Chapter 50. Because it was for publicity purposes (2),
I was surprised, happy, or relieved.
It was supposed to be like that.
I was just sorry.
How did you know me, when did you know about me, why did you wait so long? I couldn’t answer any of the questions, both short and long, and I just felt sorry.
I felt sorry the whole time because I said I missed you.
You wanted to see me the whole time, but I forgot about you the whole time. Because I used the excuse that my life was painful, I forgot that you were painful and didn’t even ask how you were briefly, and only after seeing your face did I think it was good to meet you again.
I feel so sorry about that.
Because I feel sorry for raising my head.
mother.
He rested his forehead against your small and narrow shoulder and just felt sorry for a long time.
– Sweet.
Green maple leaf tea has a sour taste.
Red maple leaf tea has a sweet taste.
Not mint, not coffee, but tea.
Maple leaves that were neither green nor red were floating in the light brown, almost transparent tea water.
This maple leaf tea, which was either orange or yellow, had all kinds of flavors. That’s fun. It wasn’t entirely sour, nor was it entirely sweet, and it seemed to have a bit of a bitter taste, so funnily enough it reminded me of grapefruit. It just occurred to me for no other reason.
‘When I get back, I’ll have to meet brother Randel.’
I need to free Brother Randel’s heart, which I had to put off while coming here. Instead of taking care of only those who are like peas, it is time to take care of those who are like dry reed stalks. When I go back.
okay.
When I go back.
I was glad I had this thought.
I was glad that the maple leaf tea reminded me of grapefruit, which in turn reminded me of Randel. I was really fortunate.
Otherwise, I would have mistakenly thought that this country and this palace was where I would be staying. For just a moment, I almost forgot that I had a new brother and a new father and that I had to pass by this land and return to my own country.
I almost forgot about it for a moment and became complacent.
“Bern.”
A small voice held my feet.
* * *
Kirie heard nothing.
After Louise entered, I listened to everything that went on in the room, but I didn’t hear anything.
Since one day, Kalian has started using Silence whenever Kyrie is nearby, including in the area where Kyrie is. Even if conversations were being exchanged that others should not hear, Kirie made sure that everyone could hear them together. I was very careful not to think that Kyrie was eavesdropping on Calian’s conversation with her good ears.
Same thing this time too.
Calian created a silent barrier all the way to where Kyrie was. So Kirie didn’t hear anything.
I heard everything that was said, but I pretended not to hear anything. I heard that it had been about a month since I started having dreams that plunged me into unfamiliar memories, but I pretended not to hear that either.
– Bern.
I also pretended not to have heard that someone called Kalyan by that name. Even Calian would never have thought he would hear such words. If I had known, I wouldn’t have expanded Silent so that Kirie could hear those words as well.
Isn’t that the clearest proof that the name was not something that was passed down to Chase, but that he found the memory on his own? So Calian knew that Kyrie would also wish the same if she found out that someone other than Chase had found the memories. And Calian did not want Kyrie to find her memories.
If Kirie were to find the memories of Bern, she would know exactly what happened to Hina, but Kirie knew well that Kalian was not the kind of person who wanted Kirie to have those memories again.
So Kirie pretended not to hear.
After a while, Louise came out and Kirie bowed her head deeply and greeted her for a long time. Just like when I saw Allen or Lemain.
“I heard you were there. Your pretty little sister is with you.”
“Yes, it is.”
“It’s only today that I learned that I shouldn’t call that child that now that it’s your name. The crown prince didn’t even tell me that news.”
Louise’s memory of returning around the time the cold wind began to blow in Kairis. However, this time, because Chase was by her side, Louise did not suffer for long.
Kirie didn’t know Louise, but Louise knew Kirie. If you think about it, it’s natural. Since Kyrie couldn’t have been away from Bern, Louise must have seen Kyrie a lot.
“Yes. I am truly fortunate and grateful.”
And Louise said the same thing as Calian.
Kirie thought that Kalian’s foolish counting habit of not being able to count the person who disappeared instead of Hina being by his side was probably similar to Louise’s.
“The crown prince made a special request to me. He told me not to come here, but he ended up walking. However, as long as the princes’ party stays here, they will not come to say thank you again, so I will call the child that way. “I won’t make that mistake again, so if you ever see me outside again, don’t greet me like that.”
“Yes, I will.”
Like today, there will be no need to talk or say hello to others while avoiding their eyes. So Kirie also had to not show it. I had to be careful not to treat Louise like Calian’s mother.
Soon, the Silent that had reached Kirie’s surroundings disappeared. So Louise couldn’t say anything more.
