Chapter 1544: Katie's Situation
Katie slowly got up from the ground, the blanket still wrapped around her. She looked toward Ning and then wiped her tears.Gét latest novel chapters on nov(e)lbj/n(.)c/om
"Why did you do it, Katie?" Ning asked.
"Because I wanted to forget," she said. "The few hours this thing works, it lets me forget."
Ning was taken aback. "What do you want to forget, Katie?" he asked.
"My life. My situation. Everything. I want to forget everything," she said. "It's much better than the other solutions my mind comes up with."
Ning settled down next to her and sighed. "Do you have friends?" he asked.
"A few, but I left them once I joined the military," she said softly.
"And you didn't make any in the Military?" he asked.
"I was pushed up to an Officer just days after I joined. I didn't have the chance to make any people," she said.
Ning sighed. "Then... do you want to talk about what is going on? If that will help, I'll listen. That sounds like a much better alternative than doing drugs. Especially since it doesn't look like you even like doing drugs."
The girl said nothing.
"You can talk when you want to," Ning said. "And you don't have to say anything if you don't want to."
Ning waited for the girl to speak, but she didn't.
"Also, I won't tell anyone about this, so don't worry. Just, don't do drugs anymore, okay?" he asked.
The girl nodded slowly. She still didn't say anything.
'She can't face the truth,' Ning thought. He had heard that many people when they lost the power of Spark lost themselves in the process.
He had heard in passing about how people would rather kill themselves than stay Sparkless.
Someone born without the power to use Spark was fine, but when they were used to it when they knew what it tasted like, they couldn't live without it.
'This girl tried to live,' Ning thought. He couldn't imagine what sort of mental battle this girl was fighting with herself. She was fighting off her own thoughts to kill herself. In doing so, she had unfortunately fallen into the habit of taking drugs.
Drugs were bad, certainly, but compared to suicide, it appeared so much better as an option. A lesser evil of the two.
Ning sat back down. "I'm sorry. I didn't realize what you were going through. I can't even imagine what you could be going through."
The girl sniffed a little and said nothing.
"How did it happen?" he asked. "How did you go Sparkless?"
The girl shivered a little and seemed to shrink into herself. "Two weeks ago," she finally answered. "A few days after we arrived, I was one of the people sent to the city to fill it with air."
"This was my first time doing something at this level, so I wasn't ready. I thought I had to push myself hard so I consumed more Spark than my body could handle or something. I ended up holding the energy within me for too long, and then it vanished from me all at once."
"It took me some time to realize that I had become Sparkless. When I did, it was too much of a blow," she said.
"I see," Ning said. "Do your superiors know?"
She nodded. "They tested me and figured out I was Sparkless," she said.
"What then?" Ning asked.
"Nothing. They told me they would deal with me later since they were busy at the time. They haven't called for me in 2 weeks," she said. Once again, tears streamed down her face.
"It's hard," she said. "It's so hard to continue living when you realize that you can never reach your true potential, and the fault was no one else's but your own."