Chapter 181

I could clearly see that her eyes were moved. Then she looked at me and seemed to be lost in thought for a long time. She didn't mean to let go of me, but just shook her head, "our situation is different."

"What's so different about being a mother?" I asked her.

"Wei Shengyang is my aboveboard son. He is reasonable. If you are really from Wei Shengyang's family, he is unreasonable."

I lowered my head and felt a knife in my heart. Then my whole heart became bloody.

"But I love my son, too." My heart is struggling, as if to find a reasonable reason for his birth.

Loran, she sat next to me, took my hand and blocked the light in front of me. Her tone was gentle and her attitude changed a little.

I think maybe as a mother, she understands the pain of being taken away from her children.

So maybe she's just pitying me.

Sure enough, she said, "An'an, if this child is a child of Weisheng family, I am his own grandmother, and we will not treat him badly."

"No matter what you do to him, good or bad, he is doomed to have no biological mother, isn't he?" I heard my own voice, suppressing the pain.

Have you ever thought about what your life would be like if you had no mother since you were a child?

Even if you have a lot of servants to take care of you and others to teach you, it doesn't change the fact that you haven't had a mother since you were a child.

She patted my hand, did not try to persuade me, did not say to let me go, got up and left.

I know what she means. Even if she understands me again, she is on the side of weishengjia. She will not let me go.

I'm not afraid of anything.

But what about my children?

As soon as he was born, he was not loved by his father, because his father loved another woman, and that woman would be his stepmother. Then he was doomed not to see his mother before he opened his eyes.

In this lifetime, he may not know who his mother is.

However, Luolan's attitude is so firm. In fact, I know that if she let me go so easily, how could she deliberately return home to settle down and then imprison me here?

This is the attitude of the Wei Sheng family. It's the blood of the Wei Sheng family. It's impossible to live outside.

Even if I'm for the sake of my child, I should be strong. Anyway, I'll give birth to him safely first.

But I can't be so optimistic. As soon as I think about his life after he was born, I feel that I can't do what I want, and I have a lot of guilt.

Blame me for not protecting him. That's why he didn't have a mother since he was a child.

I am a person with obvious emotional performance. When I feel pain in my heart, I am not good at all. I am unwilling to speak, I have a dull expression, and I can't even take a bite.

Even if you eat it, you will spit it out on the spot.

I began to lose weight, and the situation became very bad, and Lorraine didn't give me nutrition liquid as she said before, and also wanted me to have a baby. Later, she came to me many times to comfort me.

She took my hand, attitude is particularly sincere, "An'an, you don't have any psychological pressure, if this child is really not a child of Weisheng family, I will immediately let you and the child leave, will never take him, or hurt you a point."

Yeah.

She didn't say it was OK. The more she said that I was angry, I knew clearly that this was the child of Weisheng family.

Then when she saw that I didn't respond, she continued, "if it's a child of the Weisheng family, no matter it's a boy or a girl, his grandfather and I will not treat him badly. As the eldest son of the Weisheng family, he will be a born aristocrat and live a respected life from an early age

I don't need my child to be on top, I just want him to stay with me.

"You don't have to worry about Wei Shengyang and Wanyan's marriage. If you have another child, it will shake the child's position in the family. No, the eldest son is always the eldest son. If it's a boy, he may inherit the future family. You should be happy about that."

If I were real suan'an, I might be fooled by that.

But I'm not. I'm Bai Nanfeng. In fact, I know Weisheng family too well. Their family may raise the child, but they won't give the family to the child.

Their family pays great attention to blood, which is why they have been preventing me from being with Wei Shengyang at that time.

I even suspect that when Wei Shengyang was taken away by them, maybe they didn't like my identity as Bai Nanfeng, so they wanted to cut off our contact as soon as possible.

But it doesn't matter any more, and there's no need to verify it now.

Lolan drooped eyes, heart to heart with a gentle voice and I said a lot of words, some words heard in the ear, some words seem not to hear.

I don't remember what she said. In the end, she stood up, looked at me helplessly and sighed, "ah, there's still no response. I don't know what to do. Let's go to the doctor for counseling."I understand the last sentence. She wants to find a psychologist for me to guide my mind.

Then, I was in a trance, and I didn't know how long later, many doctors in white coats rushed into my room, observed me, and then asked me in turn.

I was locked in the room, and doctors kept coming in and asking me questions. I could see their lips moving, and sometimes I could hear a little voice, but I didn't want to respond at all.

I find them annoying, really.

Then they all went out dejected.

Then, when the last doctor came in, I felt that he was very familiar with something, but I couldn't tell exactly what it was.

Until he finally took off his mask, I stood up and looked at him in panic.

Gu Muyang! A face that I haven't seen for a long time, a face that I want to escape from when I think of it, how can he appear here?

"Ann." He called my name in a gentle voice.

I clenched my quilt and at that moment I wanted to cry for help.

I know that in order not to let others disturb the diagnosis of the psychiatrist, they only leave me and the doctor in the room.

Although Gu Muyang and I are the only two people in the room now, they are actually at the door and have not gone far.

They should still be listening to the movement in the room, but I don't know if there is a bug or not. Anyway, as long as I shout, people outside can certainly hear me.

And then they'll push the door in.

I was a little nervous. He came up to me, squatted by my bed, winked at me and asked, "your name is suannan, isn't it? My name is Charlie. I'm a psychologist