"What are you doing?" Shen Yue asked Gu Shangyan as he took her purse and put it in his car.
"Your car is not working, "Gu Shangyan said as he saw Shen Yue standing near her car. He had been seeing her for a long time and she was trying to start her car but she was failing. She called the car company and she said something to them. It seemed he needed a lift home. Since he was here, he could do it. It was not like they lived on different ways, instead they lived quite close to each other. I will drop you home.
"I can book a cab, "Shen Yue told him politely.
Gu Shangyan quickly asked her, "Why would you? I told you that I will drop you home."
Shen Yue looked at him and said in a cold tone, "I am fine, Gu Shangyan."
She did not know what was wrong with him. For the last two weeks, she realized that he was ignoring her. Whenever he would see her, he would just change his way. Initially, she thought that she was thinking too much. He might be stressed because of his family's situation but then she realized that he was normal with Everyone but her. He was ignoring her. If she ended up coming in front of her where he could not ignore her, he would just say a polite hello and walk away.
She was frustrated and angry at his behavior but she did not say a thing because she did not know why he was behaving the way he was. But then she decided to give him the benefit of doubt and let him come to her. Oh, as to why she knew he would come to her, she didn't even know this either. This arrogant attitude of her was saying that he would.
Right now, she did not wish to be cold to him. But she could not help it. She was hoping for him to come to talk to her and when he was doing what she was expecting him to, she waa showing attitude. Humans were weird, she had long known it. She didn't even know why she was behaving like this. Why did it matter to her that he was ignoring her? It should not, right? But hell, it was!
"Are you okay?" Gu Shangyan asked him. He did not know why but he had a feeling that she did not look well to him. She was fine but she was not behaving like her usual self.
"Just tired, "Shen Yue said. "As you know, I am handling Lu Xuan's department too. We used to work closely. We can't find his replacement soon."
Gu Shangyan nodded his head. "Sit in my car. I will drop you home."
"I will book a cab, "She said.
"Don't make me repeat myself, Yue, "He said. "We live in the same area. I am going back to my place. I will drop you on the way home. I don't even know how many times you have done the same for me."
Shen Yue sat in the car without any objections after that. He was driving the car and she was sitting on the passenger seat quietly. In between, he would look at her side to find her quietly staring out of the window. He did not know why but he felt like she was very sad. And lord knew why he did not like seeing her like this.
"Are you okay?" Gu Shangyan asked her.
Shen Yue looked at her and nodded her head. Why would she not be okay?
"Are you sure?" Gu Shangyan asked her again.
Shen Yue nodded her head.
"If you have problem, you can share, "Gu Shangyan said. "I might not be a good problem solver but I am told that I am good listener."
Shen Yue sighed. "There is nothing you can do."
"Is it about you ex again?" Gu Shangyan asked. That boy was good once upon a time. He had favourable opinion of that idol boy as the latter was close to both Lu Xuan and An Xiulan. But after he heard what the boy did to Shen Yue, he did not like him anymore. He made such a good girl this sad. How could someone do it?
"Shanghai, there are problems in life that do not start and ends with our exes, "Shen Yue snapped. When she realised that she raised her tone ad him, she looked at him with an eyes full of apology.
"Don't say it, "Gu Shangyan said.
"What?" She asked.
He said, "I know you are about to say sorry." She was about to say something but he did not give her a chance and continued, "Don't refuse. I know you. Stop saying sorry. If you said sorry, I will feel bad about all the time when I did lord know what in the fit of drunkenness. I thought we established that we are friends."
Shen Yue only sighed.
"What's wrong, Yue?"Gu Shangyan asked her again. He could not see her stressed like this.
"It is nothing and everything at the same time, "Shen Yue told him. "There is no particular reason about the way I am behaving. Whenever I try to find out why I am behaving like this, I can't find any. There is stress in office. I am working overtime because of workload. I promised mom a vacation and you know I have done all the bookings, I don' want to cancel or postpone it. This is why I am rushing to finish the extra work. But the more I rush, the more stress I get. I can't do anything in the end."
"Does it makes sense?" She asked him.
Gu Shangyan nodded his head. It made absolute sense to him.
"Would you like to have a drink?" Shen Yue asked him. She was having a hard day. She wanted to have a drink today to forget all the problems of her life. And who would be a better company than him? No one drowns their problems in alcohol more than him. To her, he was the perfect company at this time.
Gu Shangyan looked at her and then shook his head. "I quit it. "
"Really?" Sheb Yue asked him, surprised. She did not know what to think about it. But she did not feel bad about hearing it. She did not find it bad that he could not have drunk with her or he was refusing her. In fact, it was contrary, what she was feeling.
He nodded his head.
Shen Yue could not help but ask him, "When?"
The way he was drinking and she had to bring him to his house each time he was drunk, she did not think that this day would ever come but it seemed that many things have changed.
Gu Shangyan sighed, "A long time ago."
It was not too much time ago but he felt as if it had been so long since he had alcohol. With each passing day without having a drop of alcohol was like a year was passing for him. It was not at all easy for him. He would drown himself in work or go home often so he would be able to fight his addiction. He was counting his days of being sober. It was one of the hardest things that he had done in his life.
"That is really nice, "Shen Yue said.
Gu Shangyan asked when he noticed a smile on her face, "Is it?"
She nodded her head.
"I don't think so, "Gu Shangyan said.
"Why?" Shen Yue asked. She wondered if he was having second thoughts about it.
Gu Shangyan answered her by saying, "Because you asked me for a drink and I can't even accompany you. Seeing alcohol breaks my resolve."
He could have just gone with her and accompanied her but he did both. He refused her because he could not go near alcohol without wanting to drink it again. He just wanted to stay away from his addiction to win against it. He felt bad that she needed a friend and he could not be there for him as he was busy fighting his own ghosts.
Shen Yue said with a smile, "It does not matter. I don't feel like drinking now."
"Why do you suddenly look happy?" Gu Shangyan asked her.
"I don't know why, "She said with a wide smile. She just realized that her bad mood from earlier had changed all of a sudden. It was really weird that she had no words for it. What was wrong with her?
Gu Shangyan asked, "You wanted me to quit alcohol that badly?"
"What can I say?" Shen Yue shrugged. Who would not want an alcoholic to change? Both of them knew that he was. There was no denying to it. How could she not be happy that he was trying to change his life?