There was something about him that called to her, and Xiao Rufeng wasn't sure what it was. Was it his sharp mind? She couldn't find the right words to explain it. She was fascinated with him, she was sure of it. Heck, she might be attracted to him too!
Xiao Rufeng could also see that he was trying to keep his distance from her, but she couldn't stay away from him whenever they were together. Yan Xiuchen wouldn't say much to her, but with the slight inclination of his head, she knew that he was paying attention to whatever she was saying.
He was kind to her, there was no question about that, but sometimes Xiao Rufeng wondered if it was all out of courtesy, or he was also attracted to her the way she was to him. The way he looked at her with appreciation whenever they dined together every night, the way he reminded her that she was fine being her.
Seeing him up this close, it only reminded her that she had it bad for him.
He was smart and responsible, and he took his duties very seriously. She had never thought that she would find it attractive in a man until she saw Yan Xiuchen work without a complaint, no matter how packed and busy his schedule was. Something in the way he presents himself entices her.
Xiao Rufeng didn't want to think that this was just a 'transference', that she was channeling her feelings for Jin Qiu to Yan Xiuchen in hope that her feelings would be reciprocated. No. That can't be. It would be unfair for Yan Xiuchen if that was the case. He deserved to be loved by someone as he was.
"I'm sorry." She pulled away and lowered her gaze, aware of the slight blush on her cheeks.
She didn't want to get attached to him if all of this would disappear one day. It would be better if she doesn't get involved with him, as she wouldn't be able to forgive herself if she ended up hurting him in the end.
"How do I look?" Yan Xiuchen asked her, looking a little worried as he tried to picture what Xiao Rufeng had done to his face.
"I guess I should get going then." He said, his voice flat and wary.
Xiao Rufeng flinched at that. It seemed like she wasn't the only one who found his appearance odd today. He looked somewhat strange right now.
"Will you be fine on your own?" She asked. She was half-tempted to accompany him today, but Su Xiaofei's conditions rang in her mind, preventing her from doing so.
"No need. I can manage. We also don't want to get on Su Xiaofei's bad side." Yan Xiuchen replied knowing what she was thinking, allowing her to adjust his jacket.
Suddenly, Xiao Rufeng laughed.
"What's so funny?" He frowned. Yan Xiuchen thought that she found his appearance ridiculous this time.
"Just thinking that it's great that you are wearing these kinds of suits when attending parties." She grinned at him. "When I was younger, I always wondered why my father's guests liked to wear coats with tailcoats. They look like penguins to me. Don't you think I'm right?"
The corner of his lips curled into a smile.
"Did you tell that to your father as well?"
Yan Xiuchen realized that he loved hearing stories about her childhood. This wasn't the first time she shared something like this with him ever since she came to become his temporary assistant.
"I did. He told me that wasn't nice to say, but I could tell that he found humor in it."
"Can't blame him, though. You have a wild imagination there."