Chapter 416 Go Out With A Bang!

416 Go Out With A Bang!

It makes no sense. Absolutely no sense.

I was buying you time to leave from this place. I was going to die... And you were going to see the world.

But instead, you put yourself between me and Death.

Why?

To buy me a couple more seconds? This guy is a General! There's no way I can win. No way I can run away. No way I can...

What the hell was the point of that, Laylah?

You who never saw the world, you who has been stuck on the 'inside' for so long.

Why did you do that?

And why does it make me laugh so loudly?

The General decided to take his time now that you're bleeding out, dying.

It is kind of funny, isn't it?

He's toying with me. He's strong enough to toy with me.

It makes me laugh.

I wonder if it's because he is that strong. It annoyed and angered me when the others did it. Zephyr, Lin, the other Commander...

But I'm not angry at all right now. Even though you sacrificed yourself for me, even though he's underestimating me, even though he's toying with me...

Maybe it's because there's absolutely no way for me to get out of this?

In the first place, I shouldn't get annoyed by another toying with me, with my life.

I've done it plenty of times, haven't I?

Toying with Beasts, Monsters, Guardians...

I'm going to die.

He is toying with me.

I'm going to die.

He is toying with me.

Why do I not feel angry? Why can't I conjure up that Darkness? Why don't I feel bad at all?

Oh, I get it...

"BE MORE ELECTRIFYING! I WANT TO SEE MORE SPARKS, MONSTER!!"

I hurt her, and I ran away. I ran away like a coward. I didn't apologize, I didn't explain myself. I... Simply ran away. After I got so angry on her behalf against Yarnha... How risible!

I hurt her and yet, what I was most worried about wasn't her pain. It wasn't what had happened, how she felt, how... No.

What I was most worried about was myself! I hurt her, and all I could think about was what it said about me! What it meant for me!

Me. Me. Me. Me. Me. Me. Me. Me. Me. Me. Me. Me.

That's what I was really worried about. About what it said about me as a person.

How laughable! How pathetic!

All I think about is me. All I worry about is me.

I was Reborn as a Monster, inside a Dungeon filled with Monsters.

Not once did I ask myself if the Monster in front of me was another Human just like me! A Human that had been Reborn as a Monster! I didn't ask myself that once!

No, I refused to ask myself that. I refused to even think about it.

Because I didn't care! How horrible!

But none of that matters now. How horrible I am, how nice I am, good and evil, ugly and beautiful...

None of it matters. Because I am going to die! All I have now is the way I'm going to die! All I have is these final moments!

Thank you Laylah, for foolishly sacrificing yourself for me.

Thank you Zino, for giving me this chance.

I am going to die. Laughter wells up within me!

Shine!

Go out with a Bang!

It's important to keep in mind what Mark means by "Toying with X" here. There were times when he inflicted pain on enemies unnecessarily, basically torturing them. This isn't what Mark refers to, and goes completely against his ideal. Mark is strictly talking about fights that he had drawn out, giving the chance for those enemies to "Shine". Examples would be the Fire Spirit, the Sixth Floor's Guardian as mentioned in the chapter(The Arachnae), the Corrupted Dark Elf Berserker, and others!

Remember that Zephyr told Mark about Unique Titles. That there is a definite(But hidden) link between his personality(Who he is as a person) and his Unique Titles(The Devourer and The Evolving Monster).

Letting those enemies shine in their final moments also gives them the chance to show everything that they have, everything that they are capable of doing. Mark wants to see them shine in the face of Death, The Devourer's hunger grows, and The Evolving Monster gets a better picture of what could be done with the enemies' bodies!

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I decided to expand on the idea here, instead of making the chapter longer(And therefore more expensive, Webnovel algorithm...) or having it be part of the next chapter.

I hope these thoughts were helpful in getting the full picture or/and interesting, if so please let me know. That way, I'll keep it in mind and continue doing it in the future.

I'm also going to re-read and re-write all of the novel's chapters. So far... Only three chapters have been re-edited... Finding the time is difficult...

Also, I've started a new novel! It might seem like that one is taking time away from "Reborn As An Evolving Monster", but it really isn't. After more than 400 chapters of plot, character development, and set-ups, writing what I envision is getting harder and harder. Additionally, the (pseudo)psychological nature of the novel is and has been taking a toll on me. Anyways...