Alix looked at her. "Accident huh..." .net
Shui said, "I don't want to put pressure on you regarding your accident. It's just that...there is not much clarity about it."
"I don't remember much about it either. I fell from the stairs."
"...Correct."
Alix gave her a curious look. "Do you think that somebody was behind it?"
"Ah, no no," she quickly waved her hands. "The accident happened at your home and your family was there at that time. Of course, why would any family member try to harm you?"
"Harm?" She raised her brow. "You give too much credit to a family. At times, your family is your own enemy, you know?"
Shui blinked. "Well...I wouldn't say that it is not true. There are all kinds of people in the world."
"Correct. So tell me what kind of a person you are?"
"Me?"
Alix said, "Yup. I have my memories quite jumbled up and they are all over the place. So I want to know what we are doing by learning art here? As far as I remember, I wasn't so much interested in art. And why did I agree to take help from the woman I had clashes with six years ago?"
Shui looked at her. "Well Xiao thought it would be a good idea if you focus on something other than Kang Yuze. You were getting too agitated because of him and of the people surrounding him, especially women. So she wanted to help you."
"You know that could be easily interpreted as Xiao not liking me enough that she wanted me to learn art instead of chasing her brother and that too from a woman I accused once."
Her eyes widened. "No way. Xiao truly cares for you."
Alix stared at her. "Hm. At least I remember that part. So what is going on here?"
"I am just teaching you art."
"Correction. An art therapist is teaching me art, not an art teacher. So I wonder what am I doing with a therapist?" She then shrugged. "Well technically, you can be considered as an art teacher too but I highlighted doubt that you come to me with that capacity when there is a therapist tag against your name."
"Okay and then?"
"Then slowly you started to use grim colors like here. Your drawings couldn't connect either. I could see your distress because you don't know what you were drawing about. Then they become more chaotic as if you are fighting with yourself."
Shui showed one drawing which was just a huge lump of black color violently shaded over the entire white page. There was nothing else. She looked at Alix to see any reaction but there wasn't any.
"This makes you understand my state of mind?" Alix asked.
"Not a hundred percent but it does give some clarity."
"But what does this conclude?"
"I feel that you were a bright and confident girl before. The drawings when you remember those times signify the same as well. Xiao also said the same thing about your personality. But then as time passed, you began to lose your confidence and self-esteem and your later drawings denote exactly that."
Alix frowned. She tried to search in her memories of any time that warranted such a change, but she couldn't grasp it fully.
"Do you remember something?"
"Not really...Do you know something?"
Shui hesitated at first but seeing the recent changes in her, she made up her mind. "It seems to begin from the time when Kang Yuze rejected you."
"Sorry?"
"Yes. You confessed your love to Kang Yuze but he didn't return your feelings. That time coincides with the change in your basic personality-"
"No, no. You are wrong. Why the hell would my personality change because of Kang Yuze?"
Shui blinked. "I mean...you liked Kang Yuze so-"
"When? When did I like him?"
She was taken aback. "Always? You confessed to him, right?"
"What? No. I never confessed to him. It was Kang Yuze who had confessed to me. I rejected him."