Are you having trouble sleeping now like you did back then? That’s why you always fall asleep early in the morning and wake up late in the morning. Have you been eating well and smiling? Are you comfortable living far away? Are the people there treating you well? You’ve been caught in so many places, but haven’t you had any trouble? And I wonder if I will be able to live well without getting sick in the future.
She wanted to ask Kyrie the many things she couldn’t say to Calian, but she couldn’t, so Louise just nodded and turned back. A lot of things you couldn’t say can be said later.
– Ttogak ttogak.
As I regain my composure, the small sound of shoes fades away.
– Jump and jump.
The sound of shoes that do not need to be hidden from anyone gets closer.
– Ttogak.
The sound of Louise’s shoes stopped.
“That’s right. Calian.”
Planz sat down on the edge of the spire opposite where Calian was standing.
Since Kyrie saw Louise face to face, Calian should have known as well. So Calian goes Calian and Plants goes Plantz. They stayed with each other for a moment. I know that you brought me up here to take a break to catch your breath. I really don’t care, so I told Plantz not to worry. Even in the meantime, I know that I came up here because I cared about that. So I decided not to worry about Plantz either. Remember, he said he was fine
. It means that you don’t have to feel uncomfortable about being caught in a place where there is no way
. “It’s very windy.”
“I guess I’ll help you catch it
on your own.” Calian laughed. Soon, Calian was sober and said that it had been a long time since he had been here, and that on good days, he was really far away.
He started saying a lot of things, like saying that he could see the whole place, and that he got scolded by Chase for falling asleep after drinking here one day and Kirie fell asleep with him. I couldn’t help but
listen to those stories in vain.
“Later.”
Calian said . I cut off several words and opened my mouth.
I thought it wouldn’t be a bad idea for Calian to become king and Plantz to go to Vriesen to raise a cat and keep the promise that was so close to his heart, and then come back and live.
“Come and live. Come back here.”
“Are you talking about me?”
Then you’re asking me.
Why am I coming here? Are you going to bleed to death?
“I’m going to hand it over to the crazy blue-haired wizard, so you come and live. ” I now know that there is a lot to take a breather in the Kairis Palace.”
“I don’t like it.”
Calian heard Calian laughing in Plantz’s ear as he asked if he knew that he learned from you not to talk dirty.
” I’m just going to keep raising dogs, so you can raise cats.”
“... Why?”
There’s Chase, Arianne, Louise, and Secretia, but there’s Dad, Jan, and lots of hands. There are my two older brothers who are leaving, my father who was killed, and Kairis.
“Because it’s Calian.”
Calian laughed.
I was thinking about telling him that he was being rude again, but I just left it at that.
The day after tomorrow, we won’t be the same age, so I’ll be lenient until then. I want to be a big brother with a big heart.
* * *
The moon is bright and there are many stars.
– What’s going on?
– No, it’s just.
It’s late at night, the moon is bright and there are many stars.
I came to Secretia and met Louise.
I can’t forget the words I said that I was fortunate. I didn’t. Maybe that’s why I wanted to hear Hina’s voice.
– Were you sleeping, Hina?
– No, I wasn’t.
Talking to Kirie is always fun.
You can talk without putting down what you’re holding, and Kirie is right next to you anytime, anywhere. It felt good to be there.
So Hina said as she put a fork to the plate in her hand.
– Even after eating dinner, I was a little hungry, but I guess everyone here was like that too. We were all eating cake and cookies together.
After the rain, by the window where the sun was shining. I thought of a young rainbow.
There was a lot of sweet whipped cream between the layers of rainbow-colored bread. Hina went out to the terrace with the cake she greedily brought, and said as she put a lot of cake in her mouth. – Oppa. The moon is bright today and there are a lot of stars.
Really
. Surprisingly, Hina said this.
Kirie said the same thing she thought.
Standing in a garden filled with the scent of begonias and looking up for a while, Kirie smiled and answered.
– That’s right. The moon is bright and there are many stars.
– Yes. It’s definitely sparkling. It’s like a strong dog.
Uh... okay.
Even so, I thought there would be another pretty name to call him. It wasn’t.
Kyrie smiled slightly as she thought about the great words Calian had given her as a birthday present.
– why? Is there anything fun happening?
– no. There is no such thing. I just like it.
– Did anything good happen?
precious.
Suddenly, Hina was so precious that I laughed.
I have to protect it well this time.
You have to protect it carefully.
-There are a lot of stars. I laughed because it sparkled. Hina.
There is one red star and one blue star in the sky.
And Kirie smiled as she looked at the many silver stars guarding her side.