CH 21

The young man raised his hand and lifted the loose sweater, revealing faint traces of abdominal muscles, and hooked the corners of his mouth as he murmured to the mirror, “I can finally find you baby….” With my own legs, I can approach you in this life and tell you with my own lips that I love you. I will never foolishly let you leave me; we will be together forever-again.

Releasing the hem of his top and flicking his slightly long bangs out of his face, Mo Jingxuan turned and left his former bedroom.

He would never wrong himself by knowingly staying in a servant’s room and had moved back to his old room the day he had regained his memories.

“Where are you going brother?” Mo Heng half leaned on the rail in the hallway.

Casting a cold glance at him, Mo Jingxuan didn’t answer and went downstairs directly.

Mo Heng straightened up and looked at his back, saying unhurriedly, “Jingxuan, did you forget what dad said?”

Mo Jingxuan turned around with a sardonic smirk, “Do I look like I need a wheelchair? Or maybe my clothing isn’t presentable? Or perhaps you are worried that I might not understand how to act outside?” Staring at the speechless Mo Heng, he lost interest in teasing him, “Don’t try and control me, eh?”

Turning the watch on his wrist, Mo Heng smiled lightly, “I would never try to control you, your legs are on your own body. Even if I wanted to keep you home, who could stop you if you wanted to leave? I just wanted to remind my brother, after all, if you act blindly you might annoy dad again.”

Mo Jingxuan waved his hand, “There is no one watching you, don’t act so much. If you aren’t careful, you might forget your real face.” Checking the time, he moved to leave again, “I don’t have the time to keep you company, but don’t worry. When dad comes back you can feel free to tell him that I went out privately. It’s a pity that I won’t get to see his face when he hears, but I’ll let you enjoy that privilege as much as you like.” Without waiting for Mo Heng to respond after he finished his words, Mo Jingxuan brushed off the non-existent ashes on his shoulders with a wicked smile and left.

Mo Heng stood in place frowning. His elder brother had broken entirely free from the restraints that he and his mother had placed on him. He was even able to counterattack and get revenge for any maltreatment he experienced. In just one month, he completely didn’t know who his brother was….

“Don’t worry so much Xiao Heng!” Yu Hong came out from her room behind him and pulled Mo Heng out from his contemplation. “His temperament will only make your father hate him more.” She continued, “As long as your father doesn’t change the inheritance rights, there’s nothing to stress about. That bitch, Yang Sirou, left more than thirty percent of the shares to Mo Jingxuan when she died, but she also specified that he had to get married first. I don’t know what she was thinking to pit her son so deeply, but I thank her dearly in my heart!”

Mo Heng nodded his head to indicate that he agreed with this, and Yu Hong patted his shoulder with maliciousness in her eyes. At this moment, she was completely exposed as she stood before her son, “Both your father and I agree that he will never get married, so it’s safe to give you the shares instead…besides, no matter how strong he acts, he is still bound to your father by blood. Even if we can’t handle him, your father will be able to control the situation.”

Curling the corners of his lips, Mo heng didn’t express any opinion on her word but took his mother’s hand and walked towards the living room, “Mom, I’m sure you’re tired from dealing with Jingxuan these days, I’ll massage you for a bit.”

Yu Hong rubbed his hand slightly, “I love you the most Xiao Heng, I know you love me too.”

Mo Jingxuan had left the house and was driving away on the scooter that the servants usually rode to buy vegetables. Laughing to himself, he was truly qualified as a rich young master, not even having the ability to drive a car of his own when he went out…

“Oh–” Mo Jingxuan laughed mockingly; it’s his own fault. Now that he was free from his strict routine during rehabilitation, he would have more time in the future to deal with those people. Stepping on the accelerator, he went straight to the Xiao mansion.

The closer he got to Xiao Ying’s house, the more anxiety Mo Jingxuan felt until he parked his scooter at the gate of the Xiao’s, and all his unease was replaced with the joy of meeting him soon.

