Su Xiaofei was surprised when she heard that Ye Mingyu and Han Yize were divorcing this early, but she supposed that things were starting to fall apart between the couple. She couldn't bother to do anything, since she was merely a spectator this time. She didn't have time to spare on them anyway, because if it wasn't work that was keeping her busy, it would be her daughters.
Xiao Yue and Yanyan were growing so fast and it was getting harder and harder to part from them in the mornings. There were times when she and Lu Qingfeng would take turns to bring the twins to work with a heavy set of their own bodyguards. They are turning nine months soon, but they already know how to get whatever they want.
Lu Qingfeng laid with his arm draped around his sleeping wife, his large hand resting protectively over their twin daughters who refused to sleep in their nursery room that night, both throwing a fit not wanting to be parted from their mother.
Despite the long day he spent at work, sleep seemed to evade him that night. He was left to admire and watch his little family sleep in peace. He brushed off the few locks away from Su Xiaofei's face, his heart filled with warmth knowing that she wasn't going anywhere, she wasn't leaving him again.
He had watched her with tenderness on many nights as she tried to balance her commitment at work while trying to take care of their daughters. His love for her was amplified as he watched her care for them, held them in her arms, sang for them - something Lu Qingfeng regretted not hearing more.
Su Xiaofei was quite a decent singer in their previous life and although Ye Mingyu was able to beat her when it comes to acting, the latter was no match against his wife's melodious singing. It was the most beautiful sound in the world for him, especially when she and their daughters' synchronized their laughter as they played their silly games.
His ears picked up the wind that blew among the rainy night outside, kept at bay by the sturdy walls of their manor while his family was tucked comfortably under the sheets, the warm glow from their night light illuminating the room.
Lu Qingfeng remembered so many nights spent alone in Su Xiaofei's room after she died. The cold and loneliness never bothered him, but as he lay next to his sleeping wife and daughters, he couldn't fathom how his life turned out like this this time.
Now, he didn't think he could live without Su Xiaofei and their daughters by his side anymore. Not when he could feel an overwhelming desire to protect them and know the joy he felt in hearing his daughters' laughters and cries. He couldn't forget the feeling when he held them in his arms for the first time.
Yet, despite the joy of the arrival of their daughters in their lives and their household, Lu Qingfeng found his wife still having difficulty sleeping, and it wasn't merely due to the incessant needs of their daughters.
Since she woke up in the hospital weeks after giving birth to their twins, Su Xiaofei was being haunted by nightmares of the past, wherein she was forced to relive the days when Mo Yuchen forcibly aborted the child in her womb and seeing Yun Qingrong die.
It puzzled Lu Qingfeng at first because she hadn't had one of those since their marriage, but now they disturbed her at least twice a week, if not more. Su Xiaofei was already exhausted from managing Bluemedia, now that it was growing, and from caring for their twin daughters. He feared that if her nightmares persisted, it would affect her health sooner or later.
"But that's not all. Han Yize asked the doctors to remove her uterus so Ye Mingyu cannot bear another child from now on without her knowing."
Following her line of thoughts, Lu Qingfeng understood then what his wife could be thinking.
"So you wondered if Mo Yuchen had done the same thing to you in the past?"
"I... I don't know." She admitted. "Do you think Mo Yuchen... do you think he..."
"No." Lu Qingfeng didn't allow her to finish her sentence. "In his own twisted way, I know Mo Yuchen has feelings for you." He then grimaced at the thought.
"I see." Su Xiaofei would have teased her husband, looking as if he had downed a jar of vinegar, but she knew this wasn't the right time for it. "I guess motherhood is provoking the unwanted memories I've been trying not to remember. A part of me is afraid that when I wake up, our girls won't be here. I have to go to their nursery room every morning to convince myself that I haven't lost them too."
Lu Qingfeng knew of it. For others, it might have looked like she was merely doting on their daughters, but he had seen the way she looked at their children. Oddly, there was no guilt in her eyes anymore, and he could only see relief with a mix of longing for something he didn't know. He could only assure her that their daughters would be safe.
Lu Qingfeng lowered his head to hers and kissed her slowly. Their lips taking their time, hands pulling each other close until they were flushed against each other. His wife moaned softly into their kiss. Even now that they were married with two children, his desire for her didn't waver one bit.
Since their girls were born, he and Su Xiaofei rarely had time to themselves and he hadn't dared to make love with her for months, worried that she hadn't fully recovered yet. They could only steal kisses and make out like this, which only left him in disappointment.
When they parted, both were heaving for breath. Lu Qingfeng pressed his forehead against hers and cupped her face. He really hated it whenever she cried because of Mo Yuchen or Ye Mingyu. Can't those two drop dead on the ground somewhere and leave his Feifei alone?
"As long as I'm here, no one will take away our daughters. I will take care of you and protect you with everything I have until my last breath. Nothing can break us apart and no matter how many lifetimes I live, with memories intact or not, I will always find you and you'll find your way back into my arms."
Su Xiaofei shut her eyes, attempting to cease her tears, but some managed to roll down her cheeks. Lu Qingfeng immediately kissed them away and murmured words to comfort her. Indeed, she was lucky to have Lu Qingfeng by her side.