Jin tossed and turned on his couch but couldn't get sleep no matter what. He laid on his back staring at the ceiling.
This is not a big deal really. Stop overthinking...
He placed his hand over his forehead, releasing a tired sigh. From between his fingers, he peeked at Shui. He thought she was soundly sleeping by now, but he noticed some movements from her side. Her legs seemed to constantly fidget inside the blanket as if she felt uncomfortable somewhere.
Jin blinked and quietly stood up. He walked towards her slowly and scanned her from top to bottom. Upon closer look, he also heard some soft distressed murmurs and mumbling from her lips. A light layer of sweat had formed on her forehead.
"Shui?" He whispered.
She made a muffled sound and moved restlessly. Jin sat on the edge of the bed near her and gently shook her arm this time. "Shui."
Seeing her tremble, he quickly placed his hand on her forehead.
She doesn't have a fever. But at this point, she also began to feel breathless.
"Help...please...Jin..."
His eyes slightly widened and he scooted closer. "Shui, I am here. What's wrong?"
"...Go...Don't touch me..." a small tear escaped the corner of her eye.
Suddenly, it struck Jin.
She is having a nightmare. The incident at the party...
He gnashed his jaw, his fury for Mui bubbling even deeper. A murderous flash of light passed through his eyes, but he forced himself to calm down.
"Shui, Shui. It's me. I am Jin. Wake up."
When he didn't get any response, he shook her shoulder slightly harder which woke her up with a gasp.
Shui stared dazedly ahead, her heart pounding in her chest as if somebody was hammering on it ruthlessly. Feeling moist on her forehead, eyes and near her ears, she heaved breathlessly.
Her lips formed a small smile. "Would a friend go as far as cutting off the bad man's arms and legs?"
"...My brothers would do that for you. You know it."
"Hm, I agree. And you?" She asked, "Would you punish the bad people for me only as a friend?"
Jin couldn't immediately answer the last part of the question. "...Yes."
"What if...I want more than that?"
He stiffened. "That's not possible..."
"Why?"
He pressed his lips inwardly in silence.
"Do you like somebody else?"
"No," that answer was immediate.
"Then do you like me?"
He bit his lower lip.
She smiled. "I take it as a yes. So you like me, but you cannot go further than that for some reason. Yet, you still promise that you will always be by my side. That's a little cruel, don't you think?"
He panicked. "I...! I didn't mean it...I mean..."
Jin wasn't sure himself what he was trying to explain.
"Don't..." Shui's lips slightly quivered. "Don't make promises that you can't keep, Jin. I was lucky that you were at the party tonight. But remember you weren't supposed to be there, right? Ai forced you to come. If she hadn't, then..."
Jin paled. "Shui..."
"You won't be by my side, Jin. Just like how you weren't there for the last six years. B-but you still act in a way that makes me feel you will. It gives me hope. It makes me happy. I...don't want to live in that hope again, Jin. It's very painful because then I crash land and I realize that ah... it's hurting everywhere."