During those days of recovery, he kept in touch with Butler Qin. Although he knew that Xiao Ying was still deep in a medicated sleep, he still couldn’t help but worry and want to hear about his situation directly from those involved. Thinking about the pain caused from his disappearance, he wasn’t sure if it was better for him to go back to being human or not…but in the future, if Xiao Ying ever goes crazy, he will be able to accompany him to go crazy…

Standing at the door of Xiao’s house, Mo Jingxuan didn’t ring the doorbell but picked up his phone to directly notify Housekeeper Qin instead.

After a while, the gate of the house slowly opened, revealing Butler Qin and Xiao Yao standing behind it.

Xiao Yao unabashedly looked at the young man before him, “I’m very curious about how the eldest son of the Mo family, who has been sleeping for so many years, will be able to help my son.”

Mo Jingxuan smiled; he was not at all surprised that Xiao Yao was able to find who he was, “If I am unable to bring him back, then I will accompany him in madness.”

The determination of his heart was shown through his unexplained but still firm words.

Having said his piece, Mo Jingxuan was silent. He just hoped that Xiao Yao was mentally prepared; no matter what happened to Xiao Ying in the future, he would continue to be by his side for the rest of his life.

The silence was drawn out for quite some time until Xiao Yao turned sideways and opened the door wider, gesturing for Mo Jingxuan to follow him inside.

Mo Jingxuan bowed his body and, with a clear goal, went straight to Xiao Ying’s bedroom. He didn’t care what the two behind him thought; he just wanted to see his baby’s face as soon as possible after so long.

Eagerly pushing aside the door to his room, Mo Jingxuan reached Xiao Ying’s bed in an instant. Looking at the person sleeping before him, he seemed to be drained of all his strength, kneeling down at his side with a bang.

How did his Xiao deteriorate to this point again? Sunken eye sockets, stubble all over his face….It was as if he had returned to the end of his first life. Mo Jingxuan clutched his chest, almost suffocating from the pain he was feeling.

Xiao Yao and Qin Yong, who came in behind him, looked at the scene before them in shock. The young man who had been so steady when dealing with the both of them was now trembling and short of breath as he sat collapsed in a heap on the ground. He was clawing at his chest as if the pain he brought to himself could reduce the damage dealt from within, and his eyes were bright red as if blood would drip out if any force was put towards them at all.

“Uh—” Mo Jingxuan groaned and spat out a mouthful of blood.

“You—!” Xiao Yao quickly stepped forward to support Mo Jingxuan, frowning as he asked, “What’s the matter with you?” 

Qin Yong, who followed him in, rushed over to support him up, “I’ll call Doctor Xia over immediately!”

“No,” Mo Jingxuan wiped the blood from the corner of his mouth as he refused, “Please wait for me outside the door.” Not allowing Xiao Yao to refuse, Mo Jingxuan insisted, “If I hurt him at all, you will be able to pin it on me immediately. Even if you don’t trust that I would be able to save your son, at least trust that the son of the Mo family wouldn’t commit such a stupid crime.”

Moved, Xiao Yao agreed, “I’ll trust you once.”

Mo Jingxuan ushered the two older men outside the room and lightly closed the door before walking firmly to the man sleeping on the bed. Every step he took seemed to take him back to a different period of memories with Xiao Ying, from when he met Xiao Ying to when Xiao Ying died for him. In this life, he became the shadow of this person, staying beside him all the way, hoping that he could live normally and happily, and then the him who harmed this person for a second time left, but now he is back…

Reaching the bed and stopping, Mo Jingxuan bent down and gently stroked the cheek of the man in front of him, “Baby, since you and I are in love with each other right now, let’s walk together every step of the way, okay?” Whether it’s during happy times or sad times, life or death, let’s bear it all together!

“Slap!” Mo Jingxuan’s hand was swung away with a crisp clap.

Still somewhat under the effect of the medicine, Xiao Ying saw everything through a haze, but still asked indifferently, “Who are you?”

Mo Jingxuan looked at his baby who had woken up and didn’t recognize him, and was speechless for a moment.

