a good time; imagine that you can be with Su Yingxue, so that you won't have this kind of sleepless night. Every night, you can hold her and go to sleep with great satisfaction.

Most of the time, Li Mu would like to devote himself to imagining Su Yingxue together with herself, imagining the perfect integration of her life and her life, imagining that she and she could manage their life better together, making everyone envious, thinking too much, even not falling asleep at 3 or 4 a.m., being in the state of half dreaming and half waking, and all the imagination was still His brain around, but because of this half dream half awake, and let himself feel different real.

Such a price is usually to drag the extremely tired body and spirit to carry the whole day's hard work the next day, but Li Mu always enjoyed it. For him at that time, when he was half asleep and half awake at night, it was the most exciting part of the boring life.

Thinking of this, Li Mu felt it, closed his eyes and said softly, "I want to lie in bed quietly and hold you. I'm going to stay up and not sleep."

Su Yingxue's voice was a little shy: "why don't you sleep? What bad ideas do you have in mind? "

Li Mu chuckled: "I didn't have a bad idea. I just wanted to hold you until three or four o'clock, until I was confused and in the quietest place, to experience the feeling of multiple integration of dream and reality."

"Multiple fusion of dream and reality? What do you mean? " Su Yingxue didn't understand.

I thought that Li Mu would say some provocative words. I even got up the courage to cater to him on the phone. But I didn't expect his answer made me a little confused.

Li Mu, who was very tired at first, closed his eyes, and his mental state accelerated. He rolled lazily in his bed with his body and mind exhausted. In his heart, he caught the state that he tossed and turned in the middle of the night.

At this time, Li Mu no longer regarded himself as the so-called billionaire at present, as if he had returned to his previous life, to the situation where he was half asleep and half awake, and everything was left to his imagination.

Thinking of Su Yingxue, Li Mu felt sad.

Without answering Su Yingxue's question, Li Mu said vaguely, "I want to sing you a song..."

Su Yingxue's heart was sweet and she couldn't help but say excitedly, "sing, I'll listen!"

Without any preheating, Li Mu began to sing Zhang Zhenyue's "how to do"

"you are my only dream,

and my only worry,

what to do

When the sky is full of stars,

there is always a little void in the heart,

what to do

You are always in a hurry,

you will never stop,

and I am waiting,

one of your answers.

A kind of unspeakable loneliness,

a mood without dependence,

what to do

On the night of late autumn,

should I walk away slowly?

what should I do... "

Li Mu sings softly, even because he is confused, half asleep and half awake. In some places, he can't even enunciate clearly, but what he sings is extremely absent-minded. This song represents all his feelings for Su Yingxue in his last life. So many years of infatuation, obsession, self deception and unwillingness are all in this song.

In Li Mu's personal view, this song is the perfect expression and interpretation of secret love. The whole song is from the perspective of the first person. It seems to express to the girl he secretly loves. However, Li Mu can understand the deep feeling and helplessness contained in this song. Which is the expression? It's clearly a man who dares to love but dare not say, dare to think but dare to do, but only in half It's just the inner monologue of the night's brainstorming and self talk.

Isn't this the real portrayal of Su Yingxue in her last life?In his last life, Li Mu was not really waiting for Su Yingxue, he was also in constant contact with other girls, but it was very difficult for him to give up his obsession with Su Yingxue, so that he could not devote himself to other emotions.

The main reason why Li Mu is still single when he is in his thirties is that he can't devote himself to it. No matter how mediocre he is, at least he is a white-collar worker. He is not bad at growth. There are girls who are willing to fall in love with him, and girls who are willing to roll sheets with him. But just because he can't devote himself to it, he is willing to live with him for a long time, or he is willing to marry his girl, Li Mu I haven't met anyone in my last life.

If there are girls like to be with him forever in his last life, even if Li Mu has Su Yingxue in his heart, he can't wait for Su Yingxue to be in his thirties. Su Yingxue, for him, sings in this song:

"you are my only dream and my only worry. What should I do?"

Everyone has a dream, and even if it can't come true, most people can accept the reality peacefully, but once the dream becomes a worry, then really don't know what to do.

Li Mu couldn't accept the gap between dream and reality in his last life, so he was stuck in it and couldn't extricate himself.

Moreover, the most important thing is that Li Mu is such a passive animal in the emotional world. He is used to secret love, to putting his feelings on the bottom of his heart, and to repressing his own needs. Su Yingxue is also a passive product of feelings. Two passive people, like two sets of transmission systems, have obvious functional conflicts and no engine driving, How can two transmission systems make four wheels run?

It is for this reason that Zhao Ziqiu appears to be so harmonious and natural in Li Mu's emotional world. She is enthusiastic and active. After realizing Li Mu's passivity in emotional aspect, she immediately transforms herself into a burning engine, and the surging power is transmitted to Li Mu. Once she lets Li Mu move, the car can run.

Li Mu's subconscious always felt that there was a problem between him and Su Yingxue, but he didn't know where the problem came from.

He used to think that Su Yingxue's presence by his side was the proof of his rebirth. He seemed to have been greatly satisfied, but he ignored how to manage their feelings.

With the deep-rooted brand of his last life, he formalized and symbolized Su Yingxue in his mind, instead of trying to remove the brand, and then transformed her from a symbolic symbol into a real existence. Because of this, Su Yingxue never really entered his life, which eventually led to their feelings becoming more and more passive.

At the moment, Li Mu finally realizes the problem between herself and Su Yingxue. It's not her. After all, she hasn't experienced rebirth. She is such a slow and passive person. But if she doesn't do any work all the time, they will be stagnant. But Su Yingxue has already accepted herself. If she takes the initiative, maybe it won't be the same Now it's passive.

I think so in my heart, Li Mu's song has also sung the chorus part. At this time, Li Mu's singing is more affectionate and meaningful:

"standing in front of the door of your heart,

I don't know if there is me in your heart

If I want to stop time all over the world,

let me take my heart,

let you see... "

At this time, Su Yingxue listened to Li Mu's singing quietly, and she was completely attracted by Li Mu's passionate singing. She did not know why Li Mu wanted to sing this song to herself, because in her opinion, it seemed that this song did not match Li Mu's feelings for herself, and the actual situation was here. Su Yingxue could not believe that Li Mu would have such deep feelings for herself.

However, every word of Li Mu seems to contain a kind of magic, a kind of magic that strikes directly at the heart. Su Yingxue can't believe it, but at the same time, he thinks that this should be Li Mu's inner feelings for himself.

The extreme contradiction also makes Su Yingxue feel a strong sense of unreality, just like being in a dream, so she can't distinguish the true from the false.

After singing a song, Li Mu felt as if he had moved away from the boulder in his heart. He finally understood that his mistake in his last life was not to be able to cut through the mess quickly. His mistake in this life was not to be able to distinguish the different reality and get rid of the negative effects brought by the last life's dragging.

In this life, Su Yingxue has been her girlfriend. Why should she have the same real and unreal feeling in her last life?

At this moment, all regrets and regrets were discarded by him, and the brand that he brought from the last life began to be more and more blurred. Li Mu was determined to change from the shackles and troubles of the last life to a new way, a normal and active way to manage his relationship with Su Yingxue.

Thinking of this, Li Mu said affectionately, "I miss you very much now. It feels like every cell in my body is thinking about you..."

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