Chapter 41

Chapter 41

So you really dont remember.

Yes, Missus Deere.

The first thing she felt was discomfort. From the way Missus Deere looked at her and to the kind of expression the older woman had, Carynne didnt like it all. And neither did she like anything the woman said.Gét latest novel chapters on nov(e)lbj/n(.)c/om

Are you alright?

Yes.

Even when it felt awful, this was fine. What Deere told her was already something that Carynne had expectedto the extent that Carynne already thought that her entire life was her own delusion. She had already been thinking about this over and over again.

Why?

With a perplexed expression, Missus Deere directed a question at Carynne.

But are you alright? It must not be all okay.

At that haughty response, Carynne felt a bitter taste in her mouth.

To sum up everything that you said, the state of confusion that I experience is because of some kind of mysticism.

It may be unpleasant to hear, but it is true. Gypsies know many kinds of sorcery.

Carynne snorted.

Why would they move from place to place if theyre so capable? Theyd just conquer the world.

Missus Deeres face reddened slightly. But, she soon opened her lips to speak once more.

Your mind is fragile, isnt it.

To some extent, it was not so pleasant to hear this from another person. But Carynne brushed off this feeling and merely shrugged.

A hundred years was not so easy to live through. Its already stamped in her mind that everything here could be an illusion caused by her own madness. Therefore, its not surprising to hear this truth from Missus Deere.

The nonchalant acceptance of, Yes, thats a possibility, was something she heard first. Before she would fulfill her promise to Nancy that shed die by the nannys hand, Carynne made up her mind to dole out the proper punishment first.

Thanks to you, Ive confirmed one thingthat my father knows that Im not in my right mind.

And that, in the manor, he was the one who gave a helping hand and hid the corpse. Carynne stared at the womans dry hair.

You are not me.

Because all the memories in her own head were too long and too specific, she couldnt dismiss them all as mere delusions. Carynne couldnt figure out to what extent she could believe Deeres words. No, even if she were to believe everything, wasnt the information she was given far too limited? After all, this woman was an outsider. She did not know everything.

My father, and my mother, too, are not me. Especially Nancy

shouldnt have been killed.

Now that shes far away, what you said couldnt be proved true.

These words made Deere look remarkably happy.

Do not pretend that you dont know.

Carynne clenched her teeth. She found it difficult to accept that it was all because she was confused. This needed to be sorted out. It had to be handled. Steer herself. Take action. The coin had already been tossed. There was no reason to hesitate.

And if you at least had a brain, you would know.

Clatter.

You should understand that I have no intention of keeping you alive now. Right?

Carryne! Calm down! Nancy has been tormenting you, the fact that youve come all the way here only now, cant you see? The time since you were a baby and to this day now that youve come here, cant you tell just by looking back at the things that you cant remember? But now that youve come to me, itll be alright. Yes? Now that His Lordship kicked that woman out, I can see that he also knows. That I was wronged. If you take me back with you now, itll be alright. Everything

Deere let out everything she wanted to say in a hurry. Something had gone wrong.

Bang!

AHH!

Carynne aimed at the womans head, but she missed the mark. Blood dripped from Deeres head nonetheless. Her face was covered in blood. Carynne reloaded and approached the woman. The bullet just grazed her scalp and hit the surface.

Raymond finished it in only one shot, but I guess a human beings skull is more slippery than I thought.

Carynne, get ahold of yourself now, please?

Carynne took a step closer to Deere. What a sight. This middle-aged woman had been trying to get Carynne under her control just now, proudly laying down her past. But now, she was over there in one corner, shivering.

Ive already killed Nancy.

Carynne laughed. Her bright teeth shone in the afternoon sun. Deere stepped back, but there was nowhere else to go.

The girl with a smiling face drew closer and closer.

* * *

Its alright.

Its fine.

All the sad things are just part of the novel.

The young lady is dreaming right now.

To you, this world is but a dream.

Soon, you and the knight shall fall in love.

And all the suffering shall come to an end.

* * *

Didnt I say Ill pick you up in a little while, Milady?

Borwen.

Please just stay docile. The one wholl be scolded by Lord Dullan is a lowly person like me.