“Get out.” Xiao Ying didn’t have the patience to wait for his answer.

“Baby…” Thousands of words lingered on the tip of his tongue, but he couldn’t say a single one, all of them finally gathering to voice the nickname he had uttered so many times before.

Xiao Ying suddenly raised his eyes and looked at the unfamiliar man in front of him, “What did you call me just now?!” His voice was filled with anger, trembling from the reminder of the name no one else would ever call.

“Baby…it’s me…Xuan…” Tears spilled out of his eyes uncontrollably. A man shouldn’t cry easily, but his love was just that deep.

Xiao Ying lowered his head and sneered, “How much did Xiao Yao pay you?” As he said this, the loneliness in his eyes flashed away.

Mo Jingxuan leaned over to his ear, “I came to baby when you were five years old, and I stayed with baby until you were twenty one years old. Because baby fell in love with me, I blamed myself for leading you astray….” Seeing Xiao Ying still not responding, Mo Jingxuan continues, “When baby was six years old….”

Time passed by, and the room was filled with Mo Jingxuan’s faint narration as he counted the little things that only they knew about in the ear of the young man.

Xiao Ying’s icy expression had fully left, but his head remained bowed to hide the raging heat in his eyes.

As Mo Jingxuan’s voice faded out, Xiao Ying stood to embrace him fiercely, with such strength that Mo Jingxuan felt his back call out a protest.

Without struggling, Mo Jingxuan pulled out an arm to gently pat Xiao Ying’s back, “I am the eldest son of the Mo family. After becoming baby’s shadow, my body fell asleep in the Mo house until the day I returned. I was back in my original body, but I didn’t remember anything about us. I had the mentality of a five-year-old and was a cripple who couldn’t even move my legs without help….” Rubbing Xiao Ying’s arm that had tightened around him, Mo Jingxuan continued, “After I remembered everything, I started to recover desperately, just to use my legs and see you. To be able to tell you, in fact, I fell in love with you too….”

Xiao Ying didn’t speak, but turned over abruptly and pressed Mo Jingxuan under his body to kiss him fiercely.

Opening his lips, Mo Jingxuan let him attack his mouth; lips and teeth intertwined, and their tongues quickly became stained with the pungent smell of blood. Withdrawing slowly, Mo Jingxuan was afraid that Xiao Ying would hurt himself, but that only served to ignite the man’s lust further. 

The kiss continued until the two were gasping, panting for air as their hot breaths intertwined. Letting go of Mo Jingxuan’s swollen lips, Xiao Ying stared at the person under him and finally said after a long time, “I won’t let you go. You will die by my side.”

Mo Jingxuan’s eyes were full of doting, “Regardless of life or death, it is my long cherished wish to stay by your side.”

Burying his head in his nape, Xiao Ying felt as if he was in a dream, as if the warm temperature in his arms would leave him as soon as he looked away. “Don’t ever go.” His tone was almost pleading as he whispered the words.

Mo Jingxaun put his hands on his chest and pushed back slightly so that he could stare into his eyes, and said firmly, “I swear, I will die by your side.”

“Then let me feel at ease!” Xiao Ying suddenly stood up and stretched out his hand to lift the man to the head of his bed, quickly taking out two belts from the closet as he acted. He spread the man’s arms wide apart and tied them to the bedpost before Mo Jingxuan had any chance to understand what his baby was doing, but even once he did, there was no room for refusal in his actions.

Mo Jingxuan’s eyes were wide open, he was speechless as he looked on at what was happening, but he didn’t resist. He understood his lover’s uneasiness; if he fought back, it would only make him more paranoid. It’s just that this scene felt so familiar…

The man tied his hand tightly and stood back to admire his masterpiece, his expression happy as he took in Mo Jingxuan’s utter helplessness in the moment. It made Mo Jingxuan’s heart ache…forget it, ba. He knew what he was getting into when he confessed his love; as long as he was happy, it was fine. What does it matter if he was tied up for the rest of his life?