Chapter 187

Then I fell asleep like this. I even thought if I didn't wake up again, no one would tell me that my child was gone.

It hit me so hard that even in a coma, I didn't want to wake up. I didn't want to face the reality.

I've really been looking forward to this child for a long time, and now I feel like my heart is being thrown out.

If I have to choose a person between me and my child, I would rather lose my own life and keep the child's life.

Well, my son, my mother loves you so much, but she can't protect you or look at you.

Do you blame mom?

However, many things are not my subjective decision, so Rao is that I want to hide in my own dreams and do not want to wake up, I also quickly opened my eyes.

I look around confused, or I often see the scene, there are a lot of people around me in white coats, also wearing nurses' clothes, and then I am in the four walls are white room, Gu Muyang is standing by my bed, nervous looking at me.

"An an?" Seeing me wake up, he exclaimed in surprise, his face full of joy.

Under his happy expression, he was exhausted.

It can be seen that he was worried all the time during my coma. I'm afraid he broke my heart.

I want to sit up with my body, but I can't.

He quickly came over and held my hands tightly, feeling a little excited. "You're still too weak now, and you've been lying for too long, and the blood in your body is not circulating. You'd better not think about doing it. After a while, you can try it again."

I nodded and looked at Gu Muyang. I tried to squeeze out a smile, but I couldn't.

"Stop laughing. I know you're sad."

I shook my head and closed my eyes. "I'm not sad, really." I heard my voice choking, and then I felt tears coming out of my eyes uncontrollably.

"There will be children. Don't be sad. Some things can't be decided by ourselves. Maybe they are arranged by God." He comforted me, but I didn't feel any sign of being comforted.

Nothing can ease my inner pain.

Then he seemed to say a lot in my ear, but my ear seemed to be hard to use and couldn't listen.

But after a long time, long enough that he didn't talk to me, I turned my head and looked at him. I was still a little lucky, "Gu Muyang, are you sure the child is gone?"

He dropped his eyes and held my hand tightly.

All right, you can be sure.

Then I fell into a state of depression, I began to become dull, slow, especially slow reaction, even when people talk to me, I can't feel it, I can see their mouth moving, but I can't hear what they are saying.

Last time I was depressed, it was the appearance of Gu Muyang that made me hope for life again. I thought I would have a good future with my children.

And then Then there's no more.

Then Gu Muyang found a lot of psychologists, tried to give me treatment, but there was no effect.

I can't eat, I can't sleep again, but in a few days, I'm so haggard.

Even if Gu Muyang wants to push me out for a walk, he can only help me to the wheelchair to get out.

Such I seem to be sad Gu Muyang, he sighs, but can't think of any way.

A gentle man like him began to lose his temper with these doctors. He called them rubbish. Then he held his head and legs and buried them in my quilt.

The doctors sighed helplessly, "Dr. Gu, we really can't blame her for this. Her heart disease is because she lost her child. Unless someone can get her child back, she will have hope to live, but we all know that the child can't come back."

"You're Farting!" Gu Muyang roared.

A few meaning hang head, also dare not say too much.

And I was leaning on the head of the bed, holding a pillow, like holding a child, looking down at the pillow and saying nothing.

Later, Gu Muyang left. I don't know where he went, and I don't want to know where he went.

He seems to have been away for a long time, but I don't have any idea of time any more. I only know that he seems to be in high spirits when he comes back later.

As soon as he came in, he took my hand and said, "an an Well, can I call you Nanfeng now? "

I think he finally admitted my true identity, but now it's meaningless to admit it.

Because no matter which name, it doesn't mean anything to me.

"Nanfeng, I went to find someone. Guess who's here?"

I still hold the pillow and do not speak, I can clearly feel that I even breathe a little hard, I think I must be dying, if I die, the world will not have anything to do with me.Maybe if you die, you can really go to heaven or hell, and then see those people who have died there.

Maybe ANN, maybe my baby, well, it's good.

Baby, mother is coming to accompany you, you don't worry, don't cry.

The door of my room was pushed open, and a tall figure appeared at the door. He looked like he was in his fifties. There were no wrinkles on his face, but his hair was gray, as if he had not seen him in this year. He was a lot older.

I remember that although he was very old, he was still very handsome.

"South wind!" The middle-aged man came to me, and I saw tears in his eyes when he saw me.

And I am also the same, tears will soon flow out, for a long time no emotional changes in me, this moment finally produced emotional changes.

"Dad..."

Yes, this middle-aged man is my father, Bai Haiming.

I tried to prop myself up, and then the pillow I was holding also fell to the ground. I looked at him with my mouth open and my eyes were full of surprise.

I haven't seen you for a long time, father.

"Don't move, don't move..." Dad nervously supported me for fear that I would fall out of bed.

"Well Dad, why are you here? "

Although the words have been asked, but my brain is not completely difficult to use, Gu Muyang said to find the person, is my father?

What surprised me even more was that my father had no doubt and believed that I was his daughter, not the original suan'an.

I fell into his arms and buried my head in